Holy Jesus

ForrestMcKi · Post by **ForrestMcKi** » Wed Jan 23, 2008 9:54 am

Yesterday I felt as though I was on top of the world and beginning to find an answer to my Panic Attacks and weird sensations, but today has been terrible (negative thought I know). I can't shake the panic attacks. I've not had enough time in my day to do some of the homework that Lucinda describes in week two. I am really wondering why it was so good yesterday, but less then exciting today when I did exactly the same thing. I also am really tired today--where yesterday I was full of energy. Panic attacks have consumed my day--journalling them all, but holy Jesus where do I go when the setback happens?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jan 23, 2008 10:15 am

Hang in there! I know it is so frustrating because when you have a good day, you are like this is great, my tools are working, I am not giving the panic attacks any fear. Then, you wake up the next day and it is like night and day.
It is just part of the process of healing. I had the same experience as you and in my mind was very disappointed and frustrated because yesterday was such a good day but today my stomach was bothering me which immediatly made me think negative. We need to be positive and remember this is not going to happen over night!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jan 23, 2008 10:58 am

Forrest,
Its very common when you first start the program to be more anxious than normal. Try to float through it, and not wear yourself out, analyzning your day.
WE ALL have good days, and then a string of bad. But, the more you work the program, use the techniques the easier and more comfortable you will become.
And dont BEAT yurself up, cause you have a bad day either!!! Look forward to each day, getting better, and practicng what your learning. TAke care Nelly:)

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 6:25 am

I know how you feel Forrest because yesterday I had the best day,, I was like this is awesome feeling this good. Its like you get a slight feeling that I am all through with the bad days and than today hit me like a ton of bricks. I feel strange, my upper back and chest are tight and I just feel miserable. I listened to my relaxtion cd, did some journaling but I can not shake the feeling. I hope tomorro is like yesterday was.. Feeling so lost today. One step forward one step back, but from reading the posts from Duke and Mello Nello I am encouraged to keep going... Hang in there Forrest.
Gina

Mom of 6 · Post by **Mom of 6** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 6:41 am

I feel it too Forest scares me like crazy... cant stop the thinking that Im nuts this isnt working.....etc etc.

But I know that this has happened before and it will happen again...life isnt a straight and narrow path it twists and turns and with every twist and turn is potential for good and bad.

The program gives me the skills to use so that I can keep going and you will too....this chat or forum is great. When I feel like I have no one to turn to no one to understand me I can always come here and there are lots of freinds to help me through. Same for you.

I love my family but I have to say they arent the best at making me feel better. I can come here and perfect strangers are more comforting and understanding and its all very confusing but it works. Sometimes I think because we all go through this we can relate and cuz we have such a large group of people here someone is in the same boat and there is comfort in numbers at least for me.

You will be ok. Sometimes it will be tough really tough but your never going to be that person you were before....lost, confused, scared, unknowledged....we now have power and desire and all the tools we need to overcome and we will.

Hang in there with me okay?
Together we are strong.
Dodger

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 7:08 am

Hang in there Forest. Like Gina, I too had the most wonderful, calm day on Tuesday! I couldn't believe I felt sooo good. I kept thanking and praising God for how great I felt. I didn't have an ounce of anxiety, or inner nervousness, or worry or fear or anything...

But the very next day, yesterday.. Man! I got hit with a ton of bricks. My anxiety kicked in full force first thing in the morning. All of the things I felt I had conquered (the extreme early am anxiety, the leg weakness, the trembling, the fear of hot showers, extreme dizziness ALL DAY) It was so bad that none of my medications worked! I eventually cried and prayed myself to sleep last night. And now today, I am still trying to recover from yesterday.

Like everyone is saying, it is really a process, one step forward and two (sometimes three) steps back.

Overall because of the program, I have HOPE and I feel better knowing that I will be OK and to learn to float through these experiences. Please understand that some days will be good and some will be bad (not sure why that is) but cherish the moments and days that you do feel great and each day will get better

Misty

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 8:34 am

See how many people you can relate with Forest. I too am there with the others. Yesterday was good, today not so good. I was on chat earlier with Dodger and Gina. I just started feeling better, got the hot water pipes thawed in the kitchen, called hubby and bam! More problems with the builder of this house. He told my husband he's ruining his health over this. My husband was all tense and work and now I've been tense. After a while you have decide how important is it. We paid good money for this house. Things are under warrantee. It should be taken care of. It's becoming such a stressor I think we'd be better to get someone else to fix things. I'm taking the program the 2nd time and still struggling with anxiety. I was better for a while. I think we need to focus on the good days and when a bad day comes say tomorrow will be better or problem solve like we're taught in the program. Sometimes we can problem solve on here or getting help on chat. Thank God for this program. There will be days like Dodger said is this ever going to be over but it will. Let's keep on cheering for each other. When one falls, the other picks him up. Hang in there!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 9:28 am

Hi all/Boy as I've been reading these messages it just like I was writing themI'm still waiting for the wonderfull say I had when i listened to the first ta pe I felt awsome . but I've never had a day as wonderful as thatose 2 were. I'm getting better but have a long way to go. I do feel so much better when I get on this forum. I have my sister visiting here with me from Can , will be here 3 more weeks so I hope I will do better.Is there anyone out there who got this fear when their husband passed away. I had anxiety b/4 but it never lasted this long, always had hubby to help me.Now it's god , the program and myself, so i know I'll get over ir.I;m doing volunteerr work to try and keep busy.I pray for all who writeto this chat .I call it a blanket prayer, covering everyone. God Bless

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 9:33 am

Hi There:

Oh man I just posted a similar one under "lost the light" check it out- just a quick note- I have been journaling everything, everything! I am seeing patterns now with certain foods, drinks, routines.. etc. try that and you may find you start mastering the best options for yourself! goodluck!