I'm New Here

Tye · Post by **Tye** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 5:15 am

Hello All,
My name is Tye Green and I'm new to the message boards. I actually got my attacking anxiety program back in 2003. At that time I was severely agoraphobic. The program helped me get out of the house, get a job, and start a new life. I recently ordered the program again as I've lost my previous program materials because I have started having panic attacks more often. Plus, to be completely honest, I did not use the program to my full advantage the first time. I skipped chapters that scared me; specifically the chapter in which we're supposed to write down our bad thoughts and replace them with good thoughts. I listened to the CD, and a woman on there had a heart attack. At that time, and even now, I cannot hear about someone else's health issues because I immediately think that it's going to happen to me. It causes me to panic for days on end; like I can mysteriously get that health issue just by knowing about it.
This time when I receive the program in a few days I know it will completely help me to change my thought patterns that have kept me in lingo for the past 6 years. I cannot stay in the situation I'm in. I desperately want to start to enjoy my life, and not think that every second of everyday something bad is going to happen.

I still cannot go into malls, grocery stores, or any other store that has a line. Sometimes I have trouble driving to and from work. And recently, I had a few panic attacks at work. I'm scared, I'm confused, and depressed. I was seeing a therpist for about two years, and last week she suggested that I take some type of medicine for my panic and anxiety. That's when I decided to purchase the program again, and to use it to its full potential.

When I started the program 5 years ago, I had gotten to a point where I could create and enjoy relationships. Now, I'm having a hard time explaining to my spouse the issues that I have with anxiety. I kept it a secret in the beginning, but when we got married I had to tell the truth. But, the deeper I go into the fear, the more confused my spouse gets; not understanding how this could be such a big problem.

Today, I tried to go to work. I got in the car, pulled out of my driveway and instantly I was in that fear. The kind of fear that dehabilitates you. I began to shake, and feel like I needed to get out of my car and run. I pulled over, took a few deep breaths and got it together long enough to turn around and come back home. I cannot stop crying as I had to tell my job that once again I will not be in.

Sorry for venting, I really just wanted to introduce myself and say hello to you all. I'm looking forward to reading more of the posts and hopefully finding some relief for my problems.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 6:38 am

Tye,
Hi welcome back to the program. I commend you for realizing it was time to order the program again and use it to its full potential. You will not regret it I know. I am a firm believer in the program. I have been thru the program once and have reviewed the program occasionally.
I am going thru the program again. I too am having anxiety again. We have suffered a loss, and I know because of this I am needed the program again. I am so thankful it is at my fingertips anytime I need to go back and refresh the skills I need to cope with things that come in life. I truly feel anyone would benefit from this program, it is truly life skills we each need to have in order to deal with life and the challenges it brings. I am so happy you have returned. Go to our online chat, there are so many that are so supportive and helpful. We are hear if you need a friend to chat with. You can also private message someone if you need more one on one advice. I wish you the very best in your journey to recovery.
You will do this, and I know that peace and contentment you are longing for will come.
Your Friend
Angla

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 8:34 am

Hi Tye,

I understand how you feel. My anixety has been gone for awhile, but just recently has come back and I've been having problems at work. This week will be the 3rd week I've been having trouble at work. Everyday when I get up I say, ok let's just get ready to go to work but I really won't go. Then after that thoughts done, I say ok lets get into the car and attempt to drive to work but I'll turn around when I get scared. Then I get to work and say I'll only stay for an hour etc etc and it goes on and on. But in the last 3 weeks, nothing happened to me. Yes, I had scary thoughts, yes I felt sick, yes I was tense with fear, and panic attacks came and went but nothing ever happened to me that I couldn't overcome. I'm on week 2 of the program, and it's helping me at work. Don't let today's episode set you back. Tomorrow's a new day, and you know nothing's going to happen to you. Remember to breathe and try your best. You'll do fine. Good luck

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 8:54 am

Thank you everyone. It feels good to know that I'm not alone.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 11:49 am

Hi, Tye! Welcome! I am only in the first week of the program, but reading your experience helped me. This time around is going to be great for you! May we all be here to help each other!

Genie

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 12:00 pm

Hi Tye,
Good luck w/the program. This is my second week on the program I think it is helping.
I dont have panic attacks, I am depressed and cry most of the time.
Good luck

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 12:34 pm

Welcome Tye. I wish you the best of luck with the program. You are NOT alone in this! I am also from Minneapolis. Feel free to contact me anytime.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 23, 2008 1:56 pm

Thanks FreeToBeGG, and Muddy! I appreciate your welcome, and it gives me hope for the future.

Karilynn, thank you so much. I am a poet so that Frank Herbet quote means a lot. We should definitely keep in touch as we're in the same area.

I appreciate all the kindness, warmth, and welcoming to all who have responded. It certainly makes me feel like I'm well on my way to beating this.

Tye