I am more recovered everyday. No matter how negative I feel or what symptoms come up, I am still ok. I accept the reality of each moment and do not fight it. I have goals and I achieve them. When I feel frustrated, I know it is a sign that I'm on the verge of making a breakthrough and taking a big leap on a goal
Tuesday;
Realization
I woke up this morning and had a realization. I would feel discouraged on a daily basis because I would expect to be recovered, expect to stop all negative thoguhts, expect myself to be able to calm myself down to the point where I had no anxiety and I would then realize I wasn't able to do that and that would lead to being discouraged. I would then worry that I'm not going to recover and that i'd stay like this forever. I figured out that this is not the most beneficial way to approach this. I was trying to accomplish my main goal of recovery everyday in that day. No wonder I was discouraged. So with this new information I decided the best way to go about my recovery is to just keep it in the back of my mind and make my goals about the day ahead of me.
My new goals are much simpler. My goals are to make efforts to use the skills I'm learning and instead of focusing on breaking a habit I will focus on making it a game and interupting a habit kind of like when a child interupts and adult that is talking to another adult and then the adult loses his/her train of thought. This is such a good idea that it'll become apart of next lessons's quote.
I also realized that whenever I felt discouraged over not doing the skills the "right" way, I would go more into doing those negative habits that keep me stuck in this condition. I would run to my computer or videogames, I would have the rushing thoughts and other obsessive thoughts more often and I would also avoid relaxation and getting to sleep when tired. That makes alot of sense because the more we beat ourselves up, the more we go into autopilot which means all habitual ways of living both negative and positive and we are less likely to do new things.
I am feeling more motivated everyday, I wake up excited and hopeful.
Relaxation
In the am;
Relaxation cd, Love guided meditation, Mind guided meditation, deep guided meditation;
Had some wandering thoguhts and thoughts of rushing but kept my focus. I am slightly getting better at visualization. The images are a little more clear and its a little more easier as I'm spending less time with the thought that I cannot visualize.
Negative thoughts
1)I can't visualize, this relaxation isn't going to work and I'm not going to recover.
->I can visualize and it may not be perfect or as great as I like but thats not my goal. My goal is to make effort which will then get me to where I want to be with my skill. Even without visualization the relaxation still works.
2)I need to rush, I don't have time to relax. If I don't get alot done then I'll feel guilty.
->There isn't anything I need to do but there are things that I'd like to do. Relaxation is one of those things because it makes me feel less stressed, more happy and I improve on my skills of visualization as well as calming myself when I get anxious/panicky. If I don't do anything then I just don't improve and thats fine, I have everyday to make progress.
3)I should be facing my anxiety, interupting the habit and doing things to change it
->I am already doing that and with some thoughts I just need to interupt them, it isn't always necessary to take action and with some habits it takes many tries to do that. Thats ok if I fall back, I will just get back on and try again.
Skills
I did the stop sign thing with the rushing and reminded myself that I enjoy taking the time to relax. I closed my eyes and listened to one of the guided meditations and forgot about rushing altogether.
Mike
The Challenge...Lesson 4
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THH -
In all honesty, yes it would be beneficial for me to get my license even if I never practice engineering again, which is the current plan. I think it's just too overwhelming for me to deal with right now. My focus really has to be on just getting my life back to a more normal state, especially being able to get to work on a normal schedule and increasing my weekly billable hours.
This is something I can postpone. Yes, it will probably mean I'll have to study harder in the future since the longer I go, the more I forget (the test covers many areas that I haven't even looked at since I graduated college over ten years ago). But I can relearn it and I can attend a refresher course. So I just I'll just take it off my should list and place it in the archives until I'm ready to deal with it.
Jamie
In all honesty, yes it would be beneficial for me to get my license even if I never practice engineering again, which is the current plan. I think it's just too overwhelming for me to deal with right now. My focus really has to be on just getting my life back to a more normal state, especially being able to get to work on a normal schedule and increasing my weekly billable hours.
This is something I can postpone. Yes, it will probably mean I'll have to study harder in the future since the longer I go, the more I forget (the test covers many areas that I haven't even looked at since I graduated college over ten years ago). But I can relearn it and I can attend a refresher course. So I just I'll just take it off my should list and place it in the archives until I'm ready to deal with it.
Jamie
"Common things occur commonly. Uncommon things don't. Therefore, when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras." -- C.J. Peters
I am going to recover. I am going to set reasonable expectations and goals for myself and not base my self worth on whether I meet them. I am human and imperfect; I am allowed to make mistakes, which are nothing more than learning opportunities
Now that I've come most of the way out of my depression, I run back into the waiting arms of Mr. Anxiety. I can always count on him to be waiting there for me...NOT!
It's been a tough couple of days but I'm getting through them. I'm definitely getting frustrated but I keep reminding myself that I've been through all this before, I've experienced all these emotions before, and I always make it through. More importantly, I always come out stronger in the end. This is not my destination, it is only a stop along the way. I will recover.
I finally got out running again Monday night. I've been focusing on cycling lately and haven't ran in three or four weeks. I was surprised that I had no trouble running my typical three-mile route (that's 5k for you, Mike, LOL) without getting tired since I hadn't done it in a while. My right ankle was a bit sore but that's just because I haven't been running and didn't give myself enough time to stretch beforehand. It feels fine tonight.
I also took my bicycle out tonight. With sunset coming so much earlier, I had to borrow my partner's bike light. It was a bit weird to be out on the trail in the dark, but it was still good to get out. I was feeling some anxiety but I'm sure it was just because things were different. I didn't like not being able to see exactly where I was. I'll have to get used to it because I plan on continuing to cycle through the winter as the weather allows. Fortunately our winters are relatively mild here in Seattle although we do drop below freezing now and then and ice does not mix well with cycling.
I did make it into the office for a short time this evening. I didn't do any work; I was just trying to get there. It was really unexpected given all the anxiety I've been having and how stressed I was earlier in the day. It's very frustrating to me how unpredictable this condition is. This is one more expectation that I need to work on. Life is unpredictable. As much as I would like to know exactly how things are going to turn out, or at least have a hunch as to how I'm going to feel, I have to accept that it doesn't work that way. I suppose it's one more reason to keep trying: I never know when I'm going to have a surprise success or even a huge breakthrough.
Jamie
Now that I've come most of the way out of my depression, I run back into the waiting arms of Mr. Anxiety. I can always count on him to be waiting there for me...NOT!
It's been a tough couple of days but I'm getting through them. I'm definitely getting frustrated but I keep reminding myself that I've been through all this before, I've experienced all these emotions before, and I always make it through. More importantly, I always come out stronger in the end. This is not my destination, it is only a stop along the way. I will recover.
I finally got out running again Monday night. I've been focusing on cycling lately and haven't ran in three or four weeks. I was surprised that I had no trouble running my typical three-mile route (that's 5k for you, Mike, LOL) without getting tired since I hadn't done it in a while. My right ankle was a bit sore but that's just because I haven't been running and didn't give myself enough time to stretch beforehand. It feels fine tonight.
I also took my bicycle out tonight. With sunset coming so much earlier, I had to borrow my partner's bike light. It was a bit weird to be out on the trail in the dark, but it was still good to get out. I was feeling some anxiety but I'm sure it was just because things were different. I didn't like not being able to see exactly where I was. I'll have to get used to it because I plan on continuing to cycle through the winter as the weather allows. Fortunately our winters are relatively mild here in Seattle although we do drop below freezing now and then and ice does not mix well with cycling.
I did make it into the office for a short time this evening. I didn't do any work; I was just trying to get there. It was really unexpected given all the anxiety I've been having and how stressed I was earlier in the day. It's very frustrating to me how unpredictable this condition is. This is one more expectation that I need to work on. Life is unpredictable. As much as I would like to know exactly how things are going to turn out, or at least have a hunch as to how I'm going to feel, I have to accept that it doesn't work that way. I suppose it's one more reason to keep trying: I never know when I'm going to have a surprise success or even a huge breakthrough.
Jamie
"Common things occur commonly. Uncommon things don't. Therefore, when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras." -- C.J. Peters
WoW I can get on today. I was wondering if I had problems with my computer or just the site. Guess alls well.
I have been doing okay these last past days. I have had a burst of business issues pushed at me. I reconize when its too much. It can be unrealistic expectations that they have on me, And no is a complete sentance. I offer when we can make a appt. but it is unrealistic to rearrange my intire week to just make them happy.( When do I call for a appt. and get to pick my day and time?) I have been tested the last few days. The first 2 were real hard for me but it did get easier as I had to decline over and again.( Different people different problems) For me, I worry about the days when business might be slow, and over work when the business is busy. I have come to feel that we will be ok with steady business, and will live with slow as well. Over working is not good either. You have money, but what value is it when you do not have your health! Big lesson for me.
So I'm doing better standing my ground. Making snappier decisions and most of the time getting more than I expected results. Its hard to write about these things as our business is so specific most people would not understand. I'm working on again staying in the moment, not worry about what winter will be like, or when business slacks off. Have a work load that is reasonable and enjoy some free time when you get it.
Mike,
Your realization is great. I too had done the same thing.
When you thought you would nerver get over this, this is where to put the stop sign. I will get over this.
You sound very good and positive! It seams like you are feeling stronger, more sure of yourself! GOOD!
SeaRunner,
I think you have made a wise decision to wait and it seams like you can pick that up at a later time, and cross that off the should list. Good decision!
So good you reconize that we all share some hard days and that don't mean they are going to be everyday! We can't control the uuniverse, and we are equiped with new skills to help us deal with these harder days. That don't mean we like everything that happens to us, but we know when to let go and when to be kind to our selves. GOOD JOB!!!
I have been doing okay these last past days. I have had a burst of business issues pushed at me. I reconize when its too much. It can be unrealistic expectations that they have on me, And no is a complete sentance. I offer when we can make a appt. but it is unrealistic to rearrange my intire week to just make them happy.( When do I call for a appt. and get to pick my day and time?) I have been tested the last few days. The first 2 were real hard for me but it did get easier as I had to decline over and again.( Different people different problems) For me, I worry about the days when business might be slow, and over work when the business is busy. I have come to feel that we will be ok with steady business, and will live with slow as well. Over working is not good either. You have money, but what value is it when you do not have your health! Big lesson for me.
So I'm doing better standing my ground. Making snappier decisions and most of the time getting more than I expected results. Its hard to write about these things as our business is so specific most people would not understand. I'm working on again staying in the moment, not worry about what winter will be like, or when business slacks off. Have a work load that is reasonable and enjoy some free time when you get it.
Mike,
Your realization is great. I too had done the same thing.
I would feel discouraged on a daily basis because I would expect to be recovered, expect to stop all negative thoguhts, expect myself to be able to calm myself down to the point where I had no anxiety and I would then realize I wasn't able to do that and that would lead to being discouraged. I would then worry that I'm not going to recover and that i'd stay like this forever.
When you thought you would nerver get over this, this is where to put the stop sign. I will get over this.
EXCELLENT!So with this new information I decided the best way to go about my recovery is to just keep it in the back of my mind and make my goals about the day ahead of me.
You sound very good and positive! It seams like you are feeling stronger, more sure of yourself! GOOD!
SeaRunner,
I think you have made a wise decision to wait and it seams like you can pick that up at a later time, and cross that off the should list. Good decision!
So good you reconize that we all share some hard days and that don't mean they are going to be everyday! We can't control the uuniverse, and we are equiped with new skills to help us deal with these harder days. That don't mean we like everything that happens to us, but we know when to let go and when to be kind to our selves. GOOD JOB!!!
I am more recovered everyday. No matter how negative I feel or what symptoms come up, I am still ok. I accept the reality of each moment and do not fight it. I have goals and I achieve them. When I feel frustrated, I know it is a sign that I'm on the verge of making a breakthrough and taking a big leap on a goal.
OK, it has been a while, I miss you all, it is amazing how much a couple days can feel like. Monday I was a busy bee, cleaning the house because my friends were coming. We had a nice time, I was a little anxious at the begining, but it went away an I was able to enjoy the time.
Tuesday was a lazy day, after all the work on Monday I needed a day off...LOL... so I enjoyed doing nothing, well nothing is always relative, because I went outside to burn some old wood and I made dinner, I also started a baby blanket for another friend that is having a baby. So I have 2 baby blankets in the making.
Yesterday I couldn't get on the site, first I thought that the internet at home was not working, however I was able to go to other websites. Then I realized that all the posts were from 9-27, so I imagine that there was a problem with the website... But of course I started thinking that I had been blocked, or that someone complained about me and my account had been closed... yes, I kept telling myself that all those were not true and that the website was not working... however I realized that those ideas were in the back of my mind, you know, feeling guilty for nothing. I tend to do that a lot. I remember a long time ago, a dog bite my leg, I went home thinking that I should have done something wrong, otherwise the dog wouldn't have attacked me. Of course later on I had to go and look for the dog's owner to check if the dog had been vaccinated.... I know how silly this sounds, I have worked hard to analize the situations and not blame myself for things I haven't done, however I realize that the idea is in the back of my mind.
As Mike said... this is a process... we have to keep working on it, and little by little, changes come, improvements are made.
OK, it has been a while, I miss you all, it is amazing how much a couple days can feel like. Monday I was a busy bee, cleaning the house because my friends were coming. We had a nice time, I was a little anxious at the begining, but it went away an I was able to enjoy the time.
Tuesday was a lazy day, after all the work on Monday I needed a day off...LOL... so I enjoyed doing nothing, well nothing is always relative, because I went outside to burn some old wood and I made dinner, I also started a baby blanket for another friend that is having a baby. So I have 2 baby blankets in the making.
Yesterday I couldn't get on the site, first I thought that the internet at home was not working, however I was able to go to other websites. Then I realized that all the posts were from 9-27, so I imagine that there was a problem with the website... But of course I started thinking that I had been blocked, or that someone complained about me and my account had been closed... yes, I kept telling myself that all those were not true and that the website was not working... however I realized that those ideas were in the back of my mind, you know, feeling guilty for nothing. I tend to do that a lot. I remember a long time ago, a dog bite my leg, I went home thinking that I should have done something wrong, otherwise the dog wouldn't have attacked me. Of course later on I had to go and look for the dog's owner to check if the dog had been vaccinated.... I know how silly this sounds, I have worked hard to analize the situations and not blame myself for things I haven't done, however I realize that the idea is in the back of my mind.
As Mike said... this is a process... we have to keep working on it, and little by little, changes come, improvements are made.
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its trouble, it empties today of its strength." – Unknown
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I am more recovered everyday. No matter how negative I feel or what symptoms come up, I am still ok. I accept the reality of each moment and do not fight it. I have goals and I achieve them. When I feel frustrated, I know it is a sign that I'm on the verge of making a breakthrough and taking a big leap on a goal
In response to Searunner;
Its great that you're coming out of that depressed episode and now you're back to deal with the anxiety again. It is very frustrating and I'm wondering if you are doing what I've been doing with it. I just recently realized that everyday my focus was on recovering (if you hadn't already check out my tuesday post). I'd focus and focus on it and I would notice that the efforts for that day did not in fact make me over the condition. I kept saying...oh I still have it, oh its still there. I'm not trying hard enough, I'm not doing it right. I was expecting myself to be recovered everyday and didn't even realize that I was doing that to myself. The overall goal is to recover but I can't deal with the overall goal. So I tried to look at it more realistically and focused on my daily goals. My goals are to use my skills and interupt bad habits as opposed to break them completely. I hope this information can be as useful to you as it has to me because you deserve to recover and have a great life.
Sorry I am not good at picturing what a mile or kilometre looks like so i'm not sure how long that is. Its really awesome that you are able to be active because I know how challenging it can be with the exhaustion. When you run do you run full speed for that whole time or more of a slower pace? I think I can run for 5 minutes and then I have to stop. I usually just walk and I walk for 2-3hours a day when i'm not sick.
Uncertainty can be very frustrating. I hope you aren't pushing yourself too hard like I was.
By the way how are you doing with the relaxation? I had thought of something recently as a suggestion to help you with it. You are afraid of falling asleep when you relax no? Well you could simply just set an alarm to go off at the end of the 15 minutes and just accept that you might fall asleep. Make your goal not to follow through with listening and doing everything it asks of you but to simply have it playing. Anyways just a suggestion.
In response to THH;
It was definately with the site as the last post was on the 27th sometime in the morning and then no posts until later in the evening on the 28th.
What kind of unrealistic expectations do they have of you? What do you mean about no is a complete sentence?
I'm assuming you got to use your assertiveness skills and it sounds like you did the broken record technique where you just repeat how you feel and your side of the story until they back down.
You are definately growing well with the acceptance. There is no point to working yourself sick, there really isn't. Its like with business men who work for like 12-16 hours a day. What is the point to having all that money if its going to lead to an early grave?
Nicely said, I'm still working on a reasonable workload (when it comes to self-help) and enjoying free time. I may not be employed but I am working so very hard.
You did that too? When did you realize that you were doing this with the expectations of recovery? I have put up the stop sign with that many times but would just get bombared with other negative thoughts and still have the symptoms and it would win. I think now I can do it better. Recovery is inevitable as long as I keep trying. I don't need to focus on where i'm not at but focus on my goals of the day and imagine who I want to be.
Yes I am alot more positive. I feel much more motivated, encouraged, hopeful and excited! My goal is to just use my skills and interupt patterns. It doesn't even matter if I do it "right" or "wrong" as every attempt makes them stronger.
In response to mcshope;
Great you faced your anxiety that you got when you had friends coming over and it went away! Thats awesome!
I think Lucinda refers to that as magical thinking! I did that as well where I would think if something bad happened to me that it was because I responded in the wrong way or did something bad and it was punishment. I also hadn't thought about it but the way you responded about the website in being afraid that you were blocked or your account had been closed was something I would have thought in the past. That wasn't even a thought for me. I know even recently I thought that because I have made so many wonderful changes and lots of progress with my skills and that I was becoming a very caring and positive person, i deserved to win the lottery! I can laugh at this now, its actually really funny if you think about it! Its really great that you realized how they weren't realistic and I still want to think in a semi-magic thinking way. I think life sent it as a learning opportunity just because the timing was just amazing! What are the chances of this happening while we are in the lesson about expectations eh?
This definately is a process where things change little by little. I've only figured this out in the last couple of days myself and it is so much less stressful, less pressured and less anxiety producing when we can really accept that!
Mike
In response to Searunner;
Its great that you're coming out of that depressed episode and now you're back to deal with the anxiety again. It is very frustrating and I'm wondering if you are doing what I've been doing with it. I just recently realized that everyday my focus was on recovering (if you hadn't already check out my tuesday post). I'd focus and focus on it and I would notice that the efforts for that day did not in fact make me over the condition. I kept saying...oh I still have it, oh its still there. I'm not trying hard enough, I'm not doing it right. I was expecting myself to be recovered everyday and didn't even realize that I was doing that to myself. The overall goal is to recover but I can't deal with the overall goal. So I tried to look at it more realistically and focused on my daily goals. My goals are to use my skills and interupt bad habits as opposed to break them completely. I hope this information can be as useful to you as it has to me because you deserve to recover and have a great life.
Sorry I am not good at picturing what a mile or kilometre looks like so i'm not sure how long that is. Its really awesome that you are able to be active because I know how challenging it can be with the exhaustion. When you run do you run full speed for that whole time or more of a slower pace? I think I can run for 5 minutes and then I have to stop. I usually just walk and I walk for 2-3hours a day when i'm not sick.
Uncertainty can be very frustrating. I hope you aren't pushing yourself too hard like I was.
By the way how are you doing with the relaxation? I had thought of something recently as a suggestion to help you with it. You are afraid of falling asleep when you relax no? Well you could simply just set an alarm to go off at the end of the 15 minutes and just accept that you might fall asleep. Make your goal not to follow through with listening and doing everything it asks of you but to simply have it playing. Anyways just a suggestion.
In response to THH;
It was definately with the site as the last post was on the 27th sometime in the morning and then no posts until later in the evening on the 28th.
What kind of unrealistic expectations do they have of you? What do you mean about no is a complete sentence?
I'm assuming you got to use your assertiveness skills and it sounds like you did the broken record technique where you just repeat how you feel and your side of the story until they back down.
You are definately growing well with the acceptance. There is no point to working yourself sick, there really isn't. Its like with business men who work for like 12-16 hours a day. What is the point to having all that money if its going to lead to an early grave?
Nicely said, I'm still working on a reasonable workload (when it comes to self-help) and enjoying free time. I may not be employed but I am working so very hard.
You did that too? When did you realize that you were doing this with the expectations of recovery? I have put up the stop sign with that many times but would just get bombared with other negative thoughts and still have the symptoms and it would win. I think now I can do it better. Recovery is inevitable as long as I keep trying. I don't need to focus on where i'm not at but focus on my goals of the day and imagine who I want to be.
Yes I am alot more positive. I feel much more motivated, encouraged, hopeful and excited! My goal is to just use my skills and interupt patterns. It doesn't even matter if I do it "right" or "wrong" as every attempt makes them stronger.
In response to mcshope;
Great you faced your anxiety that you got when you had friends coming over and it went away! Thats awesome!
I think Lucinda refers to that as magical thinking! I did that as well where I would think if something bad happened to me that it was because I responded in the wrong way or did something bad and it was punishment. I also hadn't thought about it but the way you responded about the website in being afraid that you were blocked or your account had been closed was something I would have thought in the past. That wasn't even a thought for me. I know even recently I thought that because I have made so many wonderful changes and lots of progress with my skills and that I was becoming a very caring and positive person, i deserved to win the lottery! I can laugh at this now, its actually really funny if you think about it! Its really great that you realized how they weren't realistic and I still want to think in a semi-magic thinking way. I think life sent it as a learning opportunity just because the timing was just amazing! What are the chances of this happening while we are in the lesson about expectations eh?
This definately is a process where things change little by little. I've only figured this out in the last couple of days myself and it is so much less stressful, less pressured and less anxiety producing when we can really accept that!
Mike
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I am more recovered everyday. No matter how negative I feel or what symptoms come up, I am still ok. I accept the reality of each moment and do not fight it. I have goals and I achieve them. When I feel frustrated, I know it is a sign that I'm on the verge of making a breakthrough and taking a big leap on a goal
I found another video that I think we can all relate to. I bet we have all felt the pressure of a parent expecting us to grow up a certain way or be perfect. Maybe not even a parent maybe some other person in our life or even ourselves!
Perfect
Mike
I found another video that I think we can all relate to. I bet we have all felt the pressure of a parent expecting us to grow up a certain way or be perfect. Maybe not even a parent maybe some other person in our life or even ourselves!
Perfect
Mike
Here is the link to the Letting Go thread which is designated for venting
http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
You can follow me on Twitter, same username or check out my blog
http://ninjafrodo.blogspot.com/
http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
You can follow me on Twitter, same username or check out my blog
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Mike,
When I read your posts about spending the day with your friend and helping with the cleaning, I got the feeling that you were feeling pretty good, no anxiety. Was that how you felt?...
I usually get more anxious when I am by myself, when I am with other people and I am involved in some conversation or activity my anxiety goes away. Maybe because by myself I have only myself to talk and the ideas keep racing in my head.
Thank you for the support about the job. I am sure I can do the job, that is not a problem, the problem is getting to work, and staying there the whole day. My anxiety usually hits when I am getting ready to go someplace. Sometimes I can be ok all morning, but as soon as I start getting ready to leave the house, the anxiety kicks in. Sometimes it affects my stomach, like IBS.
I love dreams, to me they hold information about things we are dealing with. However since I started doing Transcendental Meditation, I don’t try to analyze my dreams. During the TM your mind is not blank; you let your thoughts flow. It is believed that the thoughts are part of the healing process, but you do not analyze them or dwell about them, you just let them flow while repeating your mantra. It is also believed that dreams are part of the brain’s healing process, and you should let the dreams flow, without analyzing.
It was great the way you reacted or not reacted at McDonalds.
I agree with you about your goals, they have to be something attainable. Sometimes it is like dividing a goal in small steps. I also tend to push myself and expect huge changes. The reality is that I did not become this anxious overnight and I am not going to recover overnight. It is necessary to take it with baby steps.
I liked your idea of the game about the negative thoughts; however the shooting is not my cup of tea. Maybe you can use a magic wand and make them disappear. Or put them in a basket with a balloon and watch them fly away.
I really liked your affirmations, actually I am going to copy and print them and place them around the house. I hope you don’t mind.
You are doing great… better and better each day… Congratulations
Hope
When I read your posts about spending the day with your friend and helping with the cleaning, I got the feeling that you were feeling pretty good, no anxiety. Was that how you felt?...
I usually get more anxious when I am by myself, when I am with other people and I am involved in some conversation or activity my anxiety goes away. Maybe because by myself I have only myself to talk and the ideas keep racing in my head.
Thank you for the support about the job. I am sure I can do the job, that is not a problem, the problem is getting to work, and staying there the whole day. My anxiety usually hits when I am getting ready to go someplace. Sometimes I can be ok all morning, but as soon as I start getting ready to leave the house, the anxiety kicks in. Sometimes it affects my stomach, like IBS.
I love dreams, to me they hold information about things we are dealing with. However since I started doing Transcendental Meditation, I don’t try to analyze my dreams. During the TM your mind is not blank; you let your thoughts flow. It is believed that the thoughts are part of the healing process, but you do not analyze them or dwell about them, you just let them flow while repeating your mantra. It is also believed that dreams are part of the brain’s healing process, and you should let the dreams flow, without analyzing.
It was great the way you reacted or not reacted at McDonalds.
I agree with you about your goals, they have to be something attainable. Sometimes it is like dividing a goal in small steps. I also tend to push myself and expect huge changes. The reality is that I did not become this anxious overnight and I am not going to recover overnight. It is necessary to take it with baby steps.
I liked your idea of the game about the negative thoughts; however the shooting is not my cup of tea. Maybe you can use a magic wand and make them disappear. Or put them in a basket with a balloon and watch them fly away.
I really liked your affirmations, actually I am going to copy and print them and place them around the house. I hope you don’t mind.
You are doing great… better and better each day… Congratulations
Hope
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its trouble, it empties today of its strength." – Unknown
Jamie,
Thank you for your support about the job. They haven’t called, so I will take it one day at a time. There is a part of me that wants to go back to work, however there is another that doesn’t want to. Is not because of the anxiety, I just think I have so many things that I want to get accomplished here at home. So I am leaving it in God’s hands, if it is a good thing it will happen, if not, well so be it.
I know how you feel when you say “It is so nice that we all care for each other so much and yet none of us has ever met”. That makes me happy.
You have been doing great with going to the office, running and using your bike.
The anxiety is just a bump in the road, maybe to keep us in reality, maybe to remind us that we have to keep working on getting better. Anxiety is part of life, we have to learn to deal with it. The good thing is that you seem to be dealing with it, and you keep moving forward. … GOOD FOR YOU !!!
Hope
Thank you for your support about the job. They haven’t called, so I will take it one day at a time. There is a part of me that wants to go back to work, however there is another that doesn’t want to. Is not because of the anxiety, I just think I have so many things that I want to get accomplished here at home. So I am leaving it in God’s hands, if it is a good thing it will happen, if not, well so be it.
I know how you feel when you say “It is so nice that we all care for each other so much and yet none of us has ever met”. That makes me happy.
You have been doing great with going to the office, running and using your bike.
The anxiety is just a bump in the road, maybe to keep us in reality, maybe to remind us that we have to keep working on getting better. Anxiety is part of life, we have to learn to deal with it. The good thing is that you seem to be dealing with it, and you keep moving forward. … GOOD FOR YOU !!!
Hope
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its trouble, it empties today of its strength." – Unknown