Now, to most people who dont get to expirience these wonderful attacks and depression this will seem like nothing. For the first time in almost 7 years I STAYED HOME ALONE OVER NIGHT!!! When I started my anxiety and depression I was suicidal. Since I have been out of the hospital (almost seven years) I have been afraid to be home alone for over night. I have been afraid that I may follow thru with my ideas of death. It may not seem like much but, I was scared enough by those thoughts that I have been, for the most part, afraid to even think about being alone. So, over the weekend, my wife and daughter go camping with her family. It wasnt going to be for two nights but turned out that it was. I didn't even realize it until Sunday morning. It was the first time I did that! Then my wife called to see if I cared if they stay another night. I was so proud of myself I didnt care!!
When I told my wife that it was my first time alone over night all she could say was "oh, thats right." Then later that day I talk to my parents and all they would say is "oh, really? Its the first time?". Dont you just love the support system I have? Not a word of encouragement. Nothing. Now, I understand that folks who havent been thru things like this may not understand. But, my wife was there when everything was wrong. She was the one who saw me break down. My parents, I called the day I broke down wanting support from them. They knew how bad off I was.
But hey I DID IT! I DID IT FOR ME! AND I FEEL DAMN GOOD ABOUT IT!
I did it!
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Dear Wildcard,
Hooray for you! I've been living with anxiety since childhood (six decades). There was a time when I was afraid to be alone overnight, so I get it. My husband and family don't get it at all. Remember, YOU ARE NEVER ALONE! God loves you and so does this community. He holds you in his hands always.
Kathie
Hooray for you! I've been living with anxiety since childhood (six decades). There was a time when I was afraid to be alone overnight, so I get it. My husband and family don't get it at all. Remember, YOU ARE NEVER ALONE! God loves you and so does this community. He holds you in his hands always.
Kathie
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I just had to say this was a lovely message, Kathie. I like it!Originally posted by Kathie C.:
Dear Wildcard,
Hooray for you! I've been living with anxiety since childhood (six decades). There was a time when I was afraid to be alone overnight, so I get it. My husband and family don't get it at all. Remember, YOU ARE NEVER ALONE! God loves you and so does this community. He holds you in his hands always.
Kathie
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Wildcard,
Hurray for you!!! Heap those praises on yourself because you deserve them. That was a huge step forward for you--do you realize how big it was??? Very proud of you!!!
People who have have never had this garbage just don't get it. My husband is very good, but he is clueless and I can understand why. Until this stuff happened to me , I would never have understood it either. Unfortunately now I do "get it". So we just have to be our own support system and if we need more, get on the forum and we'll all tell you how terrific you were to do something that was so scary for you because we all have faced fear down and won. That is the best part--when you kick it right in the rear. And that is exactly what you did. Now you can put that one to rest for good. Now you know you can be alone and be perfectly fine. And Kathie is right, God is always there with you, so you are never really alone.
Hurray for you!!! Heap those praises on yourself because you deserve them. That was a huge step forward for you--do you realize how big it was??? Very proud of you!!!
People who have have never had this garbage just don't get it. My husband is very good, but he is clueless and I can understand why. Until this stuff happened to me , I would never have understood it either. Unfortunately now I do "get it". So we just have to be our own support system and if we need more, get on the forum and we'll all tell you how terrific you were to do something that was so scary for you because we all have faced fear down and won. That is the best part--when you kick it right in the rear. And that is exactly what you did. Now you can put that one to rest for good. Now you know you can be alone and be perfectly fine. And Kathie is right, God is always there with you, so you are never really alone.
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Wildcard -
That's absolutely terrific! As you can see from all these replies to you your post, what you did is commendable and you deserve all the praise you can get. If it's not coming from those in your immediate support circle, then make sure you give a bunch to yourself. Remember that you are your best resource.
That being said, and keeping in mind that I don't know your personal situation, it might be a good time to bring your feelings to the attention of your spouse and parents. You don't need to be confrontational, just let them know that this was a really big deal. They probably simply don't understand or have forgotten how far you've come.
Keep up the great work,
Jamie
That's absolutely terrific! As you can see from all these replies to you your post, what you did is commendable and you deserve all the praise you can get. If it's not coming from those in your immediate support circle, then make sure you give a bunch to yourself. Remember that you are your best resource.
That being said, and keeping in mind that I don't know your personal situation, it might be a good time to bring your feelings to the attention of your spouse and parents. You don't need to be confrontational, just let them know that this was a really big deal. They probably simply don't understand or have forgotten how far you've come.
Keep up the great work,
Jamie
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Hi Wildcard-
Yahoo!! I remember when you asked about it and what to do in this situation. You handled it superbly. Pats on the back from MN.
I also get the "no support" thing. In my case, it's not just with anxiety things, but lack of affirmations in general. I'm learning to separate myself from their actions or non-actions. I get to pick my friends, but can't pick my family. And they aren't the best, so I am choosing not to be around them or share with them. That is my protection for me that I have chosen. I think it would be awesome if you can talk to them like SeaRunner said, but I can't even get that far.
Anyways--- super job!!! and good luck with the other things.
Yahoo!! I remember when you asked about it and what to do in this situation. You handled it superbly. Pats on the back from MN.
I also get the "no support" thing. In my case, it's not just with anxiety things, but lack of affirmations in general. I'm learning to separate myself from their actions or non-actions. I get to pick my friends, but can't pick my family. And they aren't the best, so I am choosing not to be around them or share with them. That is my protection for me that I have chosen. I think it would be awesome if you can talk to them like SeaRunner said, but I can't even get that far.
Anyways--- super job!!! and good luck with the other things.
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Thanks all for the wonderful support! I think that the others in my life may not understand because they have never been thru it. BUT, i have all you wonderful people here so it sure make me feel much, much better. I may talk to them but I'm not sure if I will. It makes me feel like I want attention for it and that is the last thing I want! I'll be FLYING out to Minnesota again in a week to see my parents so it may be a good time.
It is never to warm for snowballs if you put them in the freezer! But i think the laughing bear hibernates during the summer!
Thanks again all!!!!
It is never to warm for snowballs if you put them in the freezer! But i think the laughing bear hibernates during the summer!
Thanks again all!!!!