no more anxiety...but oh the depression???

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 17, 2008 9:23 am

I wouldn't assume you have clinicial depression like a response from up above; It does seem logical that anxiety causes some depression. That cause & effect method really makes sense to me. Somewhere in the workbook it says if you can recall that the anxiety preceeded the depression then you have a good idea of where it's coming from and if we fix the initial problem (anxiety and bad habit thinking) then the depression will lessen up, too.
I don't like those down feelings, but I do agree we are supposed to treat them just like anxious feelings with the same self-talk/compassionate talk. My problem lately is still wondering how I'm "supposed to feel". The expectations are where I'm working now. Tough stuff, but worth it. What other choice do we have?
Best wishes to you. I have a strong feeling that you'll figure out some key ways to deal with these feelings, too. They're just feelings and aren't too truthful.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 17, 2008 10:15 am

i know how you feel. i am conquering the anxiety but still have bouts of depression. I found that the supplement GABA helps me a lot. it helps the part of the brain that produces feel good amino acids. Try it!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 17, 2008 11:57 am

Thanks everyone !! again, it's nice to know that I am not alone! However, I do feel for each and every one of you

It seems as if I go a couple days of feeling REALLY depressed(my OCD kicks in as well

) but then it lifts for a day or too and then back to being depressed. I do find that when I am busy doing things(cleaning, visiting, etc) I don't notice it. Therefore, I'm thinking that I just need to get out more. I've also come to the conclusion that I've been dealing with anxiety for so long, that perhaps feeling relaxed and calm is "strange" to me??? I feel weepy at times, but not alot...I feel "heavy",'weak" and "tired" ALOTTTT!!!! The thought just occured to me, Like a body builder ya know? He works the hell out of his muscles and then for a couple days after, his body is tired, weak, etc. perhaps it's because of the anxiety that I've had, now that their pretty much non existant, I'm just feeling the after effects... I'm just rambling on now, I just wanted to get my ideas and thoughts out there..I know that I'm doing ALOT better with the program, I still feel optimistic about the whole thing! I'm on my way and feeling stronger than ever, I just wish I didn't feel so tired

anyway, Take care everyone and I'll keep ya "posted".

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 18, 2008 1:43 am

Well, I went to see my doctor because I was feeling so OVER THE TOP depressed and for the first time ever...I am clincally depressed! My anxiety is so much better with the program but the depression is so paralyzing, I can't function. I've been going on like this for a couple of years now..a good day here and there .. but, for the most part, I suffer almost daily. So, I have been off meds for 2 1/2 years and started again last night. I feel bad about it, very defeated, but..I know I couldn't have lasted much longer the way I was going. I also take medication for a hormonal problem with my pitutitary gland which could be contributing to the extreme depression.

I wish I could have used the same skills that I used for anxiety but in my case, I couldn't function enough to even use them.

The GOOD part is, I started a 6mos exercise women's group with the Riverside hospital and I am hopeful that with the exercise group, I will once again be well again to get off meds. And, because I have been off before, I KNOW I can do it and LIVE. And maybe once the hormonal stuff works out, the depression will be gone.

I know I am in no position to make decisions either. So, for the moment...I will take the support that my boyfriend is giving me. I need it so much. I'm very stubborn and was determined to not lean on him but..I think right now, I have to be a bit more gentle with myself. I've done everything within my power to be healthy and happy and .. I just couldn't do enough positive self talk, or exercise enough to make this better.

It'll be a while before I feel ok with taking meds again .. but, in the meantime, I am hopeful to start feeling better very soon.

Wish me luck
Danielle

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 18, 2008 4:53 am

Danielle, Good luck with taking meds

I wish I could just get over the "fear" of taking meds

I had a bad reaction to Zoloft 10 years ago, hence why I haven't tried anything else, since then. I know there is great stuff out there(I've heard great stories of how it helps), and sometimes it takes a couple of tries to get the right one,but I'm scared to death to even try.
I've also been contemplating seeking a psychiatrist to talk to, but I'm afraid of being labeled "goofy" by my husband and his family. They are VERY critical about people who suffer with depression/anxiety

I know of three family members that suffer with both and man they(husbands family) are cruel in the way they talk about them. it's so sad

I keep it a secret and THis makes it EXTREMELY hard to talk to them. I talk to hubby, and he knows that I am going through a rough spot right now, but I don't and will not go into it in depth(for fear of him thinking i'm crazy) So, I continue with this program and it's helped immensley!!! I read alot of inspirational books and pray ALOT

anyways...
Good luck Danielle, and please post your progress with meds.. Perhaps your experience will be the one for me to quit being so prideful and JUST DO IT! and to hell with everyone else's opinion or closed mindedness

Thanks for sharing your story..I'll be watching for future posts. Take care and God bless you!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 18, 2008 10:54 am

Thanks a bunch for your kind words. I know exactly how you feel about meds. I was on then bouncing from one to another for almost 20 years. The last meds before I got completely off were the best! I have no fear of going back on. Only a bit of defeat! But, at this point, I KNOW I have to do this. Maybe not forever, hopefully not..but, definltey for now. My quality of life has been very poor the past few years since I got off of meds even though I have done everything within my power to succeed.

As for your family etc, I know how you feel about that too. My family ridiculed me so much for anxiety etc but funny thing is, they are all off on disability etc cause they can't function with depression and anxiety and I am the only one still working and leading a 'somewhat' normal life. They are in very BAD shape. Not so funny any more...

I hope you find the strength to tell your husband the truth about how you feel and what you need and that he in turns provides you with the love and compassion you so deserve.

All the best and for sure, I will keep you posted on how I am doing...

Hugs
Danielle

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 18, 2008 11:20 am

Your'e right, you couldn't be more right. I guess you just have 2 deal with it as it comes. It's always something, believe me. Hang n there