Soooo guilty

[SimplyKarah]

So today my around 6 AM, my husband started throwing up and was sick. Normally, I get a lot of anxiety while waiting for my kids to wake up. If I wake up before they do, I get this panicked feeling of them waking up soon and then I'll have to get up but I'm still tired...that sort of thing. Well, his being sick woke me up and I knew it was all on me. I started to feel anxious but I did my breathing and self-talk and I actually made it through that one. I got up and got the kids breakfast and was feeling shaky but pretty good about myself. (Especially since I only got like 4 hours of sleep that night.) But then my husband got up and seeing that I was tired, he said he was feeling better and let me take a nap. So far so good...but then he came to wake me up and tell me he was feeling bad and I had to take over. And...I lost it. I went in to panic mode and he ended up having to watch the kids while I struggled to make the 6 steps work. I had a big win this morning but a really big fail after that. I feel so guilty that even while being sick, my husband had to do it all. I know the guilt isn't helping but I can't figure out how to get past it. I'm such an awful wife. Any help?

[Guest]

You are not an awful wife! You got up and started to get the kids ready. And when you started feeling panicky, you were practicing your six steps . It's okay if it didn't go perfectly...you're practicing them! That's the important thing. Be proud of yourself for that. It will get better as you practice the skills. Don't beat yourself up for needing help that morning. Praise yourself for actually practicing the skills to work through the anxiety instead of just throwing up your hands and giving up. You practiced your new skills. Good for you!