JAVAJOE"S scared

javajoe · Post by **javajoe** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 4:51 am

I am a father and a husband, and I have Anxiety and I'm convinced a Alcohol problem. I go to AA and have a sponser. However I think about when I did drink what did I say or do. Did I hurt someone's feeling ex.... I am proud of myself for not self medicating now, but my anxiety is what did I do what did I say and there go's the panic It consumes me. Can anyone relate without telling me to continue AA or it's ok you have stoped drinking. I want to hear of someone else with the same fear please. This is my first time on this site and I am truly scared.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 5:45 am

I am a mother and wife. I did drink and sometimes more than I should have. I decided to give it up to try to help me get my life together because if we are honest with ourselves: We know alcohol is not the answer. It usually only makes things worse. It is just a bandaid for bigger problems. You sound like you are finally facing some of your issues and that is why you are having anxiety and panic. Its okay. This to shall pass. Just imagine you are on a car trip and in the beginning its going to be rough going. Lots of potholes and detours. Your car might even stall or quit working. Thats okay too. Just keep moving forward even if you have to walk or crawl. But at the end of this trip is the most beautiful place you have ever seen or been. It will be more than worth the effort. I am on the highway myself. Sometimes my car runs out of gas and I have to stop and refuel but I am not giving up. (I am scared too) Just keep going and look around. There are lots of us out here on that same road. We are here to help you, so is AA. You can do it.

Just don't give up. I'll look for on the road!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 5:53 am

I'm sure you've heard the "The path of excess leads to the tower of wisdom"

It sounds like you're on your way.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 7:38 am

Java,Hope you are over that last wave of angst. There are only 2 things I know of that help me with working through events that happened in the past. One is forgivness and the other is learning from mistakes made. I cannot undo anything in the past but I can learn not to do those things again in the present.
Is the reason you don't know if you hurt people because you were in a black out? Or are you just feeling scared that you may have done something wrong while drinking and feel embarrassed about that? just curious, you don't have to answer if you don't want to. Self awareness is uncomfortable at first. there is no way around it. I'm guessing that is why so many people choose not to do it. Discomfort is part of growth, remember that it doesn't stay uncomfortable. Life will get better and better. Hang in there and keep taking little steps in the right direction.