wanting things right type of OCD

RumorHasIt · Post by **RumorHasIt** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 8:45 pm

first off, I want to tell all of you that I am very new to this program and my awesome mom just recently got me the package! now I saw the first DVD and saw week 2 in my mom's email. I am just about to get real serious about this, but my main problem is OCD. I can control the simple urges like wanting to touch a side walk with the other foot or trying to avoid cracks. I can also control other things, like feeling as if I need to explain a situation just right..but my main constant problem is my OCD on my own computer! its really video game related actually..I can be a big gamer. some games have glitches in them and it almost hurts my brain, like flashing textures or misplaced stuff. I am also trying to become a part time developer and stuff...but this drives me crazy and causes me to uninstall some of the most fun games out there. worst of all, I know I can't change some of this stuff..so when Lucinda mentions you should ride it out..is she also referring to OCD and letting the compulsion pass? or should I just ultimately ignore the urges to uninstall a certain game. this all seems so ridiculous and I'm sure you guys might think so...but it literally makes my head feel weird and when I am going out with my friends..I feel I need to remove whatever has "problems" on my computer before I leave. its not just the games, if I have files that are messy and I leave some place..I feel I need to get it all deleted before I go. I personally believe its because I know what bothers me is always in my room. aside from this, since this is my first post on here. let me introduce myself. my name is Brendan and I am a musician. I've been playing guitar for about 10 years, I also play bass, and a little bit of keyboard. I also create videos..mainly freeze frame animation type stuff(like toys moving). I also use to intern at a radio station as an air talent, I'm 20 years old and I just want to move forward fast to enjoy life to the fullest! so its great to be here and I hope to get feedback from most of you =]

I also hope I can help some of you as well

- Brendan

RumorHasIt · Post by **RumorHasIt** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 12:30 pm

let me just break down the feeling in hopes that I can get a response. have you guys ever left your home where your obsession lies and you felt you needed to perform the compulsion as soon as you could or something horrible would happen?

wicki123 · Post by **wicki123** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 12:50 pm

Hi Brendan-- Welcome to the program. My OCD symptoms are different then yours but I attend an OCD therapy program and several people in my program have symptoms just like you. They feel that something bad will happen if they do not perform their compulsions. I believe that this is pretty common for people with OCD. I would highly recommend finding a therapist in your area who specializes in exposure therapy for OCD and work with them along with this program. Exposure therapy is highly effective for OCD. Good luck to you! and congratulations for getting started with the program.

Kenny G · Post by **Kenny G** » Mon Jan 28, 2008 1:04 pm

[QUOTE]Originally posted by RumorHasIt:
let me just break down the feeling in hopes that I can get a response. have you guys ever left your home where your obsession lies and you felt you needed to perform the compulsion as soon as you could or something horrible would happen?[/QUOTE

Hi Brenden:

I got into this program for added help with my OCD which is really intense. One of the most powerful things I'm learning thru this and other readings is that OCD really stems from unresolved anxiety; however, all the silly things we do seem so unrelated to that, but it is. I could write a book on my 40 years of OCD. But to answer your question, yes, I have experienced what you do many times. Be strong.

medea barnard · Post by **medea barnard** » Thu Feb 21, 2008 11:21 am

hi my OCD is so irritating. I can't stand things to be out of place! I can't leave my home until it is straighten and everthing visual is in place. I can't start a program like excersise or even this program without starting it on a MONDAY! But the inticipation of this program i did start it on tuesday. This is to funny: Some of my friends rearranged my pillows on my couches to see if i would notice, and i did before we left they were standing in the hall waiting for me to fix them back and I did just that. They started to laugh at me, making a joke out of it. I also, laughed back and at that moment i realized how horrible this has become. All of my friends know i'm suffering with this and we all joke about it. I really hate that this is who i've become! All these thoughts and actions also leads me to depression. I feel like everything in my life has to be organized or i can't function. Theres so much more that i experience daily but these are some of the things i deal with that i don't like at all. I would love to see what happens to me on this program. If i could just feel complete and smile with happiness.