I used to get mocked for liking Elvis Costello (the only Elvis that matters !!!!!!!!) I didn't care though. Whenever his tunes came on the radio, I CRANKED it !!!! That was an excellent one !
I woke up this morning and I was fine. I got ready to go over to my folks' house for breakfast (I try to get over there a few times a week like a good son should LOL) and BANG a panic attack hit. I started shaking a bit and I had to sit and close my eyes and just breathe. Nothing happened that I can think of that started it, it just happened out of the blue. I got to my folks house and I started shaking again. This time mom noticed it and asked if I needed to lie down for a bit. I told her "no" I will be fine in a bit. After 10 minutes or so, I calmed down. After that, I had running around to do (the market for fruits and veggies and then the place where I get my meats etc) Once I started moving around, I was fine, but walking into the places, I could feel those stupid feelings coming on. I made it thru and I made a point of staying in those places longer just so I could practice getting those feelings under control. I even got fruits and veggies for mom and dad. Right now, I'm going to go for my much needed river walk. I think that I need to burn off the remainder of the tension.
About an hour away from me, they got so much snow (thanks to the lake effect snow), that the drifts went up to the roof of a single story house ! It was so weird looking. But me, I got nothing. That's fine though. It saves me from shovelling LOL
I had to go to Home Depot yesterday to pick up 2 more sheets of drywall for the bathroom. I wanted to get it now in case we get hammered with the white stuff.
Back in a bit !
One More Step
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manofmusic
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Hey gang -
Just thought I'd drop in on your little party! I'm glad to be missed!
Things have been going alright for me. My anxiety has remained roughly the same, which is actually a good thing. I typically have a more difficult time during the holidays, but that hasn't been the case this year. Am I finally growing up? Imagine!
I may have mentioned that I started a new type of therapy a while back called neurotherapy. It's a form of biofeedback that involves trying to alter your brainwaves to bring them back to a more balanced state. Unfortunately, after about ten sessions, with both the doctor and I seeing no results, the doctor suggested that we end my treatment.
I was surprised how much that upset me. I went into the treatment not expecting much since so few things have worked for me in the past. I didn't realize how much hope I had invested until I was told it wasn't going to work out. In any event, I got over myself and kept moving ahead. Isn't my motto "one more step"? Well, I'm going to keep stepping then.
Work has been good in terms of hours, but I'm still doing it exclusively from home. I did make it to the office garage on Thursday, which I haven't been able to do for while, so that was a big accomplishment. Working with my regular therapist, I realized that I had been using the new therapy as an avoidance tactic. Rather than forcing myself to keep fighting on my own, I was looking for an easy way out, the "silver bullet".
The only approach that has ever had any significant effect on overcoming my anxiety and agoraphobia has been desensitization. That is, facing my fears in small increments until I overcome them. I've know for many years now that this is the best solution, at least for me, but have not been putting my full heart into it. It's difficult work and typically unpleasant to say the least. But if it's the only way out, then I have to take that path.
I don't have a song choice for this post. I decided to just keep it simple.
Take care all,
Jamie
Just thought I'd drop in on your little party! I'm glad to be missed!
Things have been going alright for me. My anxiety has remained roughly the same, which is actually a good thing. I typically have a more difficult time during the holidays, but that hasn't been the case this year. Am I finally growing up? Imagine!
I may have mentioned that I started a new type of therapy a while back called neurotherapy. It's a form of biofeedback that involves trying to alter your brainwaves to bring them back to a more balanced state. Unfortunately, after about ten sessions, with both the doctor and I seeing no results, the doctor suggested that we end my treatment.
I was surprised how much that upset me. I went into the treatment not expecting much since so few things have worked for me in the past. I didn't realize how much hope I had invested until I was told it wasn't going to work out. In any event, I got over myself and kept moving ahead. Isn't my motto "one more step"? Well, I'm going to keep stepping then.
Work has been good in terms of hours, but I'm still doing it exclusively from home. I did make it to the office garage on Thursday, which I haven't been able to do for while, so that was a big accomplishment. Working with my regular therapist, I realized that I had been using the new therapy as an avoidance tactic. Rather than forcing myself to keep fighting on my own, I was looking for an easy way out, the "silver bullet".
The only approach that has ever had any significant effect on overcoming my anxiety and agoraphobia has been desensitization. That is, facing my fears in small increments until I overcome them. I've know for many years now that this is the best solution, at least for me, but have not been putting my full heart into it. It's difficult work and typically unpleasant to say the least. But if it's the only way out, then I have to take that path.
I don't have a song choice for this post. I decided to just keep it simple.
Take care all,
Jamie
"Common things occur commonly. Uncommon things don't. Therefore, when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras." -- C.J. Peters
Manofmusic,
Very good choice! I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round....I just had to let it gooooo. I just had tooooo let gooooooo.
Dag gum! Good tune!
Ok mine is another Christmas choice.
http://link.brightcove.com/ser...=0&bctid=53156488001
I can't top Lennon tonight... I'll savor that song for awhile!
SEARUNNER!!!! YAY!
Glad you poped in...LOL! ( It is your party after all, we are just keeping time for you and entertainment!) I do miss reading your post. You always have such good insight on things.
First thing came to mind was too bad! LOL.... But I also understand how important it is for myself to continue to grow. We are always going to be the same person as we were while we were kids, but we also must grow and go after dreams and desires, not be held hostage by fears. Dare ourselves to go forward, not hold back due to limitations we set for our fear.
Keep stepping, one step at a time.
You got that right, Its not such a bad path either!
Good to hear from you! Keep swinging!
Very good choice! I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round....I just had to let it gooooo. I just had tooooo let gooooooo.
Dag gum! Good tune!
Ok mine is another Christmas choice.
http://link.brightcove.com/ser...=0&bctid=53156488001
I can't top Lennon tonight... I'll savor that song for awhile!
SEARUNNER!!!! YAY!
Glad you poped in...LOL! ( It is your party after all, we are just keeping time for you and entertainment!) I do miss reading your post. You always have such good insight on things.
Am I finally growing up? Imagine!
First thing came to mind was too bad! LOL.... But I also understand how important it is for myself to continue to grow. We are always going to be the same person as we were while we were kids, but we also must grow and go after dreams and desires, not be held hostage by fears. Dare ourselves to go forward, not hold back due to limitations we set for our fear.
Keep stepping, one step at a time.
It's difficult work and typically unpleasant to say the least. But if it's the only way out, then I have to take that path.
You got that right, Its not such a bad path either!
Good to hear from you! Keep swinging!
Thanks, THH!
Good to be back and see that you all are holding your own. You're right: it isn't such a bad path. It suppose we've learned that much of it is just the mindset. I can't pretend that it will be pleasant, but it doesn't have to be terrible either. My reactions are largely up to me. While I can't control a lot of things, I can choose whether to overreact or under-react. I will choose the latter.
So many times I've started to go into panic and the thoughts of "now what am I going to do?" flood my mind. Well I'm discovering that the answer is so much more simple than I imagined: nothing. I'm finally starting to allow the anxious feelings to come and to let them pass. I won't say it's easy, but I'm becoming more accustom to it.
Good night to you too,
Jamie
Good to be back and see that you all are holding your own. You're right: it isn't such a bad path. It suppose we've learned that much of it is just the mindset. I can't pretend that it will be pleasant, but it doesn't have to be terrible either. My reactions are largely up to me. While I can't control a lot of things, I can choose whether to overreact or under-react. I will choose the latter.
So many times I've started to go into panic and the thoughts of "now what am I going to do?" flood my mind. Well I'm discovering that the answer is so much more simple than I imagined: nothing. I'm finally starting to allow the anxious feelings to come and to let them pass. I won't say it's easy, but I'm becoming more accustom to it.
Good night to you too,
Jamie
"Common things occur commonly. Uncommon things don't. Therefore, when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras." -- C.J. Peters
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manofmusic
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What a week ! First, I went to change the tower in the toilet tank and ended up with the all of the water in the toilet tank going through the bathroom floor and into the basement. (Not the bathroom I'm working on, the other one) so....2 bathrooms, no toilet. Off I go to Home Depot in the middle of a snow storm to get a toilet. It's all fixed now. Right after that, the hot water tank rusted out at the bottom and water went all over the basement floor AGAIN ! I'm sitting here waiting for them to show up with a new tank. I just rent the water tank so it's a free replacement. It doesn't make it any less of a pain in the you know where.
Panic levels were at an all time high this week. I'm calming down today. I'm making a point of listening to the relaxation tape and other stuff. I'm starting to feel better.
Searunner - we all know about facing fears. It does get easier the more it's done. What goes on in your mind in the garage at work that makes you turn around and go home ? Are they really strong panicky feelings ? I know that there were many times at work for me that it felt like I was about to lose it. That was one of those fears I had to overcome.
Jill - Keep on smilin' !
THH - That was a cool video ! LOL I watched it a few times !
Time for a tune. be right back.
Panic levels were at an all time high this week. I'm calming down today. I'm making a point of listening to the relaxation tape and other stuff. I'm starting to feel better.
Searunner - we all know about facing fears. It does get easier the more it's done. What goes on in your mind in the garage at work that makes you turn around and go home ? Are they really strong panicky feelings ? I know that there were many times at work for me that it felt like I was about to lose it. That was one of those fears I had to overcome.
Jill - Keep on smilin' !
THH - That was a cool video ! LOL I watched it a few times !
Time for a tune. be right back.
Man of music,
You did have a wild week! Glad you have your bathrooms working again. As the saying goes, when it rains it pours!
YEY you made it even though you were pushed very hard your taking care of your self by using your relax. tapes. I hate it when we get multiples coming at ya. Reminds me of a Geico commercial!
Life comes at ya fast!
My week was pretty good. I had some stress as we had this big storm come through. I don't like driving in white out crap so I did much of my shopping for a few days before. I felt panic as Christmas is coming and thinking of all the stuff to do yet. I got through it, the relaxation stuff really helps. Getting plenty of rest does too. All the mental stuff wears one out fast! LOL... Also writing down my worries does help me as well. When I read it at a later time, I think geez that was my "freak out".
Well in a couple more weeks it will be the New Year! 2011!
Searunner, I know about the flooding thoughts, "now what?" You got it, nothing! For me, I realize that I just blew something way out of proportion, and forgot all about how I am equipped to handle it. It does get easier at times and then it does get challenging.
Good job on keeping the train rolling!
I'm going to the music store, I too will be right back...
K.
Because its Christmas, how about a old SNL classic!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_-XZvPF1Ss
You did have a wild week! Glad you have your bathrooms working again.
As the saying goes, when it rains it pours! YEY you made it even though you were pushed very hard your taking care of your self by using your relax. tapes. I hate it when we get multiples coming at ya. Reminds me of a Geico commercial!
Life comes at ya fast!
My week was pretty good. I had some stress as we had this big storm come through. I don't like driving in white out crap so I did much of my shopping for a few days before. I felt panic as Christmas is coming and thinking of all the stuff to do yet. I got through it, the relaxation stuff really helps. Getting plenty of rest does too. All the mental stuff wears one out fast! LOL... Also writing down my worries does help me as well. When I read it at a later time, I think geez that was my "freak out".
Well in a couple more weeks it will be the New Year! 2011!
Searunner, I know about the flooding thoughts, "now what?" You got it, nothing! For me, I realize that I just blew something way out of proportion, and forgot all about how I am equipped to handle it. It does get easier at times and then it does get challenging.
Good job on keeping the train rolling!
I'm going to the music store, I too will be right back...
K.
Because its Christmas, how about a old SNL classic!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_-XZvPF1Ss
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manofmusic
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I hear you about driving in whiteout conditions.
I drive a quarter ton pickup truck. If there's nothing in the back of it, I slide all over the place.
Today's the day my brother comes over to work on the bathroom with me AND it's the day the new water heater comes in (there was a scheduling conflict yesterday - a couple of jobs took longer than they expected). For some reason, my anxiety is high today. I think that once the heater is in, I'll be ok. I'm remembering to just breathe. I got a really good sleep last night - 8 hours straight thru and no waking up in the middle of the night.
SNL !!!!!! WOO HOOOO I miss Gilda.
Here's an "oldie" Christmas one - for those of us that actually remember buying the 45 LOL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xG9QyKxYUxw
I drive a quarter ton pickup truck. If there's nothing in the back of it, I slide all over the place.
Today's the day my brother comes over to work on the bathroom with me AND it's the day the new water heater comes in (there was a scheduling conflict yesterday - a couple of jobs took longer than they expected). For some reason, my anxiety is high today. I think that once the heater is in, I'll be ok. I'm remembering to just breathe. I got a really good sleep last night - 8 hours straight thru and no waking up in the middle of the night.
SNL !!!!!! WOO HOOOO I miss Gilda.
Here's an "oldie" Christmas one - for those of us that actually remember buying the 45 LOL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xG9QyKxYUxw
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