Trying Very Hard to Follow Through

sisterd · Post by **sisterd** » Tue Feb 12, 2008 1:58 pm

I Thank lucinda very much for the program that i have recieve about three weeks ago i have Learned a lot from what i have heard already . because I was so confuse about all those different feeling i was getting only that they dont come on as strong as they use to . you see it all start sometime in april 2006 I know it was an attack from the enemy but I did not realise it was depression and our mind could put us into so much trouble. I was having so much different feeling . I start asking myself a lot of question ,but Let tell you a Little about myself I am a christian and every little thing makes me feel guilty I always feeling like i am not right or maybe i'am not save. and I will go on and on . the enemy will pound my mind every day and for years i'm this way .I just want to feel good , or feel right ,or feel Save , but I have realise that its not how we feel no matter what our mind may tell us . We just have to Trust the Word of God and Nothing else . I am trying to focus on the pogram and trying to apply it to my Situation thats spiritually I never understand what was going on until i read the work book and see all the difference Symptoms then i realise I was not alone, my scary feeling was that God has given up on me . i was getting almost all of those feeling that you mention. and I was so scare that at times I will feel paralyse by fear even now when i get up feeling anxious i dont even feel like my heart is beating , i dont have the pounding heart beat as you describe in the pogram . I last all intrest in everything I can't even concentrate on the relaxation tape somtimes but i still try it. I am praying that i will be completely through this . thank you very much again for the program .I dont know if there is anyone else like me you can share some light on this for me .thank you all again and God bless .

sisterd

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Feb 12, 2008 2:56 pm

sisterd, I am a christian too, and sometimes I feel like I'm letting God down because I can't seem to get over this anxiety..I used to be very involved in church since I was 12 years old and now I'm so afraid of everything, that I don't drive anymore and I barely make it to church..I'm so afraid of the panic feelings..even in church ..which should be the most comforting place..but the anxiety is so hard to fight sometimes..I had to quit my job in the summer as an organist..God has given me gifts in the music area..and I just need to get past all this panic/anxiety stuff so I can get back to my life..the thing that helps me the most is the breathing and reading that I'm not dying and this is anxiety and just float with it and it will go away..I haven't used the relaxation tapes as much as I should..my days are just so hectic, even though I'm home..but I need to make time for them..well here's to us getting better and being able to get over this anxiety with God's help..LeeAnn

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Feb 13, 2008 9:52 pm

hi leeAnn thanks for replying at lease i know that i am not alone .. i am having a very hard time sleeping these days .i fine i am waking up every night almost the same time. and i have a hard time going back to sleep , last night i wake up feeling panicky..but the thing that bothers me ..is even if i wake up scare i dont feel a heart beat .. and the thought is that God has given up on me ...at times i feel like praying and other times a kind of far away ..like not connected.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 4:09 am

Hey you two, the best thing you could do for yourselves is work this program with all you've got. Be sure to come on here and read other posts. To build your faith especially go to the spiritual forums. I've had to go thru the program a 2nd time. This time with a coach. I'm almost done and start thinking why did I go thru this a 2nd time and did I really learn anything??? Of course! It's so easy to see the places we haven't improved but some of the areas I've improved. I've never sung on a worship team or did Karoke. A month ago I started this Karoke thing in a Variety store. From that simple act of faith, the storeowner is a new Christian and being mentored. We've gotten a woman's prayer grp. together in her store. God is doing great things in the store and in her life. I drove to a friend's place 4 hrs. away which was BIG for me. A week from Sun. we'll be leaving for TN. I told my husband I want to step out and drive a little in a strange place. Although I'm still struggling in my faith and the anxiety of this whole situation I'm in that kinda toppled me over again, I am progressing. Some do much faster than others. Give it your all girls and you'll see what a difference it makes.

sisterd, I know exactly what you mean about God loving us when we keep being filled with anxiety instead of faith. He understands each of us and loves us no matter what. Joyce Meyer is a great help to me. In fact I'm ordring her "Don't Give Up" CD's today. I encourage you to go to her website <A HREF="http://www.joycemeyer.org" TARGET=_blank>www.joycemeyer.org</A> Also if you check the spiritual section way..back you can read all the comments on her book "Battlefield of the Mind". You can type that in on the "Find" section and you may find it faster that way.

God bless you both.

I refuse to look at where I am now but look to what God and this program and these people have already helped me accomplish. I wish the same for you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 1:42 am

hi thank you all for the encouragement its helpful in these times

i find myself been wakeing up after 1 O CLOCK every night and hardly getting any sleep after that i even came on here to reply back but could not even get the courage to do even that .

Since i got the program and started listening to it it even make me feel more anxious.. at times i was feeling so low for the few days that i was wondering if i ever going to get out of this hole. but in everything God is in control i dont only depend on the program only ..i will still be focusing on the word ... because i think that our only answer to all of life prolem is in the word of God .

For now i am feeling little more better .. i went at a friend's house and met them with one of Joel Osteen book( become a better you) and i took up the book and in the page he was talking about smiling on purpose even if we dont feel like it.. still do it and he was saying we might be going through some ruff times but we can have a song in our heart .because when we do that we are clearing out all the grunk from our life and we are filling up by the spirit .even thanking God for all the good things he gives us ...I think sometimes we knows what to do but we have take up on our problem so much that we forget about what we should do .cause even at times when i am singing i still find myself worrying . all kind of thing is still going through my mind you just can't seem to shut them off ..

But with God help lets try hard to see what we can do for ourselves and even try to help others too..may the lord bless you all .

God is our only hope ..
Edwards

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 10:23 am

I wrestle with the thought that with God all things are possible only believe.So I am trying to turn it all over to God.Greater that is in you then he that is in the world.We are not giving God control I think I am but I am not the bilble says to think only on good things out thing is wrong.IF we give satan and inch he will take a mile I am praying and reading scriptures on praise.If God is the answer I want to find it we have to give God our all.I have had this panic my entire adult life and I am sick of it and I got to thinking may it is not right to try other things instead of him I don't know if a person is't carful he can get his thing in a mess..

~Noelle~ · Post by **~Noelle~** » Mon Feb 18, 2008 1:23 pm

When I read Psalms, I feel peace and I feel God's love.
One day I was walking down the hall in church and thinking to myself, "I don't want to be here." I was going through depression at the time. A thought came to my mind, which was from the Holy Spirit, "It's not about you." I paused and thought about that...I am here to show my love for Jesus and to worship Him. I am here for my family and to help anyone I can. Recently I realized that I had lost my smile. I used to smile at everyone in church and had not done that for quite some time. I decided to start smiling again, even when I am not feeling good inside - I feel better at church now. I know Jesus loves us and if we can find someone else to serve, we feel better inside.
Please take care.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Feb 18, 2008 2:02 pm

I am a Christian, too, and have been dealing with this battle in my head since middle school. At times, it has been worse than others. I have really gotten into the Word and lots of Bible studies, which have helped me grow tremendously spiritually and deepened my bond with God, but I still have not been able to consistently change my negative thinking habits. I came to the realization this weekend after opening up the box and listening to the audio CD that my anxiety is much more severe than I ever thought and that I have so many limitations that I never connected to anxiety before. I am so thankful that God is opening my eyes to all of this. I know this is an answered prayer, and I am excited and scared at the same time about what the future holds. I am doing my best to have faith and to acknowledge what I am feeling. Sometimes, if I am feeling a certain way, I automatically think, "I don't have a strong enough faith." However, I am being easier on myself and realize that this is a bad habit that can be broken. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Thank you all for being open about your struggles. It helps to know I am not alone.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Feb 23, 2008 4:08 am

I am trying to get closer to God and reconnect sometimes a person thinks he is not saved because looks like we would be better and if we really had faith we would not fear the bible says in I John 4:18 there is no fear in love;but perfect love casteth out fear;because fear hath torment.he that fearth is not made perfect in love. does anyone understand this?It would be nice to casth out fear I do not believe we should be bound by this there is something wrong.I can start praying and thanking God and proclaiming his word and I feel better I am trying to get to the truth because the bible says the truth will set you free we are not suppose to live like this there is something wrong and I would sure like to find it.Christ died to set us free I am not living the life that he bought for me sometimes I feel like I am doing him a disservice by living in the boundage am in we are suppose to be free and live above this I am going to keep searching for the truth until I have it.

Pooh36 · Post by **Pooh36** » Sat Feb 23, 2008 10:55 am

Salvation is ours! God made sure of this. Look at this posting under another subject here on StressCenter.com forums, this should help. My post there shares what God said to me about my lack of feeling saved.

<A HREF="http://bbs.stresscenter.com/eve/forums/ ... 3291077904" TARGET=_blank>http://bbs.stresscenter.com/eve/forums/ ... 1077904</A>

Rod