Let alone anxiety about being with my crazy family. My daughter-so precious-is 34 now-has a degree in lots of stuff criminal justice-she also has a degree in physcology- made an observation-something she rarely does out loud unless at wk-about her teenage brother sitting at the dining rm table at Moms starring into outer space-he and she suffer these attacks too-I just looked at him at the same time she did and she says-It is alot of stimulation. That describes my 3 brothers-and their wives and kids!But they were having too much fun to notice us weird-does at the table! LOL LOL My kids are really smart kids-this is no brag-I just believe that a high intelligence level has alot to do with how/why some or all people who have these attacks.-please forgive my pondering out-loud-I am in a fibromyalgia fog and it is ridiculous I am trying to think-let alone spell-and convey to others. But I have got to get this outta my head and go on with today...My daughter can participate in investigating a crime scene/testify about it in court/travel to testify about it but have a panic attack at the tanning salon and not be able to leave her car. But, her bosses and theirs think highly of her as do her peers at work. I said sev days ago she grad college magna cum laude. My son is a straight A student and has been since 1st grade-this yr 8th grade he is in a math class for the kids who scored highest on the EOGs last yr.He is going to high school this fall-I can't and won't try right now to even imagine what that change is going to rear!
My precious grand-daughter at this time-6-doesn't show any symptoms-but my son's didn't start till 3rd grade.So *D* you were right on we did support each other.
I think I passed this dreaded disease to my kids-why don't the neices and nephews have it-thank God they don't! Can you imagine an entire family! OH Father. My G-mother-mom's mom-was always "on meds" as the adults put it. I honestly don't know if she committed suicide or my G-Dad pushed her out the window-which is what "the family" thinks happened. Then my precious Mamaw-my Dad's mom-took ativan-for 30 yrs.She would visibly shake-as would her daughter-my aunt a school teacher. And...I can remember my G-Grand-mother saying, "NERVES 'eLL KILL YOU" I can remember being 8-10 yrs. old and my Aunt -not the teacher-who I loved to spend time with would give me a little yellow pill when I had trouble sleeping! Later I learned this was valium of course-so there's another Aunt on mom's side. Clearly you guys there has to be a connection. I don't know what I expect to gain by analyisingsp? this-except to maybe be more understanding and poss help someone else.
I will close now.
this FMS flare is enough to bring on any kind of panic attack-I think I have passed it on too! Somebody once said-"if we knew what we would pass on to our kids we would never have any." How totally sad. I really like this prog tho and sev of the people on this board. So, please don't give up on me yet!
Always,
Deb ^J^
PS PRV31MOM-thank you for making sense of yesterday's discussion. I never intended to hurt anybody and still stand by my post about the subject.
