Sick of panic attacks and weight loss :(

anworley · Post by **anworley** » Sun Oct 11, 2009 12:00 am

I ordered the program Thursday and am waiting for it to arrive. I'm new and scared. I am terrified I will never feel better. I am 23 years old and female and have battled depression since I was 12. My father was an alcoholic who I remember beating my mom. We moved in with my grandparents when I was 2-3. My grandpa passed away when I was 12. I watched him take his last breath.Then my uncle who raised me like a dad died suddenly of a drug overdose when I was 17. graduated with a bachelor's degree last May. I have low self-esteem, and the depression has been very severe for the last year. It seems like the doctors don't really care. I am very small usually weighing in at 106 pounds and 5'2. I got down to 94 pounds and I'm FIGHTING to put weight back on. Our family has fallen apart. I have noone to talk to. Noone understands how scary this anxiety and depression is. My grandma is depressed, as is my mom even though neither will acknowledge it. I have grown up living in denial of my condition because I have had no support. I had a great night with some good friends last night and I have been trying to going out more. I truly didn't feel anxiety so you can imagine my surprise when I woke up this morning in a full out panic attack. I want this to stop. It is ruining my life. I want my life back. Actually I want to start my life. Please tell me this is possible. I want to gain weight, dissolve my panic attacks, and live my life. I am just so scared and lost and alone it seems

I am overwhelmed with my own thoughts.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 11, 2009 2:30 am

Hello there!
I think you will find, in fact I know so, that you are with people here who understand completely what you are experincing. It is sheer unmitigated hell. I well know. I ordered the program on Thursday as well. It has been a year of this for me and I know of no conscious reason, or unconscious for that matter, why it is happening. It is a strange and sinister state of being.
It helps to avoid refined sugar, and pop is a no-no. Avoid alcohol at all costs. It is a very bad depressant. Most people are trying to lose weight and you are trying to gain it. You will!! Lots of protein is a help also.
Hang in there. We will start the program next week, meanwhile did you order the mini-series that is offered by Lucinda Bassett?? I did and I devour it. It does help. Give that a go while you are waiting. No use wasting time. I think you, with your state of mind now, need something to get you through until your program arrives. Check it out if you have not already.
Hope this helps. Keep in touch OK? We will do it together, all of us.

'God grant me the serentiy to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference'--That is my daily or hourly sometimes, Mantra.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 11, 2009 11:03 am

I'm glad you ordered the program. It is a very positive step in the right direction. You can join the peer support group and visit the chatroom now. People here are very helpful and concerned. Welcome.

SCDon

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 11, 2009 12:07 pm

My name is Etta Blair and I ordered the program about a month ago. I don't have the problem of weight loss (but I can relate from years ago) but I do have problems with panic attacks, and I am not a fan of panic attacks at all. I am progressing very slowly. I think this program will help you. I think the program will help you. Just hang in there. Lots of love to you and your family. Etta

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 11, 2009 3:12 pm

I know where you're coming from with the panic attacks just coming out of no where. I'[ll have a perfectly good day or evening and wake up with a full panic attack which seems out of the blue. But, you're taking the right step in joining this forum and getting support. Even though your family may not overtly support you, others here will. I also feel at times that my life is on hold while I try to deal with my anxiety and depression, but I am being told by professionals that the best thing to do is try to keep living your life as you seem to be doing rather than waiting till you're better to start your life. There is no better time to start than the present. If you're still waiting for the tapes to come, I suggest going to the bookstore to get a book on anxiety/depression. I went to Barnes & Noble and picked up a great work book on the topic and it could really validate your feelings and give you some hope right now!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 11, 2009 5:20 pm

anworley, I am sooooo sorry that you are feeling soooo lonely and depressed!!!

I was agoraphobic and suffered from anxiety, panic attacks and depression for 21 years of my life!!!

Thanks be to God and the program...I can say that I know longer have panic attacks or am agoraphobic!!!

Hang in there!!! Do the program!!! You are going to be just fine!!! I will be praying for you!!!

Have a great night's rest, knowing you are all warm and safe sheltered beneath the wings of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Oct 12, 2009 4:58 am

hi i am hopeing this works because i am scared this will never change.i want to feel better for me and my son. He is such a good kid and deserves a good home

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Oct 12, 2009 12:53 pm

Hi I just ordered this program. Not sure if it is going to work and I am scared that it wont. I have lost 23 pounds over the last month due to the fact that I can not eat. there is a lot going on but chose not to talk about it. thanks

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Oct 14, 2009 5:56 am

Thanks to all you!!!! Words cannot express the hope and motivation I feel from your messages! Thanks to all who are keeping myself in your prayers. I will do the same for you. Thanks again. I look forward to getting better. GOD bless!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Oct 14, 2009 12:12 pm

Hi again, this is Etta again. I had circumstances pertaining to my weight loss also. I lost from a size 10 to a size 4 in about a month. But, eventually I got better. It wasn't easy. I made myself ate just small amounts and worked myself up. I was so bad that trying to eat made me sick. Please just try working this program. The program isn't easy for me. But, I was at a place I had to do something. My weight loss problem was about 20 yrs ago. My problem is anxeity, panic attacks and fibromyalgia. So, hang in there & good luck. Etta