fear of losing my mind
Lately I feel as if my anxiety/panic is getting better. I try to think a lot more positively lately and not have obsessive thoughts. However, there is one thought that lingers in my mind and I can't seem to get rid of it. I fear that I'm losing my mind...as if I'm going mentally insane. Everyone tells me I'm not but in all honesty how would they know? Does anyone have these obsessive thoughts too? I'm pretty good throughout the day until these thoughts start to stick to my mind. I obsess about it so much that I start to worry that I'm actually going insane. I don't know if it's the fear of actually going insane that gets to me or if it is that I'm actually going insane. I feel panicky when these thoughts linger and don't know how to calm myself down. I feel as if I am a completely different person since my panic got severe...it's only been two months since I've been diagnosed with a severe panic disorder. I can't seem to think like how I used to and it seems as if everything is different. My experiences of places/friends/family/etc is all so different now. Can anyone give me some insight please?
Hi there,
I have not been on here in about 2 years. but tonight I was thinking about the boards and wanted to post to let others know that there is a way out. I started with the program in 2003 and that really got me on my way and i know that if i was patient enough, it would have worked for me, but of course i was'nt. i resorted to eft therepy and it has worked for me, or shall i say working. its been almost a year and i feel sooo much better im not so limited in what i can do and i know what your saying when you say you fear you will lose your mind and no matter how many people assure you that you are not losing your mind, you will not stop obsessing untill you believe it yourself!in my case i have some childhood trauma which is really not bad and then i have an unemotional spouse and so them 2 together just made me feel scared all the time! I thought i was dying and no one could help me! i had chest pain, palpitations dizziness, lightheadedness, you name the pain i had it! i was at the e.r over 30 times! i use to sit in the parking lot in my car at the e.r just to get some rest. my panic attacks were severe! i wore a halter monitor and it would catch my heart racing over 180 bpm! so i had alot of emotional problems that i needed to work out and i am so bullheaded that i refused to believe that i created my own misery! i just knew there was something wrong and nobody could figure it out! my advice is to adress the issues that you probly dont even know you have cause i thought i had none! boy was i wrong! and stay very positive, no negative thoughts, and follow the program it has great tools to realy help you! but in my opinion the problems need to be addressed and put away instead of just learning how to cope with the problems. I am soo much better thanks to the man upstairs who guided me. I tell you, I did NOT want to go to therepy but somehow ended up back there. I had went to therepy one time and when i left there i was in a full blown panic attack and swore 'thats it i will never go back"! but something about the days after i noticed that the edge was off my anixiety. i was'nt so freaked out like i had been for years and i did'nt realize it untill the days that followed that night. even though the edge was off i still told myself that i was'nt goin back! but a year later god guided me back there and boy am I 85% better! which in my book is a cure! gog is good and does listen. I also wrote a letter to god and stuck it in my bible under psalms 91 and pretty much begged him to take away the misery and pain and that was 1 1/2 years ago. things got worse before they got better but i prayed often and here i am doin better then i have since this started in 2001! i hope this helps, take care
I have not been on here in about 2 years. but tonight I was thinking about the boards and wanted to post to let others know that there is a way out. I started with the program in 2003 and that really got me on my way and i know that if i was patient enough, it would have worked for me, but of course i was'nt. i resorted to eft therepy and it has worked for me, or shall i say working. its been almost a year and i feel sooo much better im not so limited in what i can do and i know what your saying when you say you fear you will lose your mind and no matter how many people assure you that you are not losing your mind, you will not stop obsessing untill you believe it yourself!in my case i have some childhood trauma which is really not bad and then i have an unemotional spouse and so them 2 together just made me feel scared all the time! I thought i was dying and no one could help me! i had chest pain, palpitations dizziness, lightheadedness, you name the pain i had it! i was at the e.r over 30 times! i use to sit in the parking lot in my car at the e.r just to get some rest. my panic attacks were severe! i wore a halter monitor and it would catch my heart racing over 180 bpm! so i had alot of emotional problems that i needed to work out and i am so bullheaded that i refused to believe that i created my own misery! i just knew there was something wrong and nobody could figure it out! my advice is to adress the issues that you probly dont even know you have cause i thought i had none! boy was i wrong! and stay very positive, no negative thoughts, and follow the program it has great tools to realy help you! but in my opinion the problems need to be addressed and put away instead of just learning how to cope with the problems. I am soo much better thanks to the man upstairs who guided me. I tell you, I did NOT want to go to therepy but somehow ended up back there. I had went to therepy one time and when i left there i was in a full blown panic attack and swore 'thats it i will never go back"! but something about the days after i noticed that the edge was off my anixiety. i was'nt so freaked out like i had been for years and i did'nt realize it untill the days that followed that night. even though the edge was off i still told myself that i was'nt goin back! but a year later god guided me back there and boy am I 85% better! which in my book is a cure! gog is good and does listen. I also wrote a letter to god and stuck it in my bible under psalms 91 and pretty much begged him to take away the misery and pain and that was 1 1/2 years ago. things got worse before they got better but i prayed often and here i am doin better then i have since this started in 2001! i hope this helps, take care