life is good - and it's a long post!

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Fri Feb 19, 2010 2:32 pm

my night just got better - i found the remote control and could turn the tv down without getting up - yayyyyy it's always the simple things in life that make me the happiest LOL

today was a typical day at work. i'm just going to leave it at that. it's easier.

i played the "i'm too tired" card and didn't go to dinner at mama's - again it was just easier. and really, it was for the best.

it's actually supposed to get up into the high 50s or low 60s tomorrow! i can't wait. then, of course, it's supposed to rain starting sometime sunday. i just hope it stays warm!!!

on the most positive side, i came home to my boys - who were and are so happy to be with me. that in and of itself makes my day. now i've got keeper wish his face pressed into my side and pony just jumped up on the bed. it's a great night!

jillzmind · Post by **jillzmind** » Fri Feb 19, 2010 3:20 pm

Karma
I posted a silly MST3K video for ya a page back. I have watched it about 3 times already..haha
Enjoy!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Fri Feb 19, 2010 3:33 pm

Karma ! - Something I'm learning too.... don't take your work home with you. By thinking about it while you're not at work, you're "working at home". They're not paying you to do that, so don't. I used to want to be alone after a bad day. I'd get a call from friends or my folks to come over for dinner and I'd turn them down. Well.....my folks are in their 80's now. I don't know how much time they have left. I would kick myself in the a** if something happened at work the day before something happened to my folks. I will never let the dumb things that go on at work affect my personal life. Now granted, I still have my moments, but I think of what I just typed and I realize that family and friends always come first. I'm doing my best to never let my job interfere with my personal life. Besides, once I get together with friends or my folks, I begin to forget about the day for a while.

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Sat Feb 20, 2010 4:13 am

pony was next to me when i went to sleep last night. all night i'd wake up on and off to find him as close to me as possible. my hands were either on him or my arms around him. it was something we both needed. my dreams were cathartic. i dreamed everything imaginable that was bothering me and possibly worked some things out. who knows? this morning i am at peace.

i more than understand - and appreciate - what you said about not bringing nonsense home - especially to the point where it interfers with family life. but my decision to lay low last night was the best. i'd have talked about it and in that talking - ok yelling LOL - it would have only upset mama. she doesn't need to hear the weirdness. it bothers her. i did talk/yell to my sister who listens to the almost alcoholic environment i work in. while it bothers her, it doesn't make her crazy - understand? it's not something she will obsess on - the way mama would/does.

i have a little clipping i put on my refrigerator door by r.d. lang. it's so appropriate in dealing with certain situations in life. it's about total dysfunction. here goes:

they are playing a game.
if i show them i know they are playing a game i am breaking the rules and i will be punished.
therefore, i will play the game of pretending they are not playing a game.

or something like that LOL

i'm supposed to go with mama and my aunt and uncle to the big new museum on post. it's not something i particularly want to do on a beautiful sunny day. i'd so rather be walking the boys on the river walk. but they don't visit that often and to not go would be rude. so i'll put on my makeup and a smile LOL

i hope your saturday at work was good!

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Sat Feb 20, 2010 5:17 am

YES i watched it and laughed!!!! i was putting on makeup a while ago and singing - trying to remember the words to the opening song. "his bosses didn't like him so they shot him into space" LOLOL

there was one short - kind of a documentary about a man named ross who captured animals in south florida maybe in the 40's? it was in black and white and just plain wrong! peta members would watch it today and cry it was that wrong!! LOL

i so hope to find that one again. what joel and his robot friends said - some of the funniest lines ever!!! their desire for ross to be captured and killed by one of the animals was hysterical. i had it on vhs forever and lost it.

again thank you!!!!

jillzmind · Post by **jillzmind** » Sat Feb 20, 2010 4:45 pm

Next time I go to Arby's I am going to ask if they have an employee chapel hahaha..

Gosh I miss that show.

glad you liked the short.

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Sat Feb 20, 2010 5:05 pm

honey, i'm watching mst3000 on my laptop right now through netflix - and laughing too hard!!! i have SO missed joel and the bots LOLOL

it's a terrible black and white movie and they're having a ball with it - as only they can.

once upon a time, my goal was to run away to hopkins minnesota - or wherever they evolved mst300 - and beg them to let me be a writer on the show LOLOL

yes - i once had a dream LOL x forever

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Sun Feb 21, 2010 9:20 am

ok - not to brag - but i went through a kitchen drawer and actually threw some stuff away! included among the throw away were 3 old tv remotes. why i've held one to them - who knows? but i got a plastic grocery bag full of unneccessary stuff filled up. baby steps - baby steps LOL

i don't know if it's depression that causes drawers to overfill and the need to hang on to useless stuff. i talked to a friend yesterday who laughingly said it's normal to her to have overstuffed drawers. my aunt said she more than understands the clutter we surround ourselves with and she can't stand it either. mama actually said - yesterday - well don't throw anything away before i go through it. and she's the queen of overstuffed drawers and closets! i said "no", you will not see anything LOLOL

one of the articles i read said something about what would you grab if your house were on fire? the boys of course. maybe my quilts if i could get to them - they were made by my grandmother and other relatives? family pictures? let's just hope my house never catches fire!!!!

"they" being the experts say once a person starts decluttering you actually start to feel more free and lighter. we'll see. again, baby steps.

i'm waiting on mama right now so we can walk pony on the river walk. it's a beautiful day here. i finally cut the butterfly bushes down around my mail box. i'm in such bad shape, i was winded! LOL if i put things up so they wouldn't rust in the rain, my cutter things would be sharper and it wouldn't be so hard LOL

i hope you're having a wonderful day. AND if you FEEL like it, take a plastic grocery bag, open a drawer, and throw out 2 or 3 days. it's kind of a cool feeling!!!! LOL

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Sun Feb 21, 2010 12:20 pm

What movie are the two of you talking about ??? Chapel at Arby's ???? LOL

I got into work on Saturday morning and I almost lost it. 99% of the guys in the shop are cool. 1 guy however is a drama queen ! (...I mean king) LOL. He called me out to the shop and started ragging me out about a design I didn't even do ! I raised my voice and proceeded to explain to him that this design had nothing to do with me ! He quietly said "I know". I turned around and walked away. As soon as I turned my back, he started to throw things around. I heard something loud hit a metal table. I just kept on walking and let the little baby have his temper tantrum. I went back into the office and continued my work until it was time for me to go. I felt really good that I didn't stoop to his level (which would've been a real easy thing to do.) I figured that one of us needed to be an adult, so I decided that was going to be me. When I walk into work on Monday, I'm going to pretend that nothing happened and if he decides to be a jerk again (which I assume he won't), I'll talk to him like he's a child again !

I went for my walk after I got home and I fully relaxed. It was a beautiful sunny day. It was almost 40 degrees and not a cloud in the sky. Today was more of the same.

Congratulations on getting the drawers cleaned out ! I always find that throwing stuff out is a good feeling. I love going to the dump with a truck load of stuff. I pretend that each piece of garbage I throw out is a person that ticked me off ! LOL It's quite cathartic ! LOL

Now it's time to make my lunch for tomorrow and then relax for the rest of the night.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh beautiful relaxation !!!!!!!

jillzmind · Post by **jillzmind** » Sun Feb 21, 2010 12:34 pm

Hi Man
go back a few pages and you will see a link I sent Karma its from a few clips from various B-movies that they usually showed on Mystery Science Theatre 3K. One of the best shows ever!
J~