Marie,
Your english is great.
I would like to recommend a book by Lee Baer
"The Imp of the Mind" that helped me deal with my scary thoughts. You are not alone.
I attended an Obessive Compulsive Foundation conference in Boston this summer. The newest research seems to suggest that the more you try to fight a scary thought, the stronger it becomes. It loses it's power if you just let it flow in and out of your mind. Some therapists are having their patients say the scary thought on a tape and having them listen to it over and over again. The brain actually gets bored with it, and the scary thought loses its power.
I wish you the best.
Scary thoughts about hurting my kids or myself
Alexmama,
This "habit" of scaring our selves is amazingly more common then you think. It seems like you are all alone in your fears and they occupy your every moment. Everyone here in this forum can relate to you and has been exactly where you are.
I want you to feel the comfort in knowing that the symptoms you are dealing with are very very common. The founder of this company Lucinda has experienced the exact same symptoms that you describe.
It doesn't mean you have a mental disease, it doesn't mean you are a bad person, it means you are a very sensitive person who like the rest of us escaped a very scary situation by become afraid of the most scary thing possible.
The fear of harming loved ones is a big fear for anybody. For us with Pure "O", we are very sensitive to all things especially the harming others fear. Why are we so afraid? Because it is unconceivable to us because we are loving and so amazingly caring individuals.
The earth quake you described is very scary and brought out real intense fear. In order to cover up that intense fear, you created the ultimate fear. It sort of covers up the earth quake fear. When I was very young, I used to think of things at night when the lights went off to try to make me feel "safe" when i went to bed. I developed a "habit" that gave me enough comfort to get myself to sleep. This "habit" I used most of my life to keep me safe. I would walk home from school in the dark repeating safe statements in my mind. Little did I know i was developing the habit that would eventually scare myself. However, like any habit, it can be broken. I encourage you to think of these fears as a bad habit because that's what they truly are.
Also, take the time and spend time with yourself. Get absorbed into a hobby like photography etc. It will help reduce the time thinking in the "habit".
You will feel better soon! You are among friends here.
Zoe
This "habit" of scaring our selves is amazingly more common then you think. It seems like you are all alone in your fears and they occupy your every moment. Everyone here in this forum can relate to you and has been exactly where you are.
I want you to feel the comfort in knowing that the symptoms you are dealing with are very very common. The founder of this company Lucinda has experienced the exact same symptoms that you describe.
It doesn't mean you have a mental disease, it doesn't mean you are a bad person, it means you are a very sensitive person who like the rest of us escaped a very scary situation by become afraid of the most scary thing possible.
The fear of harming loved ones is a big fear for anybody. For us with Pure "O", we are very sensitive to all things especially the harming others fear. Why are we so afraid? Because it is unconceivable to us because we are loving and so amazingly caring individuals.
The earth quake you described is very scary and brought out real intense fear. In order to cover up that intense fear, you created the ultimate fear. It sort of covers up the earth quake fear. When I was very young, I used to think of things at night when the lights went off to try to make me feel "safe" when i went to bed. I developed a "habit" that gave me enough comfort to get myself to sleep. This "habit" I used most of my life to keep me safe. I would walk home from school in the dark repeating safe statements in my mind. Little did I know i was developing the habit that would eventually scare myself. However, like any habit, it can be broken. I encourage you to think of these fears as a bad habit because that's what they truly are.
Also, take the time and spend time with yourself. Get absorbed into a hobby like photography etc. It will help reduce the time thinking in the "habit".
You will feel better soon! You are among friends here.
Zoe
zoe i totally agree with you. the fears of hurting others and other scary thoughts are just bad habits that have started because when you have those thoughts about a loved one it hurts your so bad that you had them then you start questioning why and then it just turned into habit of wondering why and then just keeps in your mind. it will ease up i promise mine has and somedays i don't have any and others i have some and i do get scared but then i say oh yeah let it go it is just my anxiety and then i can side track myself to something else.