i know this forum is about anxiety but everyones so lovely on here i wanted to ask ur opinion, my mates kinda judge me on it so theres no point talking about it really..
most of my anxiety comes from self hatred. when me and my partner met 2 years ago it was PERFECT! like sickly movie stuff.. just amazing. his dad died tho 3 months into it.. and he started a degree (while working full time) and it took its toll. as a result he began having problems in the bedroom.. as he calls it, "it" wouldnt work...
this has carried on .. on and off since. long story short, he stopped initiating sex and eventually became much less affectionate with kissing etc. this really really got to me (im not ready to give up on romance at 21) and it ended up being me all the time.. initiating it or getting knocked back.
it got to the point where my paranoia set in and thought its cause i put weight on.. i look like a man.. u name it i thought it

and now.. its just nothing. its so upsetting. we are a young couple so in love but the affection has just kinda gone. i get turned on by thinking HE wants it.. so if for a moment i feel he doesnt it puts me off...
he went to see the DR and he said not to worry. but .. this is really getting me down now.
anyone have any advice on this? he said to me he wants to be able to work to get me and that might help.. so i knocked him back one time , just said "oh im not in the mood" and now.. he came round every night this week and nothing!!
im scared it will never come back.. sorry for rambling on. even if noone answers i have got it off my chest a bit lol but.. can anyone wiser than me make sense of this?
oh btw... he said the other week that he didnt initiate it cause he thinks "It" wont work.. and then this week he said my anxiety and depression has been hard on him and maybe thats why..??