Ok so its 5:00 in the morning and i still haven't slept because there were like 40 ladybugs in my closet and i've killed and sprayed and killed and sprayed until i ran out of bugspray and tried all kinds of stuff and their still there more coming .. haven't slept in my room i'm in the living room on the laptop.. i really hate ladybugs.. they stink too with this nasty yellow crap smelling stuff..
I'm not as worried as the Christmas thing.. I have no money to get anyone anything and that really really bothers me because if they give me a gift i will feel so bad that i didnt get htem anything because i am so poor that the only money i had left was some of my left over bday money i spent on buying my sister something.
i have to celebrate xmas tommorrow with my grandma who lives a few houses down that i could walk there i'm more nervous of spending it wtih my other grandma is at my aunts house in another town.. i'm still afraid of car rides but then again i don't like going over there because there are tons of people that i dont know well and other friends and ppl that i feel really nervous around in a croud and i don't like beign around tons of people... it makes me soo nervous and NOBODY understands and i HATE being pressured to tell me "why are you acting weird" and when i tell them they just roll their eyes or say something like "you need to get out more" you need to get over this " blah blah blah.
I hate it i hate being pressured. I hate it when i like something like lets say i like aliens ok.. if i put on a movie and they look at it their all like "oh why do you like that oh blah blah blah oh you dont need to watch that oh their so ugly why do you like them??"
BECAUSE I JUST DO IT IS ME I AM NOT YOU I CNA'T LIKE THE SAME THIGNS YOU LIKE I CAN'T HELP LIKING IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it makes me want to scream... its like i cant say anything i like or i will be judged or ridiculed for liking it.
I have to put on a show alot and pretend to be this person who likes what THEY like and agrees or else they will judge me or keep talking and talking about why i like it or how i need to not like something.
Its with my clothes too!!! if i dont wear what they wear they will keep doing it doing it doing it.
This is why i dislike going out or being around people. BUT when im around people who don't do that like friends i had until they moved then i am fine because they don't talk 24/7 about how i need to not like something or change my clothes.
This is why i cant be myself. I have so many masks i have to put on to please my family that i cannot be me.. I can be myself with other people and friends but its mostly my family.
So this is the main reason why i feel lost as a person.
Now that i got all of this out i feel a little better..
I hope everyone on here has a merry Christmas and gets through any kind of stress or nervousness that may come and just try to enjoy it the best they can.
Nervous about Christmas
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Hi Lostgirl,
Merry Christmas to you. It got here fast didn't it? It will be over before you know it.
Can you name 3 things you love about Christmas? I know there's got to be at least 3.
Is there any way that you can pretend that the little ladybugs in your closet are aliens? Maybe that way they might not ick you out. I've never heard of so many ladybugs in a closet. Is there a lot of exposed wood in there? We had a little epidemic in this state about ladybugs, but they were after a certain type of tree. So, that is why I'm wondering about the wood in your closet.
I think, if anything, a relative says something to you, the best thing you can do is just laugh it off and say "yup that's me, I LOVE Aliens!" cause you do, right?
I do know what it's like to have people mock me or think that something I'm doing is either trivial, dangerous or just plain ridiculous, but the important thing is that I believe what I'm doing is OKAY for ME. It doesn't matter what THEY think, you are YOU. They don't live with you nor know what it's like to be you.
They see you for a few hours on a holiday, and then it's over, so try your best to enjoy them, enjoy the company, maybe even try to actually be interested in them and what they like or don't like because before you know it, it'll be all over and you'll be back home again.
Happy day to you,
Merry Christmas to you. It got here fast didn't it? It will be over before you know it.
Can you name 3 things you love about Christmas? I know there's got to be at least 3.
Is there any way that you can pretend that the little ladybugs in your closet are aliens? Maybe that way they might not ick you out. I've never heard of so many ladybugs in a closet. Is there a lot of exposed wood in there? We had a little epidemic in this state about ladybugs, but they were after a certain type of tree. So, that is why I'm wondering about the wood in your closet.
I think, if anything, a relative says something to you, the best thing you can do is just laugh it off and say "yup that's me, I LOVE Aliens!" cause you do, right?
I do know what it's like to have people mock me or think that something I'm doing is either trivial, dangerous or just plain ridiculous, but the important thing is that I believe what I'm doing is OKAY for ME. It doesn't matter what THEY think, you are YOU. They don't live with you nor know what it's like to be you.
They see you for a few hours on a holiday, and then it's over, so try your best to enjoy them, enjoy the company, maybe even try to actually be interested in them and what they like or don't like because before you know it, it'll be all over and you'll be back home again.
Happy day to you,
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Hi Lost girl,
I know watcha mean about family and judgment. Don't let them get to you if they judge you if you like alien movies(which are awesome!!) or how you dress or how you act. You don't owe them an explanation for how you are. You are who you are, and it's great : ) If they don't like it, too bad. If they question you on something you like, just tell them "I just like it, why is it you like _______ "(and ask them about a movie or whatever they like. Don't let them get to you. It's Christmas time and it's suppose to be a time of celebration. Don't worry about not getting people gifts. I've given a couple friends something and they didn't give me anything, and I didn't mind at all. I just wanted to give them something, that's what it's about
Don't try to put on a show for anyone, because not only is it exhausting....it's not fun. It will make you feel bad. Just be yourself!
I've pretended to be something I"m not around my family for years. Now I just tell it like it is. When everyone is watching football and I say I hate it, everyone goes "ohhh, you! How can you hate football!" And I just smile and say, I just dont! End of conversation. At least they know who I am now, ya know? It's more than just that, many of things. But I could be on here forever typing to you, haha.
I hope you have an awesome Christmas and make the best of it.
For the car ride, I know you don't like it. Why don't you distract yourself and play a game? Try to spot things that are blue, or find things that begin with a certain letter or something? It might lessen the anxiety. Have a great holiday!!
I know watcha mean about family and judgment. Don't let them get to you if they judge you if you like alien movies(which are awesome!!) or how you dress or how you act. You don't owe them an explanation for how you are. You are who you are, and it's great : ) If they don't like it, too bad. If they question you on something you like, just tell them "I just like it, why is it you like _______ "(and ask them about a movie or whatever they like. Don't let them get to you. It's Christmas time and it's suppose to be a time of celebration. Don't worry about not getting people gifts. I've given a couple friends something and they didn't give me anything, and I didn't mind at all. I just wanted to give them something, that's what it's about
Don't try to put on a show for anyone, because not only is it exhausting....it's not fun. It will make you feel bad. Just be yourself!
I've pretended to be something I"m not around my family for years. Now I just tell it like it is. When everyone is watching football and I say I hate it, everyone goes "ohhh, you! How can you hate football!" And I just smile and say, I just dont! End of conversation. At least they know who I am now, ya know? It's more than just that, many of things. But I could be on here forever typing to you, haha.
I hope you have an awesome Christmas and make the best of it.
For the car ride, I know you don't like it. Why don't you distract yourself and play a game? Try to spot things that are blue, or find things that begin with a certain letter or something? It might lessen the anxiety. Have a great holiday!!
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Originally posted by Shifrah:
Hi Lostgirl,
Merry Christmas to you. It got here fast didn't it? It will be over before you know it.
Can you name 3 things you love about Christmas? I know there's got to be at least 3.
Is there any way that you can pretend that the little ladybugs in your closet are aliens? Maybe that way they might not ick you out. I've never heard of so many ladybugs in a closet. Is there a lot of exposed wood in there? We had a little epidemic in this state about ladybugs, but they were after a certain type of tree. So, that is why I'm wondering about the wood in your closet.
I think, if anything, a relative says something to you, the best thing you can do is just laugh it off and say "yup that's me, I LOVE Aliens!" cause you do, right?
I do know what it's like to have people mock me or think that something I'm doing is either trivial, dangerous or just plain ridiculous, but the important thing is that I believe what I'm doing is OKAY for ME. It doesn't matter what THEY think, you are YOU. They don't live with you nor know what it's like to be you.
They see you for a few hours on a holiday, and then it's over, so try your best to enjoy them, enjoy the company, maybe even try to actually be interested in them and what they like or don't like because before you know it, it'll be all over and you'll be back home again.
Happy day to you,
You made me fall out of my chair laughing so hard when you said pretend that the ladybugs are aliens lol.
I'm not sure where or how they got there but they have been vaccumed up well most of them i have to clean out my closet sometime : /
I hope you enjoy your holday as well!
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Originally posted by aliengal24:
Hi Lost girl,
I know watcha mean about family and judgment. Don't let them get to you if they judge you if you like alien movies(which are awesome!!) or how you dress or how you act. You don't owe them an explanation for how you are. You are who you are, and it's great : ) If they don't like it, too bad. If they question you on something you like, just tell them "I just like it, why is it you like _______ "(and ask them about a movie or whatever they like. Don't let them get to you. It's Christmas time and it's suppose to be a time of celebration. Don't worry about not getting people gifts. I've given a couple friends something and they didn't give me anything, and I didn't mind at all. I just wanted to give them something, that's what it's about
Don't try to put on a show for anyone, because not only is it exhausting....it's not fun. It will make you feel bad. Just be yourself!
I've pretended to be something I"m not around my family for years. Now I just tell it like it is. When everyone is watching football and I say I hate it, everyone goes "ohhh, you! How can you hate football!" And I just smile and say, I just dont! End of conversation. At least they know who I am now, ya know? It's more than just that, many of things. But I could be on here forever typing to you, haha.
I hope you have an awesome Christmas and make the best of it.
For the car ride, I know you don't like it. Why don't you distract yourself and play a game? Try to spot things that are blue, or find things that begin with a certain letter or something? It might lessen the anxiety. Have a great holiday!!
I would love to be like what you just told me. I get so nervous and its hard to be myself when being pressured alot trying not to say something if i like that it might make them complain or question over but i will start trying to be myself a little more. Even if aliens aren't "normal" to obsess about atleast i enjoy watching my stargate atlantis ; )
I actually got out of going out of town and had christmas eve with my grandparents today since the other christmas party out of town there are going to be alot of people there it wasnt a big deal for me to go since i've noticed alot of people are not really caring about having alot of christmas this year and its weird it seems like nobody really cares that much to put lights up or do anything. Have you noticed that around you?
anyways i hope you have a good christmas : ) i like your username !