life is good - and it's a long post!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Tue Jan 26, 2010 11:37 am

Mr. Crankypants was at it again ! I had to walk away. He seems to be getting worse. I just do my breathing and I ignore, walk away, or whatever it takes. I make sure to leave work with a smile on my face no matter what.

Karma ! - Did you end up going to work today ?

Shif - Sounds like you need to do some deep breathing ! LOL Maybe she can drive you around and you'll be able to enjoy the scenery instead ! (.....while you're digging your fingers into the dashboard ! LOL)

Cornflower - Glad you like the tune !

Jill - Here Comes the Sun is an awesome tune !!!!

jillzmind · Post by **jillzmind** » Tue Jan 26, 2010 12:58 pm

Shif you better get your phantom passenger side brake pedal foot worked out and stretched so it doesn't cramp up while baby girl drives. And stretch out your left arm deltoid and do some arm circles to get the phantom AKA Mom invisible seatbelt Arm ready too for when she comes to the red lights or you don't think she is braking fast enough haha. And pray pray pray

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Tue Jan 26, 2010 1:15 pm

i will always wonder why people in a position of power over others must act the fool. what is gained by talking down to others? why would anyone feel the need to intimate? it has to be some kind of personality disorder involving control.

yes i made it into work today - yayyyy. i felt so much better when i got up this morning. it must have been some type of bug.

i was so glad to be at work - who would have ever thought? LOL i played catch up with both work and friends. had lunch at a pretty little coffee shop downtown with a good friend. so far, nobody has said i'm not doing things wrong so i must be on the right track!

it was so sunny today - blindingly bright - i love it. it was cool but the wind made it cold.

so it was a good day. i enjoyed work, my friends, lunch, and sunshine.

i'm glad you managed to control your feelings and walk out of work with a smile on your face!

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Tue Jan 26, 2010 1:17 pm

oops - intimate should be INTIMIDATE LOL

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jan 26, 2010 4:57 pm

Hey ManofMusic

,
I love that song!!! I bookmarked it...Thanks for sharing!!! God Bless!!!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Wed Jan 27, 2010 1:06 pm

Hey Ms. T Bones. Glad you liked the tune.

Hey Karma ! How did today go ? Today, NOTHING bothered me at all ! Every hour on the hour I went for a walk out into the shop. I talked with the guys out there and answered questions they had about the jobs they were working on. I'm pretty sure I got a few miles of walking in today ! LOL I feel GREAT !!!!!!
I think that when I sit for long periods of time, the blood doesn't flow like it should and I get tired. I'm going to make a point of walking a mile every day at work. I should really buy one of those pedometers that show how many steps a day I take.

I made sure to drink lots of water to keep things flowing (LOL) and made sure to eat properly. The only thing I did wrong was for the past few days, I didn't make time to eat breakfast and it made a difference for the worse. Tomorrow morning I will wake up with the alarm and make sure to eat breakfast again. I was doing so well with the breakfast thing too.

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Wed Jan 27, 2010 2:15 pm

ok child - you win today's award. i'm not jealous or envious or anything tacky like that LOL - i'm glad your day was great!! eating breakfast is super important. so is getting up and moving around. you are the MAN!!!!

let me preface what i'm going to say with i honestly think/know i have ptsd and it kicked in big time this afternoon. a lot of years on the battlefield with the things have left me shellshocked when it comes to my work environment.

i was having a good day until person 1 told me our boss had said i was no longer able to use a copier from another department. i told person 2 - in charge of that copier - to please take my name off that copier. i mean what does it matter to me? i'm not the boss of anything LOL

person 2 didn't like that or understand the why's and wherefore's because the machine is right behind me and makes my life so much easier. persons 1 and 2 have a history of not getting along. person 2 dashed into the division head's office (her boss) who proceeded to send my boss an email that her office would absorb the cost.

ok now that all sounds simple enough - right? emails have been sent and blah blah blah. but here's the rub. more than anything in this world i can't stand/bear power struggles and such. and i HATE being put in the middle of anything at work. i'm there to work - god knows i'm not making a political statement or anything like that. i show up - do a good job - then come home.

when person 2 went into the big boss's office i immediately got a "throw-up-y" feeling then took an afternoon break. and yep i felt light-headed and overly anxious. this despite i know i'm not the cause of anything - yet wondering/dreading the effects of something that simple - well it can go from a mole hill to a mountain as quick as you can blink!

now i'm wondering if this so small and insignificant incident can be that and nothing more (poe) or will it escalate?

the people i work with (other than the things) have to know - they simply must - that i'm not a seller out of anyone. i don't play games. i'm not a back stabber. i would not/could not ever get pleasure from that kind of behavior. it's not who i am or how i would ever want to live.

how am i tonight? i still want to throw up and i'm dizzy. if there is a power play, do i feel anything i've ever done right will be forgotten? sadly yes. thinking this way makes me incredibly down hearted.

and the joke comes to mind, "other than that, mrs. lincoln, how did you enjoy the play?"

jillzmind · Post by **jillzmind** » Wed Jan 27, 2010 3:12 pm

Wowzers Karma

Sorry for all your drama at work today. I feel your pain. I started to get that same angst reading about your day , the way I did when I was in High School. It sounds like you work with Teen Agers..yikes! Hopefully tomorrow
your mind will be at ease and the wavemakers will have settled down?! You are a fun and smart and mature woman I bet you will be okay and all will be well again.
Take care,
Jill~

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Wed Jan 27, 2010 3:44 pm

thanks sweetie! angst sucks like a straw LOL

your assessment LOL of me - well thank you so much! i don't feel quite as much like a scared little kid right now. as for tomorrow, if somehow/someway people decide to make much ado about nothing (shakespeare) i will do what people at work say i'm famous for - and that is shoot straight from the hip. i can (am) very forthright! it's all part of my horrifying charm LOL

now untense your neck and shoulders - i am - and have a great night!!!!!!!

Shifrah · Post by **Shifrah** » Thu Jan 28, 2010 3:45 am

Hey Karma

It sounds like you got into a situation that was really beyond your control there. I'll bet you will be able to come out just fine on the other side - I think any of us would have felt the same.

I'm sure it will be resolved and from your last post, you'll take the bull by the horns to settle this matter.