Being the Black Sheep

MrCleveland · Post by **MrCleveland** » Fri May 30, 2008 2:52 pm

Hi

I know I'm beating the dead horse here, but I've been a little depressed lately. Since I can't drive nor don't have a girlfriend, and have autism...I feel that I'm the Black Sheep in my family. I feel more different than the rest of my family. I'm the oldest, but I feel like the youngest.

I'm in this job help program where they will help me drive and find a job, but it's coming-up empty-handed. If I don't get my Drivers License this year, I might as well forget about it.

And today, there was someone on a website that I go on that said I was annoying him with a few posts, and it got me the wrong way. He's done this before and if I ever met-up with him, I may say somethung wrong.

And I sometimes wonder why God made me autistic and wait the longest for things.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 30, 2008 5:09 pm

Sounds like you have a few hurdles to jump, and things arent happening as soon as you would like, so your kinda beating yourself up a little bit.
Personally i like being different than my family members, lol are yours perfect? because let me tell you, holidays at my house are hit and miss lol everyone has their issues, yours happens to be Autism, driving, lack of female companionship, and sum shmuck who didnt like the way you dotted your I online....
so- who cares if he doesnt like you? through the program i realized i spent way too much time tryng to figure out who liked me and who did not,,, and why, and why not, and oh who the heeck cares!!! lol good, u dont like me? fine, one less person i have to think about lol it's a very freeing feeling to reliquish the power of control, let it go!! There are many oportunities for Autistic individuals out there today, be kind to yourself and try your best! speak positively around family, and compliment them on what you think they do well, but also speak highly of your goals and dreams, adding value w your voice... they wil respond to you in a positve manner in return... and as for the girl situation, just my opinion, but no girl is seeking a "Black Sheep" babe, so lets change that headline to "Sheep to Keep" and see who bahhhhhs your way! lol
I hope I made you smile,
Bonnie

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 30, 2008 5:12 pm

I almost forgot, God made you in his own likeness, and loves you unconditionally. He wants nothing more for you to trust in him and be patient. Ask and ye shall recieve.....

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri May 30, 2008 5:21 pm

Mrcleveland

God made you as you are for a reason. You are a blessing too many and you probably don't realize it. We all feel depression at times. It's your perspective on things that are causing you to feel less than. As for your license, whats holding you back? Set a goal and go for it!