Sick of these thoughts

Onix · Post by **Onix** » Mon May 26, 2008 6:18 am

Hi.

I have intrusive thoughts about hurting others, or myself. Latley they are more about hurting myself. And I am getting beter, anxiety is much weaker and I am not scared of the thoughts so much anymore. But the problem is that they just won't go away, they keep intruding into my mind. And that really makes the quality of my life much lower than it could be. Is there anyone that has beaten these thoughts? How did you do it and how long did it take? I know that people with OCD never act on their obsessions, but there is always "what if" present in my mind. I am trying hard not to ruminate and doing things to occupie myself and if I look back I have made alot of progress. But my question is if its possible to live a normal full life with this type of OCD. I know that I have alot of work to do before I will be totally OK, if I ever will be but it would really help to hear some succes storys from you guys.

Tnx for replys in advence

teasha · Post by **teasha** » Mon May 26, 2008 7:11 am

Hey onix! i haven't been on here for quite awhile and the reason i did today is because my negative thoughts have come back today with a vengence! Mine are about hurting others...especially my own kids and it truely sucks more than anything!! I have been soo good lately where i have been able to not dwell on these thoughts at all and the past 2 days i am obsessing sooo bad! probably because it is a holiday weekend and i have drank beer more than normal so that right there brings on alot of guilt and anxiety. anyway i just want you to know i am in the same boat and would like to know the answer too if these will ever truely go away! have a good day!

ROCKER · Post by **ROCKER** » Sat May 31, 2008 1:07 am

well, I have also the SAME thing exactly, I did overcome the idea of hurting others loong time ago, It was just facing my fears by puting myself in the situation where my anxiet hit's the hardest, slowly It went away and if oyu took the anxiety out from the thought then that's 80% of you free, now comes the sticky part of having the thought inisde your brain, well you're not a pc to delete this and it doesn't just snap out, it's like all the thought's in your brain, Im still having the thoughts, and playing with them fuels them more and I quickly turn them off, every single person in this life has his OWN sticky thoughts, but for us, having them wierd thoughts make it scary which is normal. I know we will laugh at them one day, but like you said, for now it make these thoughts in our brains a weak point that is making us stuck and not progressing but taking off the anxiety feeling from it tells us that we are growing and it is getting smaller and one day you will just say OH.I USED TO BE AFRAID OF THIS..stuped me :p
rock on

Onix · Post by **Onix** » Sat May 31, 2008 10:29 pm

Hi and tnx for replys

Yes I don't have anxiety anymore. Its alot better. If I look back its about 70% better now. But the problem is that the thoughts still come, but not as often as they used to. Iguess its just a matter of time before I feal even better and will be able to say that I am almost cured. I just hope it will be soon, because I have suffered enough and its time to live my life again.

Zoe_M · Post by **Zoe_M** » Sun Jun 01, 2008 3:59 am

Onix,

I have been stuck in the same "funk" as you in the past 3 days. I was going along really well and a news item triggered me and blam I got a setback. I for some reason have problems with my thoughts of losing control in close proximity to others. I feel like what if I lose control and elbow someone or something like that. I am the opposite of what I think. So, it is really strange. I know all about anxiety and how it works and I guess when these things happen after being free from them for some time, it can hit you a little harder. I know though, that we will all get through this.

All the best, and feel free to contact me at any time.

Zoe

Onix · Post by **Onix** » Sun Jun 01, 2008 4:24 am

Hey Zoe

I have the same thoughts. Like when I am close to someone I am afraid that i will punch him or something. The only way to get rid of the fear is that you don't avoid of standing close to someone. In time you get use to it. It was kind of hard for me, but things have really got alot better, since I've been exposing myself to these situations. I know that we would never do nothing to hurt others, but its hard to trust in that, because OCD is making us doubt.

Zoe_M · Post by **Zoe_M** » Sun Jun 01, 2008 6:03 am

Onix,

I have been trying a tactic in my mind to just accept these thoughts and not get so stressed on them. I have had every type of thought you can imagine. I am a creative person and I think that's part of this anxiety thing. Our minds do care whether we react or not. If we don't react, the thoughts wont come. Such a bad habit we have created, but we'll stop this habit. It wont be long till you and I will look back and go, why did we worry about that?

We are also suppose to try to make these thoughts humorous. I know that is very hard because I have tried. But when you sit with another sufferer it is more likely to be easier. I feel like thoughts are a bit like a card game. Every time you get one, the mind gets another hand that is better then the one you just laid down.

Thanks again and like i said, contact me anytime.

zoe