Pregnant... and STILL Freaking Out
Thank you so much to everyone who responded in my last thread. I have been on buspar for almost a month now, along with a small dosage of my klonopin (clonazepam). I do NOT feel that the buspar is "taking care of me" like the klonopin did. I am still having severe anxiety, mostly at night, full of a racing heart, hyperventilation, tingling arms, shortness of breath, etc. My poor husband has been suffering through with me but I can only imgaine the stress this puts on my 2 1/2 month old fetus. I'm scared, I feel lonley and next week I am facing the quad marker test (for any birth defects) and I am freaking out due to the medicatoipon that I was/am on. I am attempting to complete the program. A lot of the times I feel relief but sometimes I feel like maybe it makes my anxiety worse... am I crazy???
* Michelle *
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Michelle,
You are NOT crazy. It is JUST anxiety symptoms scaring you. I know it doesn't feel like it, but you are safe. You are safe. That little baby is safe.
There are a million thoughts running around in your mind and that causes your body to tense and react. It's JUST anxiety. Your body doesn't know anything else to do because it's tense. Let it be for now. Just let it race and tense while you gently try to bring yourself to something truthful. Don't force it and try too hard; that's easy to do sometimes.
Pick something like, "I'm safe", "It's just anxiety", etc. I use "Be still, and know that I am God" and I breathe it in and out slowly. You don't have to have a saying; just your breath will work. Your breath is always there so you can rely on it. I try not to do this to make it stop, but to just be gentle and slow down.
I have had a baby and made it through with batches of anxiety, too. I survived and am still improving!
There's a BIG God that's overseeing all of this, Michelle!
You are NOT crazy. It is JUST anxiety symptoms scaring you. I know it doesn't feel like it, but you are safe. You are safe. That little baby is safe.
There are a million thoughts running around in your mind and that causes your body to tense and react. It's JUST anxiety. Your body doesn't know anything else to do because it's tense. Let it be for now. Just let it race and tense while you gently try to bring yourself to something truthful. Don't force it and try too hard; that's easy to do sometimes.
Pick something like, "I'm safe", "It's just anxiety", etc. I use "Be still, and know that I am God" and I breathe it in and out slowly. You don't have to have a saying; just your breath will work. Your breath is always there so you can rely on it. I try not to do this to make it stop, but to just be gentle and slow down.
I have had a baby and made it through with batches of anxiety, too. I survived and am still improving!
There's a BIG God that's overseeing all of this, Michelle!
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I just had a baby 9 months ago! Everything passes. You will get thru this and be stronger for doing it. When you look into you babies eyes and feel pure love you...gawd its all worth it.
I did the birth defects "test" too. Take this with a grain of salt. Honestly, if I had to do it again, I'd OPT not to do it. This isn't really a test but a PROBABILITY. I took it and my daughter had an 1 and 80 chance of having down syndrome. I was terrified. I cried and freaked. But thing is, its your baby. Either you are going to have your baby or not. You cannot predict this and I would never risk having an amnio! My daughter does not have down syndrome.
While being pregnant try to stay focused on taking care of you and preparing for your new baby. Its all you can do. Devote your energy and anxiety to that. Easier said than done but the only advice I have.
Every woman / pregnancy is different, so what if thinking is pointless. Don't waste your time and energy. Just prepare. Live in today and enjoy every little kick. Because no matter how horrible you feel will being pregnant it is such a total blessing.
Good luck and keep us posted.
I did the birth defects "test" too. Take this with a grain of salt. Honestly, if I had to do it again, I'd OPT not to do it. This isn't really a test but a PROBABILITY. I took it and my daughter had an 1 and 80 chance of having down syndrome. I was terrified. I cried and freaked. But thing is, its your baby. Either you are going to have your baby or not. You cannot predict this and I would never risk having an amnio! My daughter does not have down syndrome.
While being pregnant try to stay focused on taking care of you and preparing for your new baby. Its all you can do. Devote your energy and anxiety to that. Easier said than done but the only advice I have.
Every woman / pregnancy is different, so what if thinking is pointless. Don't waste your time and energy. Just prepare. Live in today and enjoy every little kick. Because no matter how horrible you feel will being pregnant it is such a total blessing.
Good luck and keep us posted.