Shellsy,I can totally sympathize with you.That step back to work where it makes you panic is the hardest thing to do.Wherever you have anxiety/panic is where you want to avoid.
Im in the same position right now.I have not gone back to work since February. I had a major panic attack there and since then havent been able to go back.I know its wrong and I have to face the fear.I know nothing will hurt me if I have a panic attack there now.My fear is all the questions everyone will ask when I do return after so long.I spoke to my boss in February and told her Im having some anxiety/stress issues.She was great and said to come back when Im feeling better.That left the door open for me to come back.I really really want to go back but cant do it-yet.
My good friends who have the same problem have told me not to push it,go back when Im ready.I guess you really have to want something bad enough to do it.
Im not sure if this will help you at all,but once you have realized that your panic is something you can work through,you will be able to go places again.I am slowly going out again to stores that I couldnt go to last month.Ive decided to give myself time that I need in order to go back to work.
You will find the strength,beleive me.I think if we can take one small step each day,we can conquer what we really want eventually.
One moment,one hour,one day.Words to live by
take care
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Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves...
who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are we not to be? --Unknown
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Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves...
who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are we not to be? --Unknown
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Add me to the list. I went to work Monday and was really anxious. Then on Tuesday I asked my boss if I could have the rest of the week off so that I could unwind. He told me to sit down and talk to him and then I started crying. He sent me home and told me to sleep. So....I'm really dreading going back on Monday and I hope that I will be able to hang in there and not have to quit.
Too often we enjoy the comfort of opinion without the discomfort of thought.
~John F. Kennedy
~John F. Kennedy
Please contact your HR department and request Family Medical Leave. You should hear form them within 3 days. If you do not hear from them, contact a lawyer.
Do a search on FMLA (Family Medical Leave Act) for more info.
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Please keep us posted on how things are going. Take care and God bless!
Do a search on FMLA (Family Medical Leave Act) for more info.
(My apologies if you receive this message twice. I can't tell if my previous post went through.)
Please keep us posted on how things are going. Take care and God bless!