Just need a little sense talked into me please...

mtdeffend · Post by **mtdeffend** » Mon Jan 04, 2010 4:28 am

First of all, My anxiety has been pretty much under control for a long time now. The only time I really have any issues is around PMS time and even that's not that bad. Anyway, I have a doc that prescribes me Zoloft then I just have a counsler that I talk to about my anxiety in the same office. Today I just had my routine every six month check in and getting a new Rx. Well, I was just sitting there and we were going over the routine info and I happened to glanse up at the oomputer monitor and I saw this list of dates and what looked like diagnosises next to them. 2 of them said neurotic disorder and one said like active/ inactive psychosis or something like that. So now I'm freaking out thinking she put this info in for me! Granted, I have never been diagnosed with either of those 2 things, nor had them mentioned to me. I don't even know what neurotic disorder is! My name was no where on the screen. Only at the very top of the screen was my Zoloft Rx info. Other than that there was no info pertaining to me. It just so happens my obsessive thoughts are usually about going crazy so to see that stuff on her desktop while I was in there got me obsessing a little. I keep telling myself " If I had any of those things, they would have told me." "If I was psychotic, I think they would have put me on something a little more than zoloft." lol " "I have no clue how there computer system is set up, those could have been from her patients before me." Or maybe it was something else all together! I have no idea. I know I'm being rediculous but I seem to want to keep obsessing about it so maybe if you guys can talk some sense into me I can forget about it!LOL Ugh, why did I even have to look at that stupid screen???!!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 04, 2010 4:40 am

mtd,

First off, I think its great that you are on Zoloft! It is great to know that you have something out there to help you, doesnt it? It sure does for me. Second, maybe, just maybe that was your info, so what? IF that was yours then it was IN THE PAST! Leave it there! However, I believe that you do have the right to you medical file any time you want. Now I may be wrong on that so someone please correct me if I am. BUT......... If you can why would you? That was then this is now. "It aint nuttin but a thang." leave it alone and think of how far you have come!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 04, 2010 4:42 am

Maybe you should call the doctor's/counselor's office and just ask them straight out what your diagnosis is. You are probably right--as far as I know Zoloft is either for depression or anxiety. Remember, in the program, Lucinda keeps saying that instead of obsessing over something, do something about it.

I don't think you are "going crazy"--sounds like the ugly anxiety and obsessive/negative self talk.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 04, 2010 5:01 am

I did think about just asking outright but figured it was a little silly, because I know I'm prob just over-reacting. Like I said, my name was no where on that screen. Only at the very top it said Zoloft and then she printed that off for my Rx. She had my actual file in her lap and was reading my info from that the whole time. She never looked at the screen to get any information on me. Only to print the Rx. I have been diagnosed already with anxiety/panic with secondary depression. They ever sent a letter to my Primary care Dr. with that info and he read it right in front of me.
In reality, I know that probably was not my info at all. It was probably something else all together. Also, the dates didn't match up at all. I haven't even seen her since May and there were dates from November and August. I really think I just need to chill. I'm letting my anxious thoughts get the best of me.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 04, 2010 5:29 am

Then there you go. You already have the answer!! You already have your diagnosis, so you know what you have. You are NOT losing your mind. I have an M.S. in counseling psychology , although I just used it as a school counselor, but you do have to study about psychosis and you certainly don't hear voices or go into catatonic states. Remember, one of the anxious person's biggest fears is losing he mind, so it is just anxiety. Wildcard and you are right--you just need to chill and get your mind onto positive, epmowering thoughts. You just gave yourself a scare. The holidays put a lot of stress on us and you were probably extra stressed out to begin with. I think you can lay this matter to rest because you have a REAL diagnosis and your fears are NOT real.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 04, 2010 5:39 am

Thank you, I know I'm over-reacting. I have never in my life had any symptoms of psychosis and trust me I know what they are!LOL I've just go alot on my plate right now, and when things get stressful and hectic, my anxiety tends to want to take over for some reason. Not this time though. I'm going to push these thoughts aside and move on. Just another silly scary thought.....