Bev, you're such a sweetie. I've seen your posts before and you've changed lately. You didn't say why you are going off Zyprexa. If I remember, I tried it and I think I gained weight on that. I've been on Lamictal for 8 yrs. It's usually faster acting than most drugs. Yes the rash part being fatal scared me too but then I was told you immediately stop taking it. You don't have the rash any more do you? I'm wondering if it's the combination of the 2. They put me on Cymbalta at one point because I thought the Lamictal wasn't working. I really got bad then. It was my Psychologist, husband of my Dr. who prescribed the meds who asked how long did Lamictal take before I noticed it working. I said a couple days. He said go off Cymbalta and back on Lamictal. By that evening I was better and the next day much better. Lately due to added stress I've been having more depression. A couple days ago I decided to gradually TRY to wean myself off Lamictal. I take l00 mg. twice a day but now cut the morning one in half. Whether I get off or just lower the dose it's worth a try. I just started taking a better B-complex and a nutrition drink 2X a day. I think you were smart ordering the Joel Osteen tapes. I listen to Joyce Meyer quite a bit and now Andrew Womack who is adamant about getting the word saturated in your mind. Find scriptures that mean a lot like be anxious for nothing or ones on worry or faith verses. Speak them OUT LOUD. Find things to be thankful for. Write it out or speak it out. You'll be amazed how this helps. You are in my prayers Bev. I know soon the Bev we really know will be back.
Oh yea, I struggled as you did not so much with the mother as the dad and brother. I felt I had to share him too much. He's always had a good bonding with his brother and I know longer deprive him of that plus my sister-in-law is great. Are there times they get to me? You bet!! Don't let it bother you. I do think the Zyprexa is causing some of the problem. How often do you take Lamictal and what mg.? Mine is 100 mg. 2X a day. You're in my prayers.
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Kevin,
I did take the survey but it was a while ago. I don't say much about things that bother me b/c I don't like to burden people, especially my loved ones. I like to put up a good front so to speak too.
Karin, No doubt the meds are having an effect on me, but I can't get off of them completely. I'm trying to let this new one get into my system and have terrible anxiety when I take it. I have such severe depression....I need some help. I tried to do it alone last year and it wasn't good.
Yogamomma, My husband might no harm, you are right on that. It's just my fear and insecurity and being extra needy through this change. I just can't seem to get my emotions under control- well it's been slowly getting better the last few days, but real slow.
Barb, I gained 25 pounds in one month one Zyprexa so the doc said I would have to try something else. The Lamictal brochure was sitting in his office, and my husband asked if we could try that. I can't take antidepressants like Cymbalta now b/c of the EMSAM patch. But we are really hoping Lamictal gives me some relief. I can't gauge how it's affecting me. I don't know if it's working. I moped around all weekend, but my husband says each day I'm getting a little better. I'm just starting it with 25 mg a day for two weeks, then 50 mg daily for 2 weeks, then 100 for one week. I go back to the doc that week to see how I'm doing and whether to go up.
Thank you all for responding to me. I really needed some support through this and may need even more. I am trying to fight it, but it's hard... Beverly
I did take the survey but it was a while ago. I don't say much about things that bother me b/c I don't like to burden people, especially my loved ones. I like to put up a good front so to speak too.
Karin, No doubt the meds are having an effect on me, but I can't get off of them completely. I'm trying to let this new one get into my system and have terrible anxiety when I take it. I have such severe depression....I need some help. I tried to do it alone last year and it wasn't good.
Yogamomma, My husband might no harm, you are right on that. It's just my fear and insecurity and being extra needy through this change. I just can't seem to get my emotions under control- well it's been slowly getting better the last few days, but real slow.
Barb, I gained 25 pounds in one month one Zyprexa so the doc said I would have to try something else. The Lamictal brochure was sitting in his office, and my husband asked if we could try that. I can't take antidepressants like Cymbalta now b/c of the EMSAM patch. But we are really hoping Lamictal gives me some relief. I can't gauge how it's affecting me. I don't know if it's working. I moped around all weekend, but my husband says each day I'm getting a little better. I'm just starting it with 25 mg a day for two weeks, then 50 mg daily for 2 weeks, then 100 for one week. I go back to the doc that week to see how I'm doing and whether to go up.
Thank you all for responding to me. I really needed some support through this and may need even more. I am trying to fight it, but it's hard... Beverly
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Hi Bev:
I am so sorry you arent feeling better quite yet.. I can relate big time! You are a warrior girl! I think this is the worst state to be in!
I am also not feeling well at all. My spouse and I had a huge fight this weekend and spurred all the old feelings I had before when I thought we had corrected the problem, and now of course, I am doubting our relationship, this house, the decision. I have to decide whether to buy the house with him in the next few days. I feel so alone. I dont have any family or friends and am so scared to do this alone, financially, emotionally. On top of everything else, I have this horse to consider, my meds arent working at all- they did for a bit now they are barely there- I am depressed. I have no doctor that I can go to, the one is a real dick and makes it worse going, I am dreading another 4 hour emergency room visit, I have to go to work, go to work when I cant stop crying, the tears! no support in anything at all, my mother has sold her house and moved into her new family and is getting married, I want to run away far away.. out of province today. That referral to the psych. never happened, been almost a month.
I am with you! I will pray for us, the strength to get through this- please keep in touch and keep your head up!
p.s. way to go buying youself the cds! I bet they'll be great!
I am so sorry you arent feeling better quite yet.. I can relate big time! You are a warrior girl! I think this is the worst state to be in!
I am also not feeling well at all. My spouse and I had a huge fight this weekend and spurred all the old feelings I had before when I thought we had corrected the problem, and now of course, I am doubting our relationship, this house, the decision. I have to decide whether to buy the house with him in the next few days. I feel so alone. I dont have any family or friends and am so scared to do this alone, financially, emotionally. On top of everything else, I have this horse to consider, my meds arent working at all- they did for a bit now they are barely there- I am depressed. I have no doctor that I can go to, the one is a real dick and makes it worse going, I am dreading another 4 hour emergency room visit, I have to go to work, go to work when I cant stop crying, the tears! no support in anything at all, my mother has sold her house and moved into her new family and is getting married, I want to run away far away.. out of province today. That referral to the psych. never happened, been almost a month.
I am with you! I will pray for us, the strength to get through this- please keep in touch and keep your head up!
p.s. way to go buying youself the cds! I bet they'll be great!
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Hi Bev,
I just started Lamactil about 2 and a half weeks ago. I REFUSE to take any of the SSRI's ! NEVER AGAIN!!!!! I have taken them ALL (it's always fun to be a lab rat). I did not want to try the Lamactil b/c I was just so sick of it all! I am a MAJOR hypochondriac, I mean MAJOR, I also have some severe OCD tendencies. You would laugh (probably because you could relate) if I were to tell you all of the medical tests and screenings I've had over the past 3 years. I am only 25 and have even had a colonoscopy because I "heard about" colon cancer and convinced myself that I had it. As it turns out...I didn't have colon cancer after all...go figure...I do however, have pictures of my colon that they took and gave me (incase I wanted to frame them and put them up on my mantel I suppose...LOL).
At first I thought Lamactil was making me go nuts I was crying, SOOOOOO depressed, SOOOO angry. My boyfriend has a 9 year old son and EVERYTHING he was doing was making me want to pull my hair out (and his too...LOL). BUt he wasn't doing anything to warrant me being THAT mad. He's actually one of the most polite well behave kids I've ever seen in my life (the lord must have known I couldn't have handled much more!). It scared me though, I was in a RAGE. I caled up my doctors (I have a psycologist and a psychiatrist...) I spent a total of almost 4 hours that day between their two offices acting like a complete nut. My Psychiatrist told me it was strange that Lamactil would do that to me but told me to stop taking it. I didn't stop taking it, I got home and decided to give it a fair chance, afterall, I couldn't blame ALL of this on the med. just yet could I? I had to wonder...I just heard so many wonderful things about it and I liked how it didn't have any other side affects the the other meds did, other than bing crazy moody, I felt fine, if that makes since, because, clearly I was not fine. Anyhow I went back in to see my doc. two days later and told him I had not stopped taking the med (he did have me increase my dosage of Xanax to 1mg two times a day when I had seen him 2 days prior) and I felt a little better. we went ahead and upped my dose of Lamactil at that time (we started me off at a very low dose and are going slow with it). I still have my issues, but i am hopeful now. Oh, and about the rash (and this is coming from a hypochondriac....) don't worry about it, it is extremely rare and even if you did get it (which you won't), it doesn't always kill you. Also Lamactil can cause skin irritation and other rashes that are not the deadly kind and are completely harmless. I mean, if you have a rash, get it checked out for sure but don't freak out about it. It's VERY rare and it's also WAY more common in children than in adults.
About the blood pressure thing...I'm scared to death about mine! Like i said...I am only 25, I am not over weight at all and my BP has been 159/109 - I have tachacardia - where my heart beats too fast at a resting state. They say anxiety can cause that, but give me a break, I don't care what it's from, it's still bad and it's freaking me out! I know it's from the adderall I take though, but i can't not take it! Ok, I'll shut up now...long post I know sorry.
I just started Lamactil about 2 and a half weeks ago. I REFUSE to take any of the SSRI's ! NEVER AGAIN!!!!! I have taken them ALL (it's always fun to be a lab rat). I did not want to try the Lamactil b/c I was just so sick of it all! I am a MAJOR hypochondriac, I mean MAJOR, I also have some severe OCD tendencies. You would laugh (probably because you could relate) if I were to tell you all of the medical tests and screenings I've had over the past 3 years. I am only 25 and have even had a colonoscopy because I "heard about" colon cancer and convinced myself that I had it. As it turns out...I didn't have colon cancer after all...go figure...I do however, have pictures of my colon that they took and gave me (incase I wanted to frame them and put them up on my mantel I suppose...LOL).
At first I thought Lamactil was making me go nuts I was crying, SOOOOOO depressed, SOOOO angry. My boyfriend has a 9 year old son and EVERYTHING he was doing was making me want to pull my hair out (and his too...LOL). BUt he wasn't doing anything to warrant me being THAT mad. He's actually one of the most polite well behave kids I've ever seen in my life (the lord must have known I couldn't have handled much more!). It scared me though, I was in a RAGE. I caled up my doctors (I have a psycologist and a psychiatrist...) I spent a total of almost 4 hours that day between their two offices acting like a complete nut. My Psychiatrist told me it was strange that Lamactil would do that to me but told me to stop taking it. I didn't stop taking it, I got home and decided to give it a fair chance, afterall, I couldn't blame ALL of this on the med. just yet could I? I had to wonder...I just heard so many wonderful things about it and I liked how it didn't have any other side affects the the other meds did, other than bing crazy moody, I felt fine, if that makes since, because, clearly I was not fine. Anyhow I went back in to see my doc. two days later and told him I had not stopped taking the med (he did have me increase my dosage of Xanax to 1mg two times a day when I had seen him 2 days prior) and I felt a little better. we went ahead and upped my dose of Lamactil at that time (we started me off at a very low dose and are going slow with it). I still have my issues, but i am hopeful now. Oh, and about the rash (and this is coming from a hypochondriac....) don't worry about it, it is extremely rare and even if you did get it (which you won't), it doesn't always kill you. Also Lamactil can cause skin irritation and other rashes that are not the deadly kind and are completely harmless. I mean, if you have a rash, get it checked out for sure but don't freak out about it. It's VERY rare and it's also WAY more common in children than in adults.
About the blood pressure thing...I'm scared to death about mine! Like i said...I am only 25, I am not over weight at all and my BP has been 159/109 - I have tachacardia - where my heart beats too fast at a resting state. They say anxiety can cause that, but give me a break, I don't care what it's from, it's still bad and it's freaking me out! I know it's from the adderall I take though, but i can't not take it! Ok, I'll shut up now...long post I know sorry.
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I can't spend but a second. I have to go to town for a biopsy from an abnormal pap- more anxiety- lol- if it's not one thing it's another.
Britt, you're post made me feel ok, I mean better than ok. Maybe I'm not going crazy after all. It's just part of the process. I will write more later.
Dearest Maeggie, I know you didn't want to make me laugh, but you did. I can relate to running. I've been feeling like getting out of here to escape. We'll both be on tv on the mising persons section- "Help us find these women soon! They need their medication. Do not approach them if you find them. Consider them highy emotional!"
You have got a LOT on your plate right now and I'm praying for strength for you and wisdom to make the decisions you need to make. I wish you could take one thing at a time. I know you feel overwhelmed. I will talk more later. Keep your head up and don't accept defeat! You can do it!
Britt, you're post made me feel ok, I mean better than ok. Maybe I'm not going crazy after all. It's just part of the process. I will write more later.
Dearest Maeggie, I know you didn't want to make me laugh, but you did. I can relate to running. I've been feeling like getting out of here to escape. We'll both be on tv on the mising persons section- "Help us find these women soon! They need their medication. Do not approach them if you find them. Consider them highy emotional!"
You have got a LOT on your plate right now and I'm praying for strength for you and wisdom to make the decisions you need to make. I wish you could take one thing at a time. I know you feel overwhelmed. I will talk more later. Keep your head up and don't accept defeat! You can do it!
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Yes Bev, please write back later. No worries, I too have had abnormal paps before. My sister has mad more than a few abnormal ones, but they just freeze off abnormal cells if they need to, it's a simple procedure. In my case they didn't even have to do that. I just had paps done every few months for a while and everything turned out fine. Hope to tak with you soon! Take care.
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Britt, I had the pap and just one bad spot so everything went fine- just a lot of anxiety over going. I am starting my 2nd week of Lamictal at 25 mg. I guess I'm getting better everyday but it's hard to see the progress. I am having to take more Xanax too. The depression seems to be better, it's just the anxiety. I hope soonto be where you are- I'm trying hard to stick with it. I know if I call my doc about it, he will tell me to stop taking it. I'm so thankful I have others to help me through this.
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Oh Magggie, I'm so sorry everything has piled up on you. I can see where you'd doubt everything after a fight, but we all have disagreemets and the stress of what you to are going through could have been a major factor. You two have made so much progress that I hate to see you backslide. Don't let one fight change how far you have come. You've also got to get to a doctor regardless to get help with the depression. There's no sense in having to live like this. Try for the referral again, but call the doctor you don't like in the mean time. I just want to see you get better. You deserve it!
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Angel Bev:
Thank you for the kind words! We shall see how this battle goes.. I do know what you are saying, every couple has fights but you know how deep that wound runs when it is a constant ignorance.. I am keeping on, keeping on.. how are you doing overall? yes, I need to see a doctor but I am not sure where to go from here- GRRUFF! walk in clinic? the mean doctor means time off work too- soo..its a real pain! anyways.. I send my prayers to you and hope we get better quickly!
Thank you for the kind words! We shall see how this battle goes.. I do know what you are saying, every couple has fights but you know how deep that wound runs when it is a constant ignorance.. I am keeping on, keeping on.. how are you doing overall? yes, I need to see a doctor but I am not sure where to go from here- GRRUFF! walk in clinic? the mean doctor means time off work too- soo..its a real pain! anyways.. I send my prayers to you and hope we get better quickly!