I can't seem to believe it's anxiety

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 25, 2008 4:51 am

You aren't alone in this at all. I think a lot of us have they "it can't JUST be anxiety" syndrome. What worked best for me is to positive talk to myself. I would tell myself that it is just anxiety, that I wasn't going to ruin my day with worry about it, and then I would get busy with something. More times than not it would go away or lesson. It was getting to the point with me, that even the slightest twinge anywhere would cause me to panic.. I mean the pain could be a .5 out of 10 and I would panic myself into make it a lot worse than it was. I would tell myself c'mon this is barely painful, I won't worry about it until ____ insert symptom here... For example, I have chronic calf problems...my mind always went to having a blood clot. I had ultrasounds done on both legs, came out normal. The tech even said I had beautiful veins. BUT what stuck in my mind is that one tid bit of info from me looking up symptoms (something else we do and shouldn't) is that a lot of times it happens with no symptoms. Even after I got the all clear I was a wreck...any twinge in my leg I would go psychotic with worry. I would tell myself no this isn't a blood clot, I get this all the time, I never once had any other symptoms...I refuse to worry over it until my leg falls off (keep it light it helps). It is a very hard one to overcome, but keep working at it...it does get better.

Someone mentioned something about being afraid of death. I know this is another common fear to us...or for most people for that matter. As soon as my general anxiety left...that fear left as well. I know you said you were trying to overcome that particular fear...I'm thinking maybe focusing on it too much might have the opposite affect. I can always tell when my anxiety is getting the better of me because the death fear returns. Just something to think about.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 25, 2008 10:32 am

C'mon - Hang in there and keep the faith!!! I'm still fighting. I'm only on tape 4 and feeling positive about the program. Don't give up! I wish you guys well!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 12:28 pm

I'm hanging in there. I just started cd 3 and I think this program may help still wondering bout it though. I dunno.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 12:33 pm

yeah i seem to think about death alot. lately i have been telling myself, whatever happens happens. I can't stop anything that GOD has in store for me. So I'll just wait for it to happen, when and if it does.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 12:40 pm

I think about death alot. I really fear it, but I know we all have to die at some point. My family doesn't really understand all this. They all want me to quit complaining. They tell me it's all in my head and to no think about it, yeah ok, that's so hard to do. I actually had a fight with my sister the other day, and I know this is terrible, but I told her that I hoped that she had one just so she knows how it affects me. Unfortunately, about a week later, she had a dizzy episode and started hyperventilating for the first time ever, and of course she blamed me. So I really feel awful about that, but I'm trying to get over all of this so I can live freely. Anybody out there not able to drive because of these. I'm dying to drive again, but scared to death about it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 12:44 pm

I am also hoping and praying that this program will help. I pray to GOD everyday that he will end this for me. I know that I don't have any control over what he has in store for me. My saying now is "whatever happens happens and I can't control it".

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 12:49 pm

All of these symptoms are terrible and worst of all they are on a daily basis. I may have one good day out of 2 weeks. That one day is so precious to me. If the next day is terrible, I long for another good one. It's very rare right now, I just want to feel normal again. Sometimes I think the medication I'm on, which is klonopin, has alot to do with my sensations now. Like the blurred vision, nervous, etc. Before I started any medications, I didn't have these. I had a panic attack and then started the medications. Anybody else have these thoughts?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 1:40 pm

Hi Guys,
I am new to this site, just read through the posts....you are NOT alone. I have suffered all of my life with anxiety, at my lowest point 6years ago I was put on Celexa, it served its purpose but then I struggled for 4 years to wean off. I was never satisfied with feelin "numb" I knew that was not me. I truly have come a million miles - I am Celexa free. I still feel anxious...and 2 days ago alomost had a full blown panic attack in a public washroom. What is different? I accept what is happening, I don't beat myself up, and I let it happen. I want so badly to share my triumphs...I know how it feels to be in that pit. Some of the things I educated myself about. Number 1 Nutrition (I believe with my whole heart it is the only way I am drug free) I am talking especially about your B's. Number 2 Relaxation techniques even if you do it for 30 seconds you are helping yourself. Number 3 At least one person to confide in and be honest with what is going on. Number 4 "Normal" people would be DEAD if they went through the crap we put ourselves through. Have a laugh at your own expense. When you are at your darkest moment think "I am not alone". Please think of me because when I am down and I feel that creeping fear, I think of all of the people like me and draw strength.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 2:55 pm

Hello!I too have health anxiety.It became so severe 2 years ago that I thought that I wasn't going to ever come out of it.It's been a rough road but i can honestly say for the first time after being housebound for 2 years that I'm getting better!I went to 2 different doctors and would call the nurse at least twice a week.I know how frustrating it is to hear it's just anxiety when your suffering so bad.I watched a Christian show yesturday and it was talking about how we have to suffer through things to be able to help others because you can't help others if you haven't been through these things.That to me is a very powerful statement.It was like God was finally giving me the answer to "why me Lord?"I'm finding my strength through Him.I mentioned earlier that I had been housebound for 2 years watching everyone live their lives around me with tears in my eyes.No more I'm taking the steps forward.I am concurring anxiety!You have to just finally make up your mind and ask yourself "Do I want to let this strong hold take a hold of me?Or am I going to trust in the Lord with all my heart and break free?"This is the only way.I"m still struggling but I Know that if I just don't look back and keep trusting I will have freedom and so will you!The moment we feel something is when we just trust and let it go.Ride it out.It takes time and like I said it is a struggle but well worth it.After all I think that we're pretty special people.I truly hope that you feel better.God Bless you!

Gman5256 · Post by **Gman5256** » Sun Jan 27, 2008 5:45 am

Thanks for the reply. I agree GOD will help us all. I also look at people around me and wish I could be like them, FREE!!! I feel caged up and unable to live life the way I want to. I wish I could go back to work, drive, and just be able to do things with my kids that I use to. It's just like I never feel good enough to do it anymore. I also have been housebound, other than going to the doctors, I feel safe there. So I know what your going through. Good luck to you also and GOD Bless.