A Place to Vent

Sugarmama · Post by **Sugarmama** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 12:24 am

I just need to vent today, as a Christian I feel guilty for the way that I feel, but I also feel like this a place where I can be myself and not be judged so here it is. I HATE ANXIETY, I hate panic attacks, I hate the way my mind has changed, I hate that I have to take xanax sometimes and I hate not being able to go places because I have fear of having a panic attack, I hate these weird feelings I have throughout my body, I hate this whole thing and I am sick of it. That felt good to get that out, but I do thank God that I am getting better everyday, and I am soooooooooo thankful for this forum that I can come and talk to people like me, before I found this forum anxiety was very lonely for me. My mom experienced panic attacks but refused to talk about them. Well I thank God for you guys, thanks for listening!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 1:26 am

Sugarmama...I HATE IT ALL TOO!! (That does feel good to write) But, we must roll, and grow, and get better. And, I think we all are. I love talking to folks on this board like yourself, and knowing I am not alone. It is a tremendous help.

Keep truckin'! I hope you have a great week!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 1:35 am

I absolutely hate it as well. Yesterday, was a beautiful day here and I did all the things I love doing, but I had this horrible feeling all day long. I felt afraid and didn't know what I was afraid of or even why I was feeling that way. It passed but it took forever and I had to get really aggressive with my ego. I was shouting at myself and it felt like a scene from the exorcist! At least it passed and I am ok today but I totally agree anxiety sucks!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 3:36 am

Hi Sugarmama! Venting is healthy, and helps clear the mind and helps us to acknowledge what needs to be dealt with. I hate the feelings that come with anxiety as well. On the positive side though, (even if it's difficult to be positive at times)

tell yourself how wonderful our bodies and minds are at working, and letting us know that issues need addressing, and that there are medicines today that allow us to function even though we are fighting an axiety battle, and programs like this one where we can all come together and share our experiences, and get help! Remember, try to treat yourself like you would treat a friend/relative, going through similar circumstances even when it's difficult to do. We will feel somewhat better and more able to handle things. I'm glad your doing a lot better, and you will continue to do so. If you came this far, you will continue to flourish and heal. You know you can do it now, and that in itself is a huge step forward. Take good care, and God Bless!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 3:51 am

I had anxiety probably all my life, had all of those terrible fears and body symptoms. Now they are gone and it feels great. I had to struggle through everything, too, feeling like I would be like that forever, but still trying to get rid of it.

You all WILL get rid of this too. Just relax and do the things that make you feel anxious, so that when you come out okay afterwards, you'll know that you can do things, even with anxiety, and be okay. Tell yoursself it's okay to be anxious. When you stop being frustrated and afraid of it, it will start going away really fast.

For me, my main symptom was being lightheaded. I DECIDED that I wasn't going to be afraid anymore. It took about a week or less to really understand that I WAS okay. when I actually stopped being afraid and did the things that I needed and wanted to, WITH ANXIETY and all, not only did my lightheadness go away, the other stuff did too.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 4:08 am

I hate the sadness and hopelessness and the way you feel when you're alone.
Glad you vented and were thankful for the positives. I needed that today.

proudmomof2 · Post by **proudmomof2** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 5:53 am

Thank you guys for understanding, I was just having a bad day yesterday. I was so happy to go to church after a year and I started getting sad when I looked around at people and thought, if they only knew what I had to go through to get to church and sit there for two hours. I just miss being normal, but I do understand that I am only fueling the anxiety when I let it overtake my thoughts I must fight it. I was just feeling sorry for myself yesterday but I am back to warrior mode today, again I can never repay Lucinda for this program and you guys for the forums where I can just come here and be myself. Your right guys it feels good to vent. And deedee00 your right, I sometimes feel like I will be like this forever, but then I look at what I can do as opposed to last year and the results are tremendous. I am making progress, just impatient. Again, thanks for listening.