Help, Very miserable!!!!
Im 22 year old. I am having such a hard time right now. I have problems with anxiety and probably deppresion too. I always feel uncomfortable. I feel that I cannot deal with my emotions. I started taking a beta blocker (half of a 25mg. (Metoprolol) because I was having irregular heartbeats that where scaring me. That has helped with the irregular hard beats but it make me feel very drowsy. I also have xanax, I have a .25 mg pill thay I take usually when I go to work. that helps, but overallo I just feel bad, I guess I have emotinal problems because when Im not worrying about a symptom I feel so miserable, and then I guess I find something to worry about. Im also having trouble eating, Im not eating well due to the anxiety/deppresion. I dont know what to do, I want my life back, I feel that I have everything outhere set for me but for some reason I cant go for it, and of course I blame it on anxiety. I'm thinking about checking myself into a hospital because Im so tired of this. I dont want to be on peals because I think that my problems are emotional, and if I could just try to see whats bothering me or something Ill get better, but I dont know. Any advice?
henry
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StevenFarrisOhio
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Hi Henry:
I take Metoprolol as well for high blood pressure. Has your doctor checked your BP to see if it is dropping you too low? Are you seeing a counselor? Xanax works great on the anxiety but it can make you depressed. The two can compound the feeling of listlessness and depression. Speak to your doctor or a family member regarding this. If you feel deep despair there is nothing wrong with seeking emergency attention - God bless!
I take Metoprolol as well for high blood pressure. Has your doctor checked your BP to see if it is dropping you too low? Are you seeing a counselor? Xanax works great on the anxiety but it can make you depressed. The two can compound the feeling of listlessness and depression. Speak to your doctor or a family member regarding this. If you feel deep despair there is nothing wrong with seeking emergency attention - God bless!
Steven Farris
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Sit-N-Spin
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Hi Henry,
As for your diet there are protein drinks that help with electrolytes and amino acids that are not hard to make or even supplement drinks like boost, carnation instant breakfast,Ensure.You don't want body building type of drinks though.Also learn to monitor your salt intake,read labels.see what salt recommendations for a daily diet your doctor want.Usual is 2ooo mg's per day.If you have a regular salt intake around 2000./day your blood pressure and symptoms may be better controlled because your BP is under control.Learn to read labels,the web has lots of nutritional information on it,use it as you can.It helps you to better communicate with your doctor and to ask him or her the questions you need for better healing.Steve's right though,pass everything by your doctor first and don't fear to keep in touch with the md to help get you regulated.There is nothing wrong with seeking emergency attention,but there are things you should study to better help your physical condition and the mental stuff my be easier to handle.
Sincerely,Sit
As for your diet there are protein drinks that help with electrolytes and amino acids that are not hard to make or even supplement drinks like boost, carnation instant breakfast,Ensure.You don't want body building type of drinks though.Also learn to monitor your salt intake,read labels.see what salt recommendations for a daily diet your doctor want.Usual is 2ooo mg's per day.If you have a regular salt intake around 2000./day your blood pressure and symptoms may be better controlled because your BP is under control.Learn to read labels,the web has lots of nutritional information on it,use it as you can.It helps you to better communicate with your doctor and to ask him or her the questions you need for better healing.Steve's right though,pass everything by your doctor first and don't fear to keep in touch with the md to help get you regulated.There is nothing wrong with seeking emergency attention,but there are things you should study to better help your physical condition and the mental stuff my be easier to handle.
Sincerely,Sit
Henry85
You are doing the right thing by posting this message. There are many of us with Anxiety / Depression that want to help, but keep your MD informed on what is going on with you. Have you started the program? It really has does wonders for many of us. If it is a financial situation, I found a complete program on ebay for less than 1/2 the price. If you haven't started the program I, and I am sure many others, highly recommend it.
Good luck to you,
Tony
You are doing the right thing by posting this message. There are many of us with Anxiety / Depression that want to help, but keep your MD informed on what is going on with you. Have you started the program? It really has does wonders for many of us. If it is a financial situation, I found a complete program on ebay for less than 1/2 the price. If you haven't started the program I, and I am sure many others, highly recommend it.
Good luck to you,
Tony
Thanks to all for you postings.
I im drinking ensure, to get all my nutrients. I usually dont have a problem with breakfast ( and it a healthy cereal with oatmeal. I usually dont have a problem with sleeping, but last night I did. I wonder if the pills are giving me a rebound type of anxiety, because I was doing better. I dont know which one though, the xanax I have been taking for about 3 weeks and I have probably taken a total of about 8 .25 mg.Maybe my body is getting use to it, and when I dont take it it acts up....but I dont want to take it. The metoprolol I started about a week ago, I noticed that it gives me some vivd dreams. I also have a hard time breathing,,I want to blame it on the metoprolol but is a problem that i;ve had before I even started taking it. My blood pressure is fair, avarage is 130/80!!!
I have the program, but I didnt follow through, I guess because I feel like I'am trying and then I fall again!!!
but I will re-started this week.
Thank You all for your support!!
I im drinking ensure, to get all my nutrients. I usually dont have a problem with breakfast ( and it a healthy cereal with oatmeal. I usually dont have a problem with sleeping, but last night I did. I wonder if the pills are giving me a rebound type of anxiety, because I was doing better. I dont know which one though, the xanax I have been taking for about 3 weeks and I have probably taken a total of about 8 .25 mg.Maybe my body is getting use to it, and when I dont take it it acts up....but I dont want to take it. The metoprolol I started about a week ago, I noticed that it gives me some vivd dreams. I also have a hard time breathing,,I want to blame it on the metoprolol but is a problem that i;ve had before I even started taking it. My blood pressure is fair, avarage is 130/80!!!
I have the program, but I didnt follow through, I guess because I feel like I'am trying and then I fall again!!!
but I will re-started this week.
Thank You all for your support!!
henry
Hi Henry,
I want to reach out to you, because I am 22 years old as well and I know exactly how you feel. I have suffered with anxiety and depression for 4 years now and I know it can be tough.
Let me tell you something. In December, I woke up with day with no passion to even live and breathe. My life was nothing. My anxiety was out of control and my thoughts were horrible. I felt like there was nothing worth fighting for. It was the lowest feeling in my entire life and I wouldn't wish that on ANYBODY EVER. For 3 months, I spent every minute of my day in my bed. I was anxious to go to the bathroom. That's how bad it was, Henry. People ask me to explain to them what it felt like and I can't. It was too awful for words. It was the worst thing I have ever experienced. I went through many, many, many days crying, feeling empty, anxious, panicked, terrified, hating my life.
In January I went through the program with a coach and slowly I started making changes. One Saturday in February I woke up, after spending 3 months of my life in my bed, and I went into my living room. I sat on my couch. I watched TV. I thought, alright, it's either now or never. I either get out there and try or I don't. I went out that day to the grocery store, by myself. I went to the craft store, by myself. I went to the pet store, by myself. I felt anxious the entire time, but I did it. The rest came with baby steps. During this time, I was living with a boyfriend who I shouldn't have been living with. We didn't share our space well and we both caused a lot of stress on each other. It was a relationship I was desperate to get out, but I felt too trapped and too afraid to do anything about it.
In March I told him he needed to get his own place or move back home. In April he found a place and this weekend he moved out and now I am alone. I survived all of that. I never thought I would have been able to. He handed me the keys today and he's in his own place now. I cried when he left, but I realized it was for the best. Let me tell you what else I've done. I've gone to multiple job interviews. I got hired by Best Buy last week and today I went to my orientation. It was in a tiny room, no windows, lots of people, and I sat through the entire thing and laughed and participated. Last Monday night I had a friend over for 5 hours. Friday night I went to a birthday party. Saturday morning I went out to breakfast with my aunt. And like I said, I could NOT leave my bed in January, let alone my apartment.
I have this entire new lease on life. I am excited about my new job, my new living situation. I am telling you all of this because I want you to know that life can be turned around. Please do not give up on yourself. I made it through one of the hardest times of my entire life and it was so dark, Henry, I thought I was never going to make it through that. You CAN. I promise. Seek a counselor or a therapist, a coach of sorts. Work the program. Do the work. Change your thinking, change your attitude. Fix things in your life that are making you miserable. You can do ANYTHING you put your mind to. I promise you can.
I want to reach out to you, because I am 22 years old as well and I know exactly how you feel. I have suffered with anxiety and depression for 4 years now and I know it can be tough.
Let me tell you something. In December, I woke up with day with no passion to even live and breathe. My life was nothing. My anxiety was out of control and my thoughts were horrible. I felt like there was nothing worth fighting for. It was the lowest feeling in my entire life and I wouldn't wish that on ANYBODY EVER. For 3 months, I spent every minute of my day in my bed. I was anxious to go to the bathroom. That's how bad it was, Henry. People ask me to explain to them what it felt like and I can't. It was too awful for words. It was the worst thing I have ever experienced. I went through many, many, many days crying, feeling empty, anxious, panicked, terrified, hating my life.
In January I went through the program with a coach and slowly I started making changes. One Saturday in February I woke up, after spending 3 months of my life in my bed, and I went into my living room. I sat on my couch. I watched TV. I thought, alright, it's either now or never. I either get out there and try or I don't. I went out that day to the grocery store, by myself. I went to the craft store, by myself. I went to the pet store, by myself. I felt anxious the entire time, but I did it. The rest came with baby steps. During this time, I was living with a boyfriend who I shouldn't have been living with. We didn't share our space well and we both caused a lot of stress on each other. It was a relationship I was desperate to get out, but I felt too trapped and too afraid to do anything about it.
In March I told him he needed to get his own place or move back home. In April he found a place and this weekend he moved out and now I am alone. I survived all of that. I never thought I would have been able to. He handed me the keys today and he's in his own place now. I cried when he left, but I realized it was for the best. Let me tell you what else I've done. I've gone to multiple job interviews. I got hired by Best Buy last week and today I went to my orientation. It was in a tiny room, no windows, lots of people, and I sat through the entire thing and laughed and participated. Last Monday night I had a friend over for 5 hours. Friday night I went to a birthday party. Saturday morning I went out to breakfast with my aunt. And like I said, I could NOT leave my bed in January, let alone my apartment.
I have this entire new lease on life. I am excited about my new job, my new living situation. I am telling you all of this because I want you to know that life can be turned around. Please do not give up on yourself. I made it through one of the hardest times of my entire life and it was so dark, Henry, I thought I was never going to make it through that. You CAN. I promise. Seek a counselor or a therapist, a coach of sorts. Work the program. Do the work. Change your thinking, change your attitude. Fix things in your life that are making you miserable. You can do ANYTHING you put your mind to. I promise you can.
hugs&kisses,
Karilynn
I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
Frank Herbert
"How you climb up the mountain is just as important as how you get down the mountain. And, so it is with life, which for many of us becomes one big test followed by one big lesson. In the end, it all comes down to one word: grace. It's how you accept winning and losing, good luck and bad luck, darkness and the light."
Karilynn
I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
Frank Herbert
"How you climb up the mountain is just as important as how you get down the mountain. And, so it is with life, which for many of us becomes one big test followed by one big lesson. In the end, it all comes down to one word: grace. It's how you accept winning and losing, good luck and bad luck, darkness and the light."
Again thanks to everyone for their support.
Karlynn, your story is very inspiring. Thanks so much for sharing it with me and others. It truly inspires me to keep going and to really make a change in my life already. There are times I ask myself how is my life ever going to be different.I know that I want it to be different, I want to be able to hang out with friends, to be able to seat through a class at school, to be able to enjoy a meal,and to just be able to enjoy the day. I have to WORK at it, and know that it is all in my mind, and the day I decide to change I will. I agree on getting some type of counselor to help me through, and to really work on the program, and to take it one step at a time, because maybe that is what I think I may be doing wrong, I just try to make big changes and end up not following through and falling down again. I need to make baby steps to make my changes a new life style for me. Thank You again, I really do feel much better hearing the support and advice from everyone.
Thank You!!!
Karlynn, your story is very inspiring. Thanks so much for sharing it with me and others. It truly inspires me to keep going and to really make a change in my life already. There are times I ask myself how is my life ever going to be different.I know that I want it to be different, I want to be able to hang out with friends, to be able to seat through a class at school, to be able to enjoy a meal,and to just be able to enjoy the day. I have to WORK at it, and know that it is all in my mind, and the day I decide to change I will. I agree on getting some type of counselor to help me through, and to really work on the program, and to take it one step at a time, because maybe that is what I think I may be doing wrong, I just try to make big changes and end up not following through and falling down again. I need to make baby steps to make my changes a new life style for me. Thank You again, I really do feel much better hearing the support and advice from everyone.
Thank You!!!
henry