life is good - and it's a long post!

forever young 06 · Post by **forever young 06** » Sun Jul 25, 2010 7:57 am

karma,
you are so cool, so proud of you I am glad to see you have over come anxiety and panic I am reliving the tapes in my head I guess I need to get them back out and go over them again.I got on the interstate with my hubby I can't do this alone hot rod wish I could I am having a time going with someone.we went 16.8 miles wohoo but had some trouble I don't like the isolation I like seeing house as I think oh I could stop there if I needed to or just know someone lived close by but I said to myself they wouldn't be at home LOL I'll break in help I need help it feels so silly it is only anxiety why can't we get that thru our head. wow you still had a panic attack on the way to work but you didn't add second fear right, that is part of the key letting it come and not listening well have fun good to hear from you

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Sun Jul 25, 2010 8:06 am

Forever Young ! - hotrod was just making a funny. I'm all man !

Karma ! - Catch some rays for me !
Sometimes it's best to turn the car around and do what needs to be done. Congratulations ! I think that one day I will have the courage to do that. Are you on vacation this week ?

My vacation ends today. It was a very relaxing week, but as usual, on the last day of vacation, the knots build up again. I allow my mind to go places that it shouldn't. I keep thinking that stuff went wrong while I was gone and I'm going to get told off when I get in on Monday. I HATE that feeling. 99.99999% of the time nothing happens, but that doesn't seem to matter. On a positive note.....20 more weekdays until my next vacation !!!!!!!!! (I don't count weekends because that's MY time LOL)

Karma - I hope this weekend and next week is nothing but relaxing and unwinding !

I hope everyone is enjoying the weekend !

forever young 06 · Post by **forever young 06** » Sun Jul 25, 2010 8:19 am

manomusic,
you stop your negative thinking everything will be okay what isn't you can work thru it its our all or nothing thinking.

I am having more anxiety my self usually it will pass but I have heard some bad news about a cousin with cancer its bad too and I have started a roll of negative thoughts and got on the intestate and went pretty far but got pretty anxious didn't think I did very good boy the days past fast and then a person dreads going back to work sometimes I think about not taking one but that would be silly

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Mon Jul 26, 2010 3:30 pm

mano - i'm soaking up the sun - just for you LOLOL the weather is hot hot hot. doesn't matter - we're at THE beach where the wind blows most of the time. i promised myself after such a long cold winter i'd not fuss about being hot. i've been pretty good about it too! LOL

i think going back to work anxiety is - wait for it - ready? - NORMAL!!!!!!!! ask around and you'll find non-anxiety people have it too.
so how did your day go? i'm hoping it went really well.

i played in the ocean with the girls today and walked with my sister on the beach. i'm writing and writing to the nth degree and then some. i'm having such a good time! oh to be wealthy enough to live at the beach and hear the ocean and smell the salt in the air! at the same time, i miss my home and the boys. it would be so lovely to be able to move everything here - house AND the boys LOL

hope everyone is doing great. i'm partying like a rock star!!! LOLOL signed, party central brittney

forever young 06 · Post by **forever young 06** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 12:45 am

karmaberry,
I love reading your post they are so positive and uplifting. I am so proud of you glad you are enjoying your vacation I am trying to imagine what it would be like at the beach as you see I have never been smell the salt water smell wow and walk on the beach I have just accepted to much in my life and when you say this is the way it is always gonna be guess what it is I need to change my way of thinking and talking and maybe I can change my life just wanted to say glad you are having a good time

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 2:27 pm

Sounds like you're having enough of a good time for all of us ! LOL Enjoy Enjoy Enjoy !

As normal as it is to feel anxious the day back after a vacation, I still don't like it !LOL Monday and today went exceptionally well actually. Nothing bad to write about (except that one of the bosses - the same one I wrote about last time - has a bee up his *** again). He was on a yelling kick today. I chose to ignore him and I walked out of the room. I truly think he's a sociopath. I think he gets a kick out of ticking people off. I think it brings a smile to his face. I'm so grateful that he's on vacation starting Thursday !!!!!!

I can't wait !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone is having as good a day as Karma is ! Party on, rockstar !

By the way, I forgot to mention that I went to see Ringo Starr and the All-Starr Band ! AMAZING ! It was Edgar Winter, Rick Derringer, Gary Wright, Richard Page (Mr. Mister) and Wally Palmer (The Romantics) and of course Ringo. The show was over 2 hours long ! One of the best concerts I've ever been to.

I'm done bragging now ! LOL

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 4:38 pm

wow - that was some concert!!!!!! jealous here LOL

the only countering i can do is that me and the boys - aged 17 - sang along with queen to bohemian rhapsody today - acted it out and all - and we are THAT good LOLOL we were strutting like freddy mercury and playing the air guitar like nobody's business. collecitvely we have NO pride - yay for us !!!!!!

i was tired today - didn't hit the beach or write. just hung out on the balcony and played with the kids as they wandered in and out. it was a good day!

my sister and i took a super long walk after 7:00 far far down the beach. the breeze was strong and the waves - i love the waves.

tomorrow i will soak up sun sun sun! this rock star is headed for bed. party central is shutting down for a few hours LOL

karma

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Sat Jul 31, 2010 2:45 pm

Karma - Are you still at the beach ?????

This weekend is a Canadian long weekend, so I want to get down for the riverwalk at least once.

3 nights ago I woke up to a bat caught in my window air conditioner ! I never knew bats squeeled. It was weird. It freaked me out a bit. I never realized how many bats live in the neighbourhood ! LOL I was outside last night and a few flew over my head. They don't bother me when they're outside but if I see one flying in an enclosed area with me in it, I run. I've heard that they're more scared of me then I am of them, but I don't see them peeing in their little bat pants then running out of the room screaming like a girl. I just don't see that.

Anyway, the bat finally got free and my heart finally stopped racing at about 3 in the morning. I got 2 1/2 hours of sleep that night. Work the next day was a challenge........

Hope everyone is doing well !

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Sun Aug 01, 2010 5:09 pm

hey kids!

i'm back from the beach and not bitter LOL

i go back to work in the morning. strangely i didn't miss it at all - go figure! LOL

the beach was a wonderful break from my every day reality but it was time to come home. i missed mama, the boys, and my house.

every day was perfect in florida - no rain, just hot and then some. the 6 of us had more fun than we've got good sense - so how great was that?

now i'm hitting the bed. 6:00 is not far away and i have no idea what i'm wearing in the morning!

we partied like rock stars both at AND on the beach. me and the girls (age 13) danced in the waves on the beach under the full moon. now that was fun x forever and always!

karma

forever young 06 · Post by **forever young 06** » Mon Aug 02, 2010 12:06 am

good to see you are back karma also is a joy to see your posting see your familar face you are so cute love the way you write I can only dream about a vacation but we all need a dream I would be happy if I could get 50 miles from home but I am working on it one mile at a time we are all at different areas in our lifes amazing how this disorder works.

I too have been on vacation this week spent it with my daughter and grandaughter it was grand. I feel some anxiety not knowing what I will face but know I have the courage to face it I must not what if or should on my self I am my best friend and I need to learn to be my own safe person will must run have a safe and blessed week