One More Step

[jillzmind]

Hey gang just thought I'd pop in to say
"hello" and let you know that I have been doing pretty badly and regressed quite a bit. That alone got me really down but in searching my mind and soul thru this as to "why?" I am realizing that I am much more OCD than I wanted to admit. I am so much so that in the whole time I have been a member I refuse to look at the OCD thread fearing that I will like a sponge absorb even more crap that I don't want or need. But my thoughts are almost like a second strong repetative voice. Nlot always scary stuff but like a broken record strong and loud that make it Super Hard for me to concentrate on my relaxation. I need more help than I am getting from the site and the material so I am going to look around for a therapist who can help me with the OCD struggle. Anywhoo I am still fighting the good fight and reading things here and there that seem helpful but I don't post as much because I don't have too much to say that will benefit anyone. Keep on keeping on gang and I know that we can live better , richer lives. It's just not going to be handed to us on a silver platter. Honestly I don't know that I'd appreciate it if I was just handed "ease" and so on?? Anyway have an awesome week and keep looking up
Jill~

[SeaRunner]

Jill -

First, I've very sorry to hear about the trouble you're having. I truly feel your pain. Second, you have much more to say than you might think you do, so don't hold back if you feel up to posting on the site although don't feel obligated either. But I can honestly say that I've learned much from your posts and am thankful that you are with us.

This may be a blessing in disguise. Making these types of realizations is so important in our recoveries. It's so easy to get caught up chasing down a rabbit only to realize that we missed the wolf! Also, I think that there's great power in searching out multiple solutions. There is nothing that says you need to work solely with the StressCenter.com. I'm not saying you should stop working with the material or keep yourself from posting, but I fully believe we should look into anything that we think will help. In fact, I'm currently seeing two therapists: one for counseling and medication management and another for a treatment that I recently read about called neurotherapy, which is a form of biofeedback. On top of that, I've been putting a lot of effort into finding faith and spirituality.

Keep in touch and best of luck on your journey.

Jamie

[THH]

Hi everyone! Yey Searunner!
I'm glad your checking in from time to time. Thats nice. (esp. we have been posting on your thread!!!)
I'm glad your hanging in there and checking out different kinds of help too. I think its great your checking out faith & spirituality too. Its all such a personal journey. I can tell you I have been looking into that for the past year or better and I defiantly can say if you seek, you WILL find.
It has helped me let go of so many things.
I pray for peace for you and Jillz and the rest of us. We will find it!

Manomusic,
You do rock!!! Ahhh yes old rock and roll, who is copying who here? LOL.... We must have the same likes. At least we like the same music!
Thats is cool you have always lived in Canada. What is up north? Does it get colder the more North you go? I was in Canada years ago to the Niagara Falls. We always liked the Canadian side better! LOL... I liked going to the wax museums. LOL.... If you ever come to Cleveland go to the Rock in Roll hall of fame. It's pretty cool.

Okay...Maybe we all need to take a vacation....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v...hTO3WNNNBh8&index=30

Lets go!!!!

[manofmusic]

I like knowing that I'm not in this boat alone ! This may sound goofy, but I picture you guys cheering me on when I'm fighting thru an attack. I know that I've come along way in a few short years. I seem to get more attacks this tine of year and I think it has to do with the shorter days and not enough sunlight. 2 years ago I remember this time of year and I was at my worst for attacks. They seemed to hit one after another and they never seemed to stop. I would wake up in the middle of the night with attacks. I'm glad that I worked my way thru those. It wasn't easy, but nothing in life worth achieving ever is easy.

THH - My brother went to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. He keeps trying to talk me into going. The one place I still get panicky is at the border. That's not a good place to have a fit. LOL He bought a souvenier of the place. It's shaped like a pyramid. It looks really cool. When he went there, the top floor spotlighted Motown. He said that he couldn't take pictures there. It wasn't allowed (esp. on the top floor.) I'll make it there one day.

When I mean north, I mean the Territories. I have some family that live in the Yukon. It's very pricey to live there, but it's beautiful. Nice place if you like the outdoors.

Kokomo is nice too. LOL

Back in a bit.

[manofmusic]

This reminds me of home. Don't laugh...I love this song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2VYP0FCAUE

[THH]

Man O Music,
Teee heee....
If that makes you think of home, heres my silly one that I remember as a little one. (my granddad watched this show every Sunday night)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ol9_0schMHs

No you are not alone!!! It is nice to have people who have the same problems cheering you on. I think that is why I like this web site. And we are! I think its good to have those thoughts because if we were with each other that is what we would be doing. We would be that back round noise, saying relax, you know what this is.
Fall has in the past has been hard on me. Short days, so much dark dreary days. I am trying to plan better for them, and know how I react.
I'm glad you are doing better with them! I hate waking up in panic. Its been much better for me too. Very hard work!

Very cool on your brother going to Cleveland! Maybe one day you will go with him. I know you would like going to the r-N-r hall of fame. It would be your prize! LOL...
Oooohhhh it reminds me of a song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Ux3-a9RE1Q

I bet its beautiful up there. I'm going to check it out one day!
Nite.

[jillzmind]

Jamie

Thanks for the support and understanding. I really appreciate it. I did find those tips online for facing anxiety in the car and I look forward to trying them out. It's nice to know hubby is more commited to helping me too.I like the grounding tips you told me about as well. I am hopeful for us both that we will come out on the other side of this as we take
ONE MORE STEP

Jill~

[jillzmind]

THH
Thank you very much for the prayers. That means alot to me

J~

[manofmusic]

Mrs T Bones - Music can make you realize how small this world actually is.......no matter how good (or goofy) the song is ! LOL ....actually......don't tell anyone...but Snowbird is secretly one of my favourites. Just don't breathe a word.

Jill - You've been thru this before. You can overcome again ! For me, it comes in waves. This wave will wash right over you in no time.

THH - LOL !!!! My folks STILL watch reruns of Lawrence Welk ! LOL Wonerful wonerful....someone please turn off the bubble machine !!!!!! The show was like a horse tranquilizer ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ I think they watched it just so I'd be forced to go to bed.

I have album covers in picture frames hanging up all over the basement walls. Dr. Hook's one of them. It's one of those tunes that when it gets stuck in my head, I don't care because it's good.

My brother came over while I was at work (he took an early retirement). He finished all of the plumbing AND put in - and leveled - the tub ! I walked in the house and all I could smell was the glue that's used to put the drain pipes together. It was better than the magic markers of my youth ! LOL

Time to YouTube it.

[manofmusic]

This one played on the radio on my way home from work. She still looks and sounds really good today !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pg8UcsvdEHs