Diverse Employment History

Vossman · Post by **Vossman** » Wed Mar 05, 2008 6:50 am

I am extremely new at this and I am just finding out that I have suffered for 30 years with severe anxiety, PTSD and depression. These disorders have become increasingly worse over the past 3 years - to the point of hospitalization twice.

Over the years, since college, I have moved from one job to another due to these issues. I seem to "walk" myself out the door of a job. I "talk" myself out of staying, out of performing, etc and I feel that I must leave the job, due to embarassment, and try a new one.

These feelings include but not limited to low self-esteem, not worthy, someone is out to get me fired, not smart enough or maybe this is not the job for me.

I feel that I have done just that at my current job and this is creating a lot of obsessive thoughts and stress; so much stress that I am now on medication for the first time. What do I do? Does anyone have any suggestions? I need help and now.

I appreciate any comments or suggestions anyone might have for me.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Mar 05, 2008 7:13 am

I can relate to how you are feeling. I no longer work, because I can't seem to cope with a job. I always get to the point of feeling like I am going to get fired, and I think my stress shows to the point that I actually do. I think I have found my purpose through those experiences because I am now committed to owning my own business. Sometimes curtain thing happening in life is just God's way of staring you in the right direction. I am a very creative person with big dreams that an average job just can't fulfill. Maybe you should go in business for your self, but trust that you have to get rid of this disorder because, take it from me, it will hinder you from making effective moves.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 06, 2008 6:16 am

Vossman, I know that many of us here understand what you're feeling. I felt the same, although to a lesser degree. Each time I had a problem at work or I did something wrong, my immediate thought would be that I needed to find another job, even if that isn't what I did it was my first thought - escape!

Hopefully as you start to feel better, the obsessive thoughts will begin to subside and you will be able to see things a bit more realistically.

Listen to the CDs and know that even if you do quit or get fired, there are other options for you out there. There always are.

Take care!
Ronda

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 06, 2008 7:02 pm

man m glad im not the only one ive been going to school to become a probation officer i use to work in a prison now i have the job its not nearly as bad as the jail job but im already thinking im not going to last long and my past history tells me that i never do about every six months i quit well my problem kow is that im buying a home so if i quit it will be tough to afford the house.