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awestphal · Post by **awestphal** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 8:24 am

Posted March 13, 2008 10:33 AM Hide Post
Hi,I started the program 3 days ago. This is the hope I have been waiting for. Sometimes I feel like I cant make it one more day feeling like this. A year ago last Nov. I had an "attack" in the evening while reading my grandson a story, I had an overwelming feeling of dizzyness, panic, lightedness,sweaty etc. I thought I had completely lost my mind. When I woke up the next day I still felt "strange". Went to work and ended up going home. It all went down hill from there. I was off work for 5 months(they made me resign) went through multiple tests(all negative)and was told nothing was wrong with me. Since the episode I have this strange feeling all the time, it never goes away. I feel unconnected, spaced out, detached. I'm scard. I hope with this program I will get better. I didnt drive for almost a year because I was worried I was too spaced out that my reflexes wont be fast enough if something happened. Last Oct 2007, I moved back to my home town, Rapid City,SD. I love being back. My 2 sisters are here, Its nice to be back with them. I live here with my 5 year old grandson, just him and I. It is scary at times thinking that he is totally dependent on me,he is what keeps me going. He is the lite of my life. Does anyone else experience this feeling of unconnected, spacedout and detached from life?
Looking foward to the future,
Amy

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 8:43 am

Amy,

I can't say all your feelings are in common with mine, but you are not alone. There are days where I use to feel if it all would end that it would be so much simpler. It was not a take my own life thought, but the fear that something was wrong and I was dying all the time and if it would just happen I could be at peace.

As for the feelings you get, I think many of us will be able to relate. I have had the disconnected feeling, etc, but never all the feelings you describe.

I was on a work related call one day and got so overwhelmed I had to put the call on hold, gather my thoughts and get back on very quickly. I swore it was the end of my life, but it wasn't. It is my mind and in your case your mind playing games.

Hopefully the program and the great people here will help you not feel so alone in what you are feeling and going through.

I have a six yr old and a 21-month old and I have started focusing a lot more on them in order to keep my thoughts focused and stay positive in life. It brought me to tears one day thinking they could grow up w/o me!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 9:25 am

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Thankyou for your responce, It is nice to know that someone can hear me. I would never consider suicide like you said wouldnt either (my mom died at 38 years, 25 years ago on May 13) my sisters and I were very young and I would not dream of doing that. I looked back in the forum and found info on Depersonalization and Derealization (what a mouth full). It is interesting to read about. Sounds like me but I have it 24/7 for over a year. Thats why I was always scared to drive. Like I said I cant express enough to you how you taking the time to respond to me has ment to me. My focus is also on my grandson he makes everything worth it.
Sincerely,
Amy

Megun · Post by **Megun** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 9:32 am

Hello,

I absolutely have had all the same feelings that you have had. Please know that they always go away. When you feel them just let them be. Give them no power at all. They are only sensations and nothing more. They can and will not hurt you.

CLMGIRL · Post by **CLMGIRL** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 9:41 am

awestphal,

Yes I think we have all been there! I have had panic attacks for the past 2 years and have been to get xrays and have had blood work done everything came back fine! I get scared when I have a panic attack because I feel like I am dieing of a heart attack. I hate feeling that way! I have been in a prayer group and I have almost no panic attacks anymore! I have been praying and staying in the word. I have the same dizzy feelings and spaced out feeling sometimes enough where I can't speak. Stick with the program it will help so much! I have only done the first cd (I have been slacking) but it helped me just with the first part. I can now calm myself down along with my heartbeat. It is a great program! I stopped driving except to get my daughter from school and back and a few days ago I went to my moms which is about 10 to 15 minutes away and I had to cross a bridge and that was a huge accomplishment I even went and got a job! God is good and the program is a Godsent! Keep thinking of positive things it will get you through it! God bless!

Jennifier

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 9:43 am

Hi Boggs,
Thanks for your input. The feeling is hard to ignore because it is 24/7. I have been trying to concentrate on other things but it is sooo hard to concentrate on anything. I look foward to feeling better.
Amy

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 10:02 am

When I started in January,2008 I had dizzy spells,nausea and chest pains.I was ready to give up.
But by tape three most of those feelings were gone. Now I'm om tape eight and I cruise through the day and all of those feelings(thoughts) are gone.
Keep following MILINDA'S program. She is a hero to me!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 12:12 pm

Thanks to everyone for their input,
Amy

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 6:10 pm

Dear amy,
I listen all the time to the relaxation cd. that has helped me alot and I listen to it in my car and in my house and all the time bascially. I have some of the same feelings you talk about. I feel often unhinged and ungrounded and it feels awful. I try to think about all the things, people and nature that I am connected to and then I think of things I am grateful for. this helps too sometimes.
you are in my thoughts.
peace,
Mary

rose_thorn98 · Post by **rose_thorn98** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 7:15 pm

Originally posted by awestphal:
Posted March 13, 2008 10:33 AM Hide Post
Hi,I started the program 3 days ago. This is the hope I have been waiting for. Sometimes I feel like I cant make it one more day feeling like this. A year ago last Nov. I had an "attack" in the evening while reading my grandson a story, I had an overwelming feeling of dizzyness, panic, lightedness,sweaty etc. I thought I had completely lost my mind. When I woke up the next day I still felt "strange". Went to work and ended up going home. It all went down hill from there. I was off work for 5 months(they made me resign) went through multiple tests(all negative)and was told nothing was wrong with me. Since the episode I have this strange feeling all the time, it never goes away. I feel unconnected, spaced out, detached. I'm scard. I hope with this program I will get better. I didnt drive for almost a year because I was worried I was too spaced out that my reflexes wont be fast enough if something happened. Last Oct 2007, I moved back to my home town, Rapid City,SD. I love being back. My 2 sisters are here, Its nice to be back with them. I live here with my 5 year old grandson, just him and I. It is scary at times thinking that he is totally dependent on me,he is what keeps me going. He is the lite of my life. Does anyone else experience this feeling of unconnected, spacedout and detached from life?
Looking foward to the future,
Amy

You are definitely not alone in this. I ampretty much alwyas spaced out with a general sense of unreality punctuated by panic attacks and embarassig loss of control. Work has also been an issue with this. THe program is helping me get a handle on it, I recommend it highly. WRite us back