You may remember me writing a post last weekend titled "living in my bed" I basically wrote about how I was stuck in my bed, depressed, anxious, miserable.
I'd like to share with you what I did this weekend. I woke up Saturday morning and I said to myself "I am not going to spend this beautiful day in my bed" I was so weary about it, because my bed had become my safe, comfortable place. But I made my way out into the living room and did some cleaning and then I cleaned the kitchen. I watched some TV and wrote in my journal. Then I decided that I was tired of having no food and that I was going to go to the grocery store, by MYSELF. What was I thinking? I don't know, but I went. And after that I went to the pet store. And after the pet store I went to the craft store, and after the craft store I went to the gas station to fill up my car. If you know me, you know that a month ago I could hardly go to my mailbox. When I got home I spent a few hours making things with the stuff I got from the craft store and NOT in my bed, but on my couch! My boyfriend came home from work then and just about died of shock when I told him everything I had done. He could NOT believe it. He said he needed to go to the grocery store so I said 'lets go' and I went AGAIN. That is 5 different stores in 1 day. When I got home we watched movies together in the living room.
Today I decided that yesterday was just too perfect and that I was going to have another day not spent in my bed. A few days ago my parents invited my boyfriend and I over for dinner. I never accepted, because I was too nervous about going. I decided that I was going, no but's about it! So during the day I did some more cleaning and took a shower and got ready. When my boyfriend came home we headed over to their house and had a great turkey dinner. I had so much fun. When we got home I watched some tv in the livingroom.
I went an entire weekend out of my bedroom. I accomplished things that a month ago I thought I would never, ever do. I guess that I realized I had to start believing in me and that if I ever want to get better, I'm just going to have to get uncomfortable and get OUT THERE.
I want to thank my good friends for believing in me. Mimi, you are such a great support person for me. You were the first person I called Saturday after I went shopping by myself. I love you! DeeDee, thank you so much for the inspiration. You really made me realize that I had to get out there and try. And Deb, thank you for believing in me too and teaching me how to believe in me. I am so thankful for all of you.
I am SO proud of myself!
hugs&kisses,
Karilynn
I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
Frank Herbert
"How you climb up the mountain is just as important as how you get down the mountain. And, so it is with life, which for many of us becomes one big test followed by one big lesson. In the end, it all comes down to one word: grace. It's how you accept winning and losing, good luck and bad luck, darkness and the light."
Karilynn
I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
Frank Herbert
"How you climb up the mountain is just as important as how you get down the mountain. And, so it is with life, which for many of us becomes one big test followed by one big lesson. In the end, it all comes down to one word: grace. It's how you accept winning and losing, good luck and bad luck, darkness and the light."
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Karilynn, CONGRATULATIONS 
I AM SOOOO PROUD OF YOU!!! That's what I love to hear on these boards! YOU are such an inspiration to me and to everyone else here.
DeeDee & Mimi, although we've never really spoken, I too get ALOT out of your posts. I look forward to reading your posts and inspirational advice everyday!! Thank you ever so much ladies for your continued support to all of us!!!
All my regards and admiration
Robin
I AM SOOOO PROUD OF YOU!!! That's what I love to hear on these boards! YOU are such an inspiration to me and to everyone else here. DeeDee & Mimi, although we've never really spoken, I too get ALOT out of your posts. I look forward to reading your posts and inspirational advice everyday!! Thank you ever so much ladies for your continued support to all of us!!!
All my regards and admiration
Robin
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Dear KARILYNN:
I read your posting this morning & girl, I got the biggest smile on my face - such a big proud smile. I've read many of your wonderful postings & I see such a strong & determined young woman in them. I'm so happy you see that in yourself. CONGRATS.
LENORE
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I read your posting this morning & girl, I got the biggest smile on my face - such a big proud smile. I've read many of your wonderful postings & I see such a strong & determined young woman in them. I'm so happy you see that in yourself. CONGRATS.
LENORE
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Hello, Karylynn!!
My name is Bill. Sometimes I don't want or need to get out of bed, too. That is or was my safe place. In Florida, these days, temps are about 78 degrees F.
It was so wonderful to hear about your "road trip". Congrats!!!
When I go out of the house, I call it "running the mile", in honor of the US Army Rangers who had to run a mile in '92; Mogadishu, Somalia; All the boys were there with full gear,under fire, trying to get home. They were separated from their extraction--nobody was able to find an easy solution.
They found their way out of this.
I think, with the help of each and every one of us, we will all "run the mile".
My name is Bill. Sometimes I don't want or need to get out of bed, too. That is or was my safe place. In Florida, these days, temps are about 78 degrees F.
It was so wonderful to hear about your "road trip". Congrats!!!
When I go out of the house, I call it "running the mile", in honor of the US Army Rangers who had to run a mile in '92; Mogadishu, Somalia; All the boys were there with full gear,under fire, trying to get home. They were separated from their extraction--nobody was able to find an easy solution.
They found their way out of this.
I think, with the help of each and every one of us, we will all "run the mile".