Support circle for depression

uluvnic · Post by **uluvnic** » Thu Jul 08, 2010 4:40 pm

Hey everyone. I wanted to check in. I didn't have internet access over the holiday. I slipped up a little and smoked with a guy who I had previously slept with but I didn't sleep with him. I was testing him...and I'm so glad I did because he didn't call me after that. He only wanted one thing. I'm not proud of the fact that I smoked and I don't plan on doing it again for a long time. I want to say I'll never do it again, but that's not realistic. I just don't want to be dependent on it and not be able to deal with my problems in a healthy way. I want to lean on God.

I actually have the energy to do healthy things for myself now. I'm babbling.

Anyway, I hope everyone had a great fourth of July! Have a great weekend.

SandyMcP · Post by **SandyMcP** » Sat Jul 10, 2010 6:28 am

ulunvic-- I've given up drinking, pot, casual sex (over 2 yrs), caffeine, am going to church and prayed and cryed alot. I'm working on thinking pos. but it doesn't seem to be working. Help!

creamcheesepuff · Post by **creamcheesepuff** » Sat Jul 10, 2010 3:39 pm

I have found that trying to work on one thing at a time is most beneficial. Its great you gave up all that, you should be very proud of yourself to know that YOU DID DO IT....and dont give up on yourself....its tough man, its a struggle every single day. If you feel like you are going to cave, just say to yourself, STOP (get the Big RED STOPSIGN up) in front of your face and release it. You are stronger than that. succumbing will enhance the weaker side of you. Keep it up....keep listening to those tapes and asking for help from all on this site. creamcheesepuff

noname_2520 · Post by **noname_2520** » Sun Jul 11, 2010 5:27 am

SandyMcP: It's working-It just takes time because you have been praying and i believe God hears for it says so in the bible. Again, it just takes time. We all want quick results. Evem Lucinda says to be patient for it takes time. It takes time to heal and crying alot is healing and getting all the junk (negatives) out and when your praying your getting the (positves) in. Keep reading the bible for I found out it straightens-cleans up my mind and when that happens your behavior,your attitude and your actions and healing takes place. gives you a change of heart. Keep on-take heart! Give Him thanks for everything: the grass, the air, your family,etc His salvation and doing this get your mind of you and onto Him where our mind should be on which =positive and where joy and peace are. Jupiter7

Resourceman · Post by **Resourceman** » Sun Jul 11, 2010 8:19 pm

help, im new and want to join this depression group. i seem to hv lots of other sysmptons but it is depression that is ruining my life. i hope this is the right place but if not please direct me as i am very interested an need others for support right now. in the last year i hv experianced more loss than i could have imagined aND here i am asking for help from those i dont even know. thank you in advance for being there for me and i will return the favor any way i can....

uluvnic · Post by **uluvnic** » Mon Jul 12, 2010 1:28 pm

Resourceman - When I feel completely depressed and I get on here, even if I don't find something "helpful," I always feel at least a tad better by the time I get off. I would take it one step at a time and just commit to getting on and reading a few posts most days of the week, if not all. I don't know why exactly that makes me feel better. Maybe it's because I REALLY know how these people are feeling or it makes me feel not as alone or it takes my mind off my own problems. Whatever the reason, I really think just getting on here every day helps tremendously.

Just keep getting on and post how you feel or just read others' posts.

You're in my prayers!

uluvnic · Post by **uluvnic** » Mon Jul 12, 2010 1:42 pm

SandyMcP - I know how you feel. I didn't start to feel better until after I read some posts on here from Jupiter. They just kind of reminded me that my life may actually have a purpose and that even though I don't necessarily care what happens in my life, but God does. I just kind of took the focus off myself and completely surrendered to Him. I'm still messing up with the whole smoking and sugar thing (which almost makes me wonder if I have a problem with them or just no willpower when they're around) but like someone else mentioned, I am proud of what I HAVE been able to withstand from. Thank God for this program and this support group! Because it reminds me to get a grip on reality and the fact that I'm human and things aren't going to improve at lightening speed.

One of the things that helped me get out of months of depression was changing my medicine. I was on Zoloft and now I'm on Effexor. I noticed a difference after a week. Then I started feeling down again and got on here. It reminded me that medicine can't do the work for me. I have to do the work. You are doing the work so I would give yourself some permission to feel depressed and remind yourself that it won't last forever. God won't let it last forever. Eventually your mind WILL retrain itself. I need to keep a notebook with me again because it's SO easy to get right back into negative thinking again.

I've been out of the program for a few months and I still need to continue my "homework." But getting on here helps me so much. continue to get on here.

You're in my prayers!

cream cheese · Post by **cream cheese** » Tue Jul 13, 2010 6:45 am

this is the second time I have been on the centers site in 4 years...I would like to think I am getting stronger. I know I am in certain areas but sometimes I feel like useless, uncertain, hopeless and in such despair that I have to resort to just saying one simple thing to myself.....I have God with me at all times, I am not alone, I feel Him uplifting me in subtle ways when I feel defeated yet I continue to forge on and the confidence slowly builds.
Dont give up......the human spirit is much to strong underneath all the clatter to just let depression overwhelm you. We are much stronger than that.

doriwaters · Post by **doriwaters** » Sun Jul 25, 2010 1:40 pm

I would love to participate in a support group. I just started the program this week. It's my last hope. I have been on many different antidepressants and have seen several Psychiatrists and Psychologists. I am worse than ever. I am just avoiding life right now. I stay in my house unless I have an appointment I have to go to. I feel a little better after week one, but have a long way to go. Can anyone relate?

uluvnic · Post by **uluvnic** » Mon Jul 26, 2010 5:48 pm

I'm having a down time again where I see little purpose in life. Does anyone else feel that way? I'm trying to be excited about things but I'm just not. I think my depression has lifted while I'm in school because school is distracting me from it. Will someone pray that I love myself the way God designed us to? How can I love my neighbor when I barely love myself. I don't want to live a long life...and I feel like taking care of myself now is only to have a long life, but I don't see the point in living for a long time when I don't want children and don't even have a boyfriend, much less a husband. And then I think to myself, but I shouldn't take care of myself for others, I should take care of myself for me. But I don't really care about me. Sometimes all the positive talk in the world can't make me feel hopeful or excited. I hope this is a mood and it passes. Maybe I'm bipolar. At least if I was bipolar I'd be able to take meds to be ok. I wish someone had told me when I was younger that being happy is hard work.