One More Step

samcat · Post by **samcat** » Wed Jun 09, 2010 9:24 am

Hi Claudette,

Even though you have a great family, it is hard for them to understand this darned disorder. So you can feel very isolated. That is what this forum is for, so welcome and please come back whenever you feel like it. I join with you in cheering our recovery!!

dimitra1979 · Post by **dimitra1979** » Wed Jun 09, 2010 11:16 am

Searunner, I can oh so relate to u and you talking about your parents leaving...Mine being that when my husband left yesterday for out of town work,I left my house to come stay at my mothers house....Lol the thought of staying at home alone with me,the dogs and my 3 year old were scary......Did not want to be alone....I am not understanding why or what to do?????Don't feel like i'm making much progress with this...I started over for the 2nd time with the program 1st time i made it to session 2 and the 2nd time i made it to 3 but did not finish it....I guess i should start from scratch again...it gets hard to keep track with a 3year old and the peer support on top of journaling and practicing the new habits and how to change all the negative thinking.....MAJOR PROBLEM WITH ME,It is always something neg with me and i am trying 2 change it...aNY INFO IS GREAT......DIMITRA1979

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Wed Jun 09, 2010 2:42 pm

Well, SeaRunner, I can certainly afford to lose a few pounds. I started by doing the riverwalk (10km). When I started, it took me over 2 hours to do it. Now it takes me 1h 45m. My cardio is excellent considering the weight I need to lose (about 60 lbs or so). The problem is that after I do the walk at the river, I get "called" in to a fast food place which completely rules out the exercise plus some. I'm my own worst enemy. If I didn't sabotage myself, I'd probably be at my goal weight by now. I know what I need to do, it's just getting off my *** to do it. I make sure to get plenty of water in too. That seems to help. The week only has a few days left in it and I've been good with not having caffeine and added sugar. I mentioned that next week will be getting rid of the added salt. That's going to be a tough one for me because I'm not a real "sweet" guy, I'm a "salty fat" guy. I've always been. I'd take a bag of chips over a chocolate bar any day.

I am making a new promise......friends have been talking me into re-joining a weight loss place (W.W.) I started once and did well so I quit (thinking I could continue on my own)......WRONG !!!!!! This is an excellent thread, but I think I need something added to this. I will post here every week with the results of the weight loss for the week. I'm stepping up to the bat and I hope to hit a home run.

Welcome Claudette ! (fellow Canuck). This is actually one of the most motivational threads today. Keep on posting !

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Wed Jun 09, 2010 2:50 pm

SeaRunner - There were 2 times when I actually had to leave work because the attacks got so bad. I made up an excuse that I forgot about a Dr. appt. I was panicky so I looked convincing. I eventually just rode the attacks out. I had to lock myself in the washroom a few times, but they passed. I may get an attack at work once in a while, but I'm so used to it now it's like they aren't even happening. Just treat every morning as a fresh start.

Hot Rod - your hairy chest goes good with the gold chains and the "uh huh uh huh" ! Boogie Down, Hot Rod !!!!!!!! Keep on Truckin' !

Claudette · Post by **Claudette** » Thu Jun 10, 2010 4:11 am

To Manofmusic,
When reading your comments, I'm crying and laughing my heart out, all at the same time! I know you suffer like all of us yet you truly have a gift for making people feel happy. You're so funny!! I hope the rest of us can do the same for you! What part of Canada are you from? I'm from just outside of Toronto- from Bowmanville. All the best with your goals. I think it's great that you are being specific on cutting down on certain things. I look forward to hearing you're results, no matter which way it goes, we're rooting for you!
Claudette

Claudette · Post by **Claudette** » Thu Jun 10, 2010 4:35 am

Samcat,
Thanks for your support! You're right, as good as family and friends can be, unless they've been through this condition, how could we expect them to understand. Thank God we have this sight and this program.

Hey Dimitra,
I can only imagine how difficult it would be doing the program as recommended, especially with having a young child at home. I wanted to skip some stuff but instead I forced myself to follow as prescribed. It really does start to sink in, one baby step at a time. I thought I was cured after the first time doing it. It was a year later, doing very well, and thinking it would never return, BANG!! There it was, my dizziness, my head feeling heavy, feeling like there was always something horrible that was just around the corner, ect...It sarted to take over my life again, like Ken says in the program, "it becomes bigger than life". So,I just completed the program for the second time in late March and felt really good about doing it again, however this time I know that I have to pay much closer attention to my body and thoughts. I've come to the realization that this is a life process and that's OKAY! It's catching yourself before it blows out of proportion. And if it does, don't give up, it doesn't mean you're back to where you came from. Use the skills, one baby step at a time and look for the best!!! AHHHHHHHH, we are all capable, strong, determined good people. Cheers to all of us.
Claudette

samcat · Post by **samcat** » Fri Jun 11, 2010 1:44 pm

Just wanted to let you all know that today we sent Samantha to kitty heaven. I accomplished my goal of May 28. My decision was reality based, not fear based and I had a very sad but peaceful attitude. My husband and I are sure we made the right decision--her condition was deteriorating fairly rapidly and she was in a lot of pain.

Thanks to all of you for your kind words of support during this trial.

xlostgirlx · Post by **xlostgirlx** » Fri Jun 11, 2010 2:13 pm

Its good that she is out of pain she was a really beautiful cat from what i saw in the picture. I'm glad that you are not very upset and trying to take it easy. You seem really strong your a good friend.

samcat · Post by **samcat** » Fri Jun 11, 2010 3:37 pm

Hey Sunshine,

My husband and I are both upset, but we are handling it. We did what was best for Samantha.
She was a beautiful cat and we had her for 17 years. That was a blessing because she cheered us up so much when she was younger. She was a real trouper and was always very good about all the treatments she had to endure. We could all take a lesson from this cat. Thanks for your kind words. You are a sweetheart, you know that?

SeaRunner · Post by **SeaRunner** » Fri Jun 11, 2010 7:04 pm

SamCat -

I'm very sorry to hear that you had to put Samantha down, but I'm sure it was the right decision. I'm praying that you are comforted during this time and I know that you and your husband will support each other. Losing a beloved pet is so traumatic but just focus on all the joy you've had over the years. It was a blessing to have her in your life for so long.

Thank you for all your encouragement. You're absolutely right about trying and failure only being about not trying. That's one reason that I allow myself to sometimes set goals I know I can't reach right away. If I even get partway their I know I've had success. It may not be exactly what I planned, but any achievement is something to be recognized and it puts me that much closer to reaching my goal.

Jamie