Things are getting a bit better for me. I met my hourly goals last week and look like I'm going to do the same this week. However, all of the time spent actually working has been from home. Now I need to focus on getting to the office and getting work done there.
My next goal is to get to the office, alone or with someone, and put in some time from there. I don't care if it's five minutes or five hours, just something. I'm going to try for tomorrow, but if it doesn't happen til next week, that's okay too.
Keep up on all your goals,
Jamie
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manofmusic
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Hey SeaRunner ! Were you able to get into work today ?
Today at 3:30, my vacation officially started. Now's the time to just concentrate on me. This week will be spent on exercise, eating well, and taking my vitamins (multi-vitamin, Omega-3, Vitamin D, Vitamin B stress tab). Also, a regular sleep pattern will be important.
I'm thinking of starting back to WW next week (probably Thursday). I've thought it thru and the most success I've had has been thru WW. It keeps me on track and the meetings are motivating.
Hope everyone is taking steps to reach their goals !
Today at 3:30, my vacation officially started. Now's the time to just concentrate on me. This week will be spent on exercise, eating well, and taking my vitamins (multi-vitamin, Omega-3, Vitamin D, Vitamin B stress tab). Also, a regular sleep pattern will be important.
I'm thinking of starting back to WW next week (probably Thursday). I've thought it thru and the most success I've had has been thru WW. It keeps me on track and the meetings are motivating.
Hope everyone is taking steps to reach their goals !
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forever young 06
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manofmusic,
have a good vacation sometimes it is best to just focus on you and use the week to focus on healing will you be doing the online mw program.
are you still having panic attacks I know they had gotten worse.
I have found mine get worse when I start working on them and having to face them.I don't want to as long as I stay in my on little circle I feel normal but when you are limited in where you can go there is bound to be a place you need to go and can't thats where the problem sets in.I need to get back on the interstate this weekend I went 11 miles need to go 15 keep at it till I get 68 miles how long will that be now I am not doing this alone my husband my safe person is with me I would be glad if I could go places with other people good luck mom hope you have a good weekend and vacation week
have a good vacation sometimes it is best to just focus on you and use the week to focus on healing will you be doing the online mw program.
are you still having panic attacks I know they had gotten worse.
I have found mine get worse when I start working on them and having to face them.I don't want to as long as I stay in my on little circle I feel normal but when you are limited in where you can go there is bound to be a place you need to go and can't thats where the problem sets in.I need to get back on the interstate this weekend I went 11 miles need to go 15 keep at it till I get 68 miles how long will that be now I am not doing this alone my husband my safe person is with me I would be glad if I could go places with other people good luck mom hope you have a good weekend and vacation week
Music -
So sorry to take so long to respond. Unfortunately no, I didn't make it into work on Friday. I got so close though, with only a couple of blocks to go. It's funny when I'm calm and can look back at myself and wonder why I didn't go those few extra blocks. Anxiety makes us do such odd things. I know how real it seems at the time but then when I'm in a better frame of mind it feels like I could have done better. I'm not chastising myself; only remarking on how peculiar this condition is. I wish I could have this much clarity all of the time so I could do a better job of self-soothing when things start going south.
I did make a number of drives towards work this weekend. I had a rough one on Saturday and while I didn't fully panic, I went very high into the anxiety scale and stayed there for quite a while. I made the same drive again today to show myself that I was just fine. I did much better and was able to keep fairly calm. It makes me wonder why it's such a difficult job to teach our brains that we can trust ourselves.
The week starts again tomorrow so I get many more chances to get back into the office. I'm upping my goal for the week for the number of hours of billable time. I'd like to get at least some of that time in the office instead of doing all my work from home. I realize that I'm fully capable of doing it; I just have to convince myself that it's true!
I hope you enjoy your vacation. Don't let up on all the great things you've accomplished thus far while you're away from work. We have to keep fighting our way out of this all the time. It's too easy to slip backwards if we take a break. Good luck with WW. I'm still working on losing some weight myself and know what challenge that is.
FY06 -
I'm so glad to hear that you are facing your fears in spite of them. I'm so jealous that your driving 11 miles on the interstate; that would get me to work! Keep pushing yourself and face those fears every day. As time goes by you're certain to notice improvement. It just takes repetition. We can learn to change our behaviors and this is the best way to do it. Great job!
Jamie
So sorry to take so long to respond. Unfortunately no, I didn't make it into work on Friday. I got so close though, with only a couple of blocks to go. It's funny when I'm calm and can look back at myself and wonder why I didn't go those few extra blocks. Anxiety makes us do such odd things. I know how real it seems at the time but then when I'm in a better frame of mind it feels like I could have done better. I'm not chastising myself; only remarking on how peculiar this condition is. I wish I could have this much clarity all of the time so I could do a better job of self-soothing when things start going south.
I did make a number of drives towards work this weekend. I had a rough one on Saturday and while I didn't fully panic, I went very high into the anxiety scale and stayed there for quite a while. I made the same drive again today to show myself that I was just fine. I did much better and was able to keep fairly calm. It makes me wonder why it's such a difficult job to teach our brains that we can trust ourselves.
The week starts again tomorrow so I get many more chances to get back into the office. I'm upping my goal for the week for the number of hours of billable time. I'd like to get at least some of that time in the office instead of doing all my work from home. I realize that I'm fully capable of doing it; I just have to convince myself that it's true!
I hope you enjoy your vacation. Don't let up on all the great things you've accomplished thus far while you're away from work. We have to keep fighting our way out of this all the time. It's too easy to slip backwards if we take a break. Good luck with WW. I'm still working on losing some weight myself and know what challenge that is.
FY06 -
I'm so glad to hear that you are facing your fears in spite of them. I'm so jealous that your driving 11 miles on the interstate; that would get me to work! Keep pushing yourself and face those fears every day. As time goes by you're certain to notice improvement. It just takes repetition. We can learn to change our behaviors and this is the best way to do it. Great job!
Jamie
"Common things occur commonly. Uncommon things don't. Therefore, when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras." -- C.J. Peters
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NinjaFrodo
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Hey mr.Searunner how are you doing with your expectations and shoulds?
I was went back to checking out the feeling good books and I read about habits and shoulds. One key thing i read was that if you have a habit you should continue to do it until you have changed it. In other words it is more realistic to continue doing the habit that you don't want to do as opposed to not doing it. You are more likely to fall back many times as well and change happens slowly. I've tried working with this method when it comes to sleeping and I feel alot more relaxed around the time i go to sleep (which it still isn't where i want it but its 2 hours before the normal time i go to sleep now) and i sleep better. I would grab my pen and paper and write out those shoulds like
What i've exerienced from this is that I am accepting that i have this habit so i'm not making it scary and pushing it away but my body still wants to get to sleep earlier and so it naturally does so and I've got to say it has much such a huge impact on my life. I feel more confident and have a higher self-esteem, overall i'm less anxious, I spend less time worrying and feeling guilty, I am out there doing more activities with other people, i have alot more energy, less judgemental, more caring and creative and i can even poop better
I highly recommend trying that out, you really have nothing to lose.
Mike
I was went back to checking out the feeling good books and I read about habits and shoulds. One key thing i read was that if you have a habit you should continue to do it until you have changed it. In other words it is more realistic to continue doing the habit that you don't want to do as opposed to not doing it. You are more likely to fall back many times as well and change happens slowly. I've tried working with this method when it comes to sleeping and I feel alot more relaxed around the time i go to sleep (which it still isn't where i want it but its 2 hours before the normal time i go to sleep now) and i sleep better. I would grab my pen and paper and write out those shoulds like
and then i would replace them with the same stuff i mentioned above but in a diffrent wording and i have noticed that i actually feel like getting to sleep earlier."i should get to bed by now and if i don't i won't be able to handle the next day"
What i've exerienced from this is that I am accepting that i have this habit so i'm not making it scary and pushing it away but my body still wants to get to sleep earlier and so it naturally does so and I've got to say it has much such a huge impact on my life. I feel more confident and have a higher self-esteem, overall i'm less anxious, I spend less time worrying and feeling guilty, I am out there doing more activities with other people, i have alot more energy, less judgemental, more caring and creative and i can even poop better
I highly recommend trying that out, you really have nothing to lose.Mike
Here is the link to the Letting Go thread which is designated for venting
http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
You can follow me on Twitter, same username or check out my blog
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http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
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Been awhile since I've been on here! I've missed you guys!
FYO6, I am totally with Jamie... 11 miles on freeway is nothing to sneeze at! I am jealous, too! That would put me over halfway to the city south of me that I've been using an alternate route to get to for several years now. You go, girl!
Jamie, you are such a trooper. Really. That is why you will beat this thing. No matter how hard it hits you, you always gather yourself up and launch back into the fray.. so to speak. One day you will look back at this and think, "I can barely remember struggling with this drive" I bet you have a bunch of stuff you can name that you've defeated. Oh, I laughed my butt off this week thinking of you! Allow me to explain... I order from Victorias Secret sometimes and guess what I should receive in the mail? My very own coupon good for one free pair of panties! Care to come join me to go and collect them?? LOL! I immediately thought of you and your entourage of college buddies storming VS for your free undies.
ManofMusic, So what does a crazy gal like yourself do on vacation? I imagine you out there tearing up jogging paths and scorning every dessert and salty thing that dares cross your path.
I mentioned some time back that I had injured my back. Well, it got WAY worse. Turns out it is torn muscles in my hip, butt, and back. I was out of work all last week and could not walk more than 20 feet and couldn't stand more than 10 minutes. So, sitting at a computer was out of the question. Well, not for more than a couple of minutes, so that is why I was gone. And, sadly, I had nothing to post about driving goals. My goals changed to: making it from bed to couch without crying. It was really bad! However, I am very proud that I have turned a corner. I worked almost a half day today an didn't feel like crying once! lol It's just been so darn slow... had me down really bad for a few days... crying and feeling abandoned. Not anxious, just really depressed. REally got the "poor me" angle working.
So, I am glad to be back and will look forward to posting a bit about meeting some new goals. Jamie and Manofmusic, I think I will take a cue from you two fitness buffs and get my flabby self in shape! This injury would not have been nearly as severe if I had been in better shape.
FYO6, I am totally with Jamie... 11 miles on freeway is nothing to sneeze at! I am jealous, too! That would put me over halfway to the city south of me that I've been using an alternate route to get to for several years now. You go, girl!
Jamie, you are such a trooper. Really. That is why you will beat this thing. No matter how hard it hits you, you always gather yourself up and launch back into the fray.. so to speak. One day you will look back at this and think, "I can barely remember struggling with this drive" I bet you have a bunch of stuff you can name that you've defeated. Oh, I laughed my butt off this week thinking of you! Allow me to explain... I order from Victorias Secret sometimes and guess what I should receive in the mail? My very own coupon good for one free pair of panties! Care to come join me to go and collect them?? LOL! I immediately thought of you and your entourage of college buddies storming VS for your free undies.
ManofMusic, So what does a crazy gal like yourself do on vacation? I imagine you out there tearing up jogging paths and scorning every dessert and salty thing that dares cross your path.
I mentioned some time back that I had injured my back. Well, it got WAY worse. Turns out it is torn muscles in my hip, butt, and back. I was out of work all last week and could not walk more than 20 feet and couldn't stand more than 10 minutes. So, sitting at a computer was out of the question. Well, not for more than a couple of minutes, so that is why I was gone. And, sadly, I had nothing to post about driving goals. My goals changed to: making it from bed to couch without crying. It was really bad! However, I am very proud that I have turned a corner. I worked almost a half day today an didn't feel like crying once! lol It's just been so darn slow... had me down really bad for a few days... crying and feeling abandoned. Not anxious, just really depressed. REally got the "poor me" angle working.
So, I am glad to be back and will look forward to posting a bit about meeting some new goals. Jamie and Manofmusic, I think I will take a cue from you two fitness buffs and get my flabby self in shape! This injury would not have been nearly as severe if I had been in better shape.
Focus on what you want, not what you fear...
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manofmusic
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Well Hot Rod, sorry to hear about the back injuries ! I hope you don't have to do the surgery thing. Back surgery is always tricky. A family member has a real bad lower back. She has to go in for cortizone (sp?) shots once a year. They help, but she wants something more permanent. She was in a car crash 10 years ago and hasn't been the same since.
As for my vacation, I'm takin' care of business and workin' overtime ! LOL I've been really good with eating no salty junk foods. There's still no extra sugar or caffeine of any kind in my life. Tomorrow and Wednesday will be spent catching some rays ! Maybe even grab a book to read. This week is all about self improvement just calming my racing mind down. I think I'm doing good so far !
Tomorrow I want to go for my riverwalk. It's supposed to rain until noon, so I'll go right after that. I just need to re-charge my mp3 player.
I'm still taking the multi-vitamin, vitamin D, vitamin B complex and the Omega 3. I'm starting to feel a difference now. I have more get-up-and-go.
Hope everyone is doing well !
SeaRunner - did you go into work today ?
As for my vacation, I'm takin' care of business and workin' overtime ! LOL I've been really good with eating no salty junk foods. There's still no extra sugar or caffeine of any kind in my life. Tomorrow and Wednesday will be spent catching some rays ! Maybe even grab a book to read. This week is all about self improvement just calming my racing mind down. I think I'm doing good so far !
Tomorrow I want to go for my riverwalk. It's supposed to rain until noon, so I'll go right after that. I just need to re-charge my mp3 player.
I'm still taking the multi-vitamin, vitamin D, vitamin B complex and the Omega 3. I'm starting to feel a difference now. I have more get-up-and-go.
Hope everyone is doing well !
SeaRunner - did you go into work today ?
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NinjaFrodo
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Here is the link to the Letting Go thread which is designated for venting
http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
You can follow me on Twitter, same username or check out my blog
http://ninjafrodo.blogspot.com/
http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
You can follow me on Twitter, same username or check out my blog
http://ninjafrodo.blogspot.com/
Ninja -
I'm not entirely sure where I am with my expectations and shoulds. I know I want more but I really don't know how hard I can push myself. I've had a few rough months, more than I've been letting on in my posts. So I'm reevaluating my strategies somewhat. I believe I'm still on the right track, I just need to modify things a bit. Getting over anxiety seems to be much more art than science, LOL!
The idea about changing habits you posted is interesting. I'm a little confused though about how you end up changing bad habits if you are supposed to continue doing them. I suppose it's intended to be an incremental approach, that is, a little at a time. That would make sense to me, especially for sensitive people like us who have difficulty with change.
I'm glad this approach is working for you. You seem to have a lot of resources and insight into anxiety and depression. I always enjoy reading your posts.
Jamie
I'm not entirely sure where I am with my expectations and shoulds. I know I want more but I really don't know how hard I can push myself. I've had a few rough months, more than I've been letting on in my posts. So I'm reevaluating my strategies somewhat. I believe I'm still on the right track, I just need to modify things a bit. Getting over anxiety seems to be much more art than science, LOL!
The idea about changing habits you posted is interesting. I'm a little confused though about how you end up changing bad habits if you are supposed to continue doing them. I suppose it's intended to be an incremental approach, that is, a little at a time. That would make sense to me, especially for sensitive people like us who have difficulty with change.
I'm glad this approach is working for you. You seem to have a lot of resources and insight into anxiety and depression. I always enjoy reading your posts.
Jamie
"Common things occur commonly. Uncommon things don't. Therefore, when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras." -- C.J. Peters
HotRod -
You give me too much credit! I'm just like the everyone else on this site, struggling to overcome this condition. But being able to share our thoughts, experiences, wins, and losses is such a great benefit and motivator. I hope you're right that I'll be able to look back on this time. In fact, I hope it comes sooner rather than later!
I'm tickled that you not only enjoyed my VS story but that you got your very own coupon too. All I can do is hold onto the memory and live with the regret that I never got to have "the most comfortable panties I'll ever wear" since I gave them away. Such a tragedy.
I'm sorry to hear that you've been having back trouble but I'm glad that it's getting better. It seems like you've been hit hard with one thing after another in terms of illness and injury. If anyone is a trooper it has to be you.
I'm looking forward to hearing what goals your setting for yourself. I'm all ready to start cheering you on. Actually, I'll just give you a pre-cheer now: you can do whatever you truly set your mind to. As for exercise, it's good for everybody regardless of what shape you're in. You can't go wrong with that.
Jamie
You give me too much credit! I'm just like the everyone else on this site, struggling to overcome this condition. But being able to share our thoughts, experiences, wins, and losses is such a great benefit and motivator. I hope you're right that I'll be able to look back on this time. In fact, I hope it comes sooner rather than later!
I'm tickled that you not only enjoyed my VS story but that you got your very own coupon too. All I can do is hold onto the memory and live with the regret that I never got to have "the most comfortable panties I'll ever wear" since I gave them away. Such a tragedy.
I'm sorry to hear that you've been having back trouble but I'm glad that it's getting better. It seems like you've been hit hard with one thing after another in terms of illness and injury. If anyone is a trooper it has to be you.
I'm looking forward to hearing what goals your setting for yourself. I'm all ready to start cheering you on. Actually, I'll just give you a pre-cheer now: you can do whatever you truly set your mind to. As for exercise, it's good for everybody regardless of what shape you're in. You can't go wrong with that.
Jamie
"Common things occur commonly. Uncommon things don't. Therefore, when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras." -- C.J. Peters