ok for most of u already know, that i was non stop with symptoms..literally one right after another, and i took most of your guy's advice. im move active physically, which gets me motivated to lose weight, also, i went to the grocery store today, which its not cheap to be healthy, by the way!, anyhow, i spent a pretty penny to my health, and for a minute, i was anxious, and found myself shaking, and felt dizzy, thats when i noticed i was being cheap & i didnt want to spend my money, i didnt want to spend that much on that item, but i calmed down, and stepped aside and closed my eyes & said to myself " u have the money, and this is what u need to live a very healthy life" so i bit my tongue, and got all that i needed, i was nervous, when i got the the check out, but after i left, i felt so much better, cause i knew i did something great for myself.
my point is, it took me awhile to take ur guy's advice, by eating right, and exercising, and doing my journal consistantly, and saying positive affirmations, but now that im trying harder, lil by lil. i noticed my attitude, is much better, and my outlook on life, is more positive. dont get me wrong, i still doubt myself, and still wonder the "what if's", but this week has been good to me. and i just wanted to say Thank you to all of you, who's encouraged me to continue, and stay focused and walked me through this process.
thanks again,
a lil thank you
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Good for you Angela! You are supposed to be the most important person in your life and what better way to show it than taking care of your body? You take care of others when they need help, why not do that for yourself. Angela you are worthy of care and you deserve to be taken care of.
Angela, exercize helps so much but eating right will put you "over the top" when it comes to your health, so think of this as an investment in you and your health. That makes the money "well spent".
DeeDee
Angela, exercize helps so much but eating right will put you "over the top" when it comes to your health, so think of this as an investment in you and your health. That makes the money "well spent".
DeeDee
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Dear Angela:
Good for you - taking steps in the right direction. Remember, 1 day @ a time: this way, you won't overwhelm yourself.
When I read your post this morning, I laughed - because I tell my hubby the same thing you said <span class="ev_code_RED">EATING HEALTHY IS EXPENSIVE</span>! It's true. LOL - the fruits & veggies we consume in 1 WEEK ALONE = apprx $50 + - & that don't include anything else, lol. Then, you add the lean meats/poultry + dairy + grains + beans(legumes) - then add WATER- I'm drinking so much water, I'M GROWING FINS! lol.
Seriously, the best investment you will make in your lifetime ANGELA - IS YOURSELF - so, whatever that quires - is always MONEY WELL SPENT.
The way I see it, meaning the way I RESOLVED IT ALL is this: I am a grown woman - 39 yrs old (hey, I'm gonna 40 on Aug 15, so we just have to have a CYBER PARTY - w/ a few CHEAT FOODS, LOL) - I am responsible for me. That RESPONSIBILITY encompasses: mental + emotional + physical + spiritual WELL BEING. If I wanted to feel better OVERALL - I had to do something about it. If something wasn't quite working right - I had to fix it: not him/her/them, etc -ME. Sure, when anxiety disorder 1st went dwn 3 yrs ago - girl, lost & petrified just would not even begin to describe me & my state. 3 years later, now recovered & much more well informed, I know there are things I need to do to TAKE CARE OF ME & there are things I CAN DO to have me feeling SOUND/WHOLE/PEACEFUL/CALM/ALIVE.
I worked DARN HARD during the past 3 yrs - I need to maintain it. These things include: eating healthy, exercising/being more physically active opposed to being a couch potato 24/7, taking vitamins(w/ bio-family genetics in consideration, I take every day: <span class="ev_code_RED">multi vitamin + vitamin E + vitamin b12 + flaxseed gel oil tablets + fish oil(omega) tablets + metamucil(for the fiber) </span>), having ME TIME everyday = relaxation or meditation session, IMPLEMENTING the SKILLS of the PROGRAM everyday of my life - so its becoming A WAY OF LIFE, laughing(fr the belly till it hurts), loving(hubby, our family, & friends) + making new friends = SURROUNDING MYSELF W/ POSITIVE PEOPLE. ANGELA, I have learned: If I give my body/mind/soul/spirit good stuff(eating, drinking, thinking, feeling, etc) = basically taking care of my body/mind/soul/spirit, then THEY WILL GIVE GOOD STUFF BACK TO ME.
Keep up the good work, I think you're doing A FANTASTIC JOB!
LENORE
Good for you - taking steps in the right direction. Remember, 1 day @ a time: this way, you won't overwhelm yourself.
When I read your post this morning, I laughed - because I tell my hubby the same thing you said <span class="ev_code_RED">EATING HEALTHY IS EXPENSIVE</span>! It's true. LOL - the fruits & veggies we consume in 1 WEEK ALONE = apprx $50 + - & that don't include anything else, lol. Then, you add the lean meats/poultry + dairy + grains + beans(legumes) - then add WATER- I'm drinking so much water, I'M GROWING FINS! lol.
Seriously, the best investment you will make in your lifetime ANGELA - IS YOURSELF - so, whatever that quires - is always MONEY WELL SPENT.
The way I see it, meaning the way I RESOLVED IT ALL is this: I am a grown woman - 39 yrs old (hey, I'm gonna 40 on Aug 15, so we just have to have a CYBER PARTY - w/ a few CHEAT FOODS, LOL) - I am responsible for me. That RESPONSIBILITY encompasses: mental + emotional + physical + spiritual WELL BEING. If I wanted to feel better OVERALL - I had to do something about it. If something wasn't quite working right - I had to fix it: not him/her/them, etc -ME. Sure, when anxiety disorder 1st went dwn 3 yrs ago - girl, lost & petrified just would not even begin to describe me & my state. 3 years later, now recovered & much more well informed, I know there are things I need to do to TAKE CARE OF ME & there are things I CAN DO to have me feeling SOUND/WHOLE/PEACEFUL/CALM/ALIVE.
I worked DARN HARD during the past 3 yrs - I need to maintain it. These things include: eating healthy, exercising/being more physically active opposed to being a couch potato 24/7, taking vitamins(w/ bio-family genetics in consideration, I take every day: <span class="ev_code_RED">multi vitamin + vitamin E + vitamin b12 + flaxseed gel oil tablets + fish oil(omega) tablets + metamucil(for the fiber) </span>), having ME TIME everyday = relaxation or meditation session, IMPLEMENTING the SKILLS of the PROGRAM everyday of my life - so its becoming A WAY OF LIFE, laughing(fr the belly till it hurts), loving(hubby, our family, & friends) + making new friends = SURROUNDING MYSELF W/ POSITIVE PEOPLE. ANGELA, I have learned: If I give my body/mind/soul/spirit good stuff(eating, drinking, thinking, feeling, etc) = basically taking care of my body/mind/soul/spirit, then THEY WILL GIVE GOOD STUFF BACK TO ME.
Keep up the good work, I think you're doing A FANTASTIC JOB!
LENORE
deedee, thank you for your post, and i am starting to feel myself worth. and ur right, i do deserve to be taken care of and putting myself first. thank you...
Lenore, OMG! you are a very inspirational individual. very motivating and very encouragable. it was the hardest thing to grasp" putting myself first" so many years i thought i had. but i was so wrong. i thought in the back of my mind, that i did have a healthy lifestyle. but i was so far from it. i never exercised, told myself positive affirmations, let alone believed anything great about myself and i love my lord, i just did practice my spirituality before.
but u are so right on the money, when u have ur health, mentally, physically, spiritualy, in line, basically taking care of myself,i do feel good about myself. im starting to realize, the only person that can change me, is ME! i was always quick to everyones needs, and i knew everything there is to know about having a healthy lifestyle, but i didnt know how to take my own advice. until my anxiety (second time around) kicked in. you know so much about nutrition? why is that? have u always known, or was it due to the program. anyhow, thank you so much lenore, i really truly mean that. u definetly have inspired me to continue on my new journey, and regain focus on Me Time...thanks
Lenore, OMG! you are a very inspirational individual. very motivating and very encouragable. it was the hardest thing to grasp" putting myself first" so many years i thought i had. but i was so wrong. i thought in the back of my mind, that i did have a healthy lifestyle. but i was so far from it. i never exercised, told myself positive affirmations, let alone believed anything great about myself and i love my lord, i just did practice my spirituality before.
but u are so right on the money, when u have ur health, mentally, physically, spiritualy, in line, basically taking care of myself,i do feel good about myself. im starting to realize, the only person that can change me, is ME! i was always quick to everyones needs, and i knew everything there is to know about having a healthy lifestyle, but i didnt know how to take my own advice. until my anxiety (second time around) kicked in. you know so much about nutrition? why is that? have u always known, or was it due to the program. anyhow, thank you so much lenore, i really truly mean that. u definetly have inspired me to continue on my new journey, and regain focus on Me Time...thanks
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That's so great to hear Angela Chriss! YOU are the most important person in your life and you need to treat yourself and do right by yourself. I've learned that it really is all about attitude. This coupled with how we react to those things that happen to us is where we'll find balance. This path that we're on is a long and arduous one and be grateful for everything you have today. We're in this together....continued health...
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Awesome! You caught yourself and knew how to calm yourself! GREAT JOB!and for a minute, i was anxious, and found myself shaking, and felt dizzy, thats when i noticed i was being cheap & i didnt want to spend my money, i didnt want to spend that much on that item, but i calmed down, and stepped aside and closed my eyes & said to myself " u have the money, and this is what u need to live a very healthy life" so i bit my tongue, and got all that i needed, i was nervous, when i got the the check out, but after i left, i felt so much better, cause i knew i did something great for myself.
If you keep doing this, WHOOOOOAAAA! Just THINK all the things you will accomplish in the next several weeks and months! Keep doing what you are doing! It is WORKING!!!!
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Dear ANGELA:
Wow, ty so much for the lovely compliments. You all inspire me everyday - to continue this journey - to courageously continue to change/grow/evolve. You & the rest here at StressCenter.com are sincerely some of the greatest group of people. It is thru reading your postings & knowing y'all taking your own journey's, that it becomes food my own soul & spirit.
NUTRITION: I've been reading up on it for several yrs now - here & there
- long b/4 anxiety disorder triggered. Genetically, fr what I know of & on both sides (mother & fathers)I am pre-disposed to : high cholesterol, heart disease, & stroke. I am married 10 yrs to an Italian man - motto of family "ya gotta eat" lol - I got married, comfortable, & food became an extracurricular. Apprx 7 yrs ago, not quite at my heaviest, I got a physical: blood & urine tests. My cholesterol levels were quite high. Med's weren't recommended - rather, an appt was made for me & nutrionist. This lady/nutritionist had a long talk w/ me about cholesterol, nutrition, foods over-all & particularly those condusive to reducing cholesterol levels, etc. I was given a bunch of literature fr the Amer Heart Assoc - I WENT HOME. I read all the info & did more research: on line & in the library: foods + food groups - particularly those condusive to lowering cholesterol + exercising, etc. I then set out to implement those things in my life. I was able to lower my cholesterol on my own. However, while I had all this great knowledge - I wasn't CONSISTENT w/ it & I got lazy w/ maintaining it & got comfortable. Fast forward to 3 yrs ago, 2005: ANXIETY DISORDER TRIGGERED. I had gotten another physical apprx 1 yr after anxiety disorder triggered: my cholesterol was the highest it has ever been: induced greatly by what I was eating & lack of exercise - however & very important, it was also induced by stress levels. My dr didn't want to give me meds cause I was still relatively young - only 37 apprx @ the time. However, because of the severe state of my anxiety - she recommended meds for the cholesterol. You see, I was not in the position to focus & give it my all on my own(eating well & exercising) - so, while I recovered, I agreed to go on a cholesterol med. They lowered the #'s. The more I recovered - the more knowledge I obtained. W/ the aid of my own research on anxiety disorder & Lucinda's program, I was able to start implementing EATING HEALTHY & EXERCISING into my life. Initially, the intent was for anxiety levels. As I recovered even further - my ABILITY to focus & address things OVERALL were increased - this included my cholesterol = eating/nutrition/exercising. I had stopped taking the cholesterol med, under my dr's direction - cause of a side effect that had come about - this happened as I had made the changes in diet & exercise(cause of anxiety disorder)-2 mths later, my dr ran tests again. ANGELA, YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED? On my own, w/ darn hard work, committment to a healthier way of living, & consistency - I LOWERED MY CHOLESTEROL #'S on my own(w/o meds) 100 points - YES. LOL, she goes "keep doing what you're doing". So, you see Angela - I had the knowledge UP HERE(my brain) - I just didn't alway maintain it & got lazy. Then, when anxiety hit @ its worst, I couldn't do it on my own. NOW I CAN
See Angela, that's what I was meaning w/ taking personal accountability & reponsibility for self: <span class="ev_code_RED">mentally/emotionally/physically/spiritually</span> ! All things included, no wonder I wasn't feeling good. No, I'm not beating myself up - I love me too much, lol - just OWNING IT REALLY. How could I possibly expect to feel well, if I was: overeating all the wrong foods & in quantities way over what I should have been doing + not exercising @ all + not taking vitamins + suppressing all the emotions(pain/anger/fear/lack of forgiveness/resentment) + maintaining for yrs(30 yrs)-a series of negative & bad LEARNED BEHAVIORS + having experienced what I had in yrs gone by - w/o the chance or opportunity to HEAL(emotionally) + never having coping skills for my emotions & life skills + surrounding myself w/ neg people(a fact not realized till Lucinda's program & my journey to recovery).
Angela, I'm being honest here. It was like Caroline said in the program - I KNEW IT MENTALLY - but it wasn't until the last 8 mths that I was able to realize ALL THESE FACTS emotionally. I connected the dots & had a major A-HA MOMENT(my fave OPRAH). When I had this gift of a moment, it was then I was able to realize as I told ya: if I want to feel good - it is my responsibility, not him/her/them - MINE. I realized there are things I need to do/actions needed to be taken (dietary intake, exercise, mental & emotional changes & maintanance of those changes) for me to feel good & I HAD TO TAKE THOSE ACTIONS - I HAD TO DO IT. I couldn't possibly eat crap, not exercise, maintain those series of bad learned behaviors, continue surpressing emotions, maintain such a negative vibe in my actions/thinking/reactions/soul/spirit & EXPECT TO FEEL GOOD + WHOLE + CALM + CERTAIN + SURE + PEACEFUL + HEALTHY(physically/mentally/emotionally/spiritually)+ loving myself - it just won't happen. All those positve feelings & attributes are not going to happen on their own. That is what I realized - that recovery fr anxiety disorder emcompasses many things & it is I that need to learn them & maintain them. LOL, I honestly feel like for the 1st time in my life - I am gaining EMOTIONAL MATURITY.
Angela - I think you are doing such a great job - honest. I see positive vibes fr you & courage - KEEP GOING & DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING. Remember, 1 day @ a time. Nutrional info can be obtained on line or in library - loadssssss of information. You could even speak to your regular dr about seeing a nutritionist yourself & get food info overall & as it relates to anxiety disorder - just some possibilities & options sweetie.
Enjoy your day.
LENORE
Wow, ty so much for the lovely compliments. You all inspire me everyday - to continue this journey - to courageously continue to change/grow/evolve. You & the rest here at StressCenter.com are sincerely some of the greatest group of people. It is thru reading your postings & knowing y'all taking your own journey's, that it becomes food my own soul & spirit.
NUTRITION: I've been reading up on it for several yrs now - here & there
- long b/4 anxiety disorder triggered. Genetically, fr what I know of & on both sides (mother & fathers)I am pre-disposed to : high cholesterol, heart disease, & stroke. I am married 10 yrs to an Italian man - motto of family "ya gotta eat" lol - I got married, comfortable, & food became an extracurricular. Apprx 7 yrs ago, not quite at my heaviest, I got a physical: blood & urine tests. My cholesterol levels were quite high. Med's weren't recommended - rather, an appt was made for me & nutrionist. This lady/nutritionist had a long talk w/ me about cholesterol, nutrition, foods over-all & particularly those condusive to reducing cholesterol levels, etc. I was given a bunch of literature fr the Amer Heart Assoc - I WENT HOME. I read all the info & did more research: on line & in the library: foods + food groups - particularly those condusive to lowering cholesterol + exercising, etc. I then set out to implement those things in my life. I was able to lower my cholesterol on my own. However, while I had all this great knowledge - I wasn't CONSISTENT w/ it & I got lazy w/ maintaining it & got comfortable. Fast forward to 3 yrs ago, 2005: ANXIETY DISORDER TRIGGERED. I had gotten another physical apprx 1 yr after anxiety disorder triggered: my cholesterol was the highest it has ever been: induced greatly by what I was eating & lack of exercise - however & very important, it was also induced by stress levels. My dr didn't want to give me meds cause I was still relatively young - only 37 apprx @ the time. However, because of the severe state of my anxiety - she recommended meds for the cholesterol. You see, I was not in the position to focus & give it my all on my own(eating well & exercising) - so, while I recovered, I agreed to go on a cholesterol med. They lowered the #'s. The more I recovered - the more knowledge I obtained. W/ the aid of my own research on anxiety disorder & Lucinda's program, I was able to start implementing EATING HEALTHY & EXERCISING into my life. Initially, the intent was for anxiety levels. As I recovered even further - my ABILITY to focus & address things OVERALL were increased - this included my cholesterol = eating/nutrition/exercising. I had stopped taking the cholesterol med, under my dr's direction - cause of a side effect that had come about - this happened as I had made the changes in diet & exercise(cause of anxiety disorder)-2 mths later, my dr ran tests again. ANGELA, YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED? On my own, w/ darn hard work, committment to a healthier way of living, & consistency - I LOWERED MY CHOLESTEROL #'S on my own(w/o meds) 100 points - YES. LOL, she goes "keep doing what you're doing". So, you see Angela - I had the knowledge UP HERE(my brain) - I just didn't alway maintain it & got lazy. Then, when anxiety hit @ its worst, I couldn't do it on my own. NOW I CAN See Angela, that's what I was meaning w/ taking personal accountability & reponsibility for self: <span class="ev_code_RED">mentally/emotionally/physically/spiritually</span> ! All things included, no wonder I wasn't feeling good. No, I'm not beating myself up - I love me too much, lol - just OWNING IT REALLY. How could I possibly expect to feel well, if I was: overeating all the wrong foods & in quantities way over what I should have been doing + not exercising @ all + not taking vitamins + suppressing all the emotions(pain/anger/fear/lack of forgiveness/resentment) + maintaining for yrs(30 yrs)-a series of negative & bad LEARNED BEHAVIORS + having experienced what I had in yrs gone by - w/o the chance or opportunity to HEAL(emotionally) + never having coping skills for my emotions & life skills + surrounding myself w/ neg people(a fact not realized till Lucinda's program & my journey to recovery).
Angela, I'm being honest here. It was like Caroline said in the program - I KNEW IT MENTALLY - but it wasn't until the last 8 mths that I was able to realize ALL THESE FACTS emotionally. I connected the dots & had a major A-HA MOMENT(my fave OPRAH). When I had this gift of a moment, it was then I was able to realize as I told ya: if I want to feel good - it is my responsibility, not him/her/them - MINE. I realized there are things I need to do/actions needed to be taken (dietary intake, exercise, mental & emotional changes & maintanance of those changes) for me to feel good & I HAD TO TAKE THOSE ACTIONS - I HAD TO DO IT. I couldn't possibly eat crap, not exercise, maintain those series of bad learned behaviors, continue surpressing emotions, maintain such a negative vibe in my actions/thinking/reactions/soul/spirit & EXPECT TO FEEL GOOD + WHOLE + CALM + CERTAIN + SURE + PEACEFUL + HEALTHY(physically/mentally/emotionally/spiritually)+ loving myself - it just won't happen. All those positve feelings & attributes are not going to happen on their own. That is what I realized - that recovery fr anxiety disorder emcompasses many things & it is I that need to learn them & maintain them. LOL, I honestly feel like for the 1st time in my life - I am gaining EMOTIONAL MATURITY.
Angela - I think you are doing such a great job - honest. I see positive vibes fr you & courage - KEEP GOING & DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING. Remember, 1 day @ a time. Nutrional info can be obtained on line or in library - loadssssss of information. You could even speak to your regular dr about seeing a nutritionist yourself & get food info overall & as it relates to anxiety disorder - just some possibilities & options sweetie.
Enjoy your day.
LENORE
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WOW! lenore,
thank you so much for sharing yoursef with me. and your right, i didnt care about myself, i did not want to take responsability for me being unhappy and unhealthy. and now is the time. i learned that i do have to put myself first. mentally, physically, & spiritually. i love to read about nutrition, yet, it doesnt stick. its like "easier said than done". but like u, u also said, it was always up there, its just now ur actually using it. i too am ready to feel like u, and to be happy with myself. and be happy with whom i've become. i am just now starting to learn to take it one day at a time. and not kick myself every chance i get. it is a working process. and my biggest challenge now is PATIENCE. but thanks to you, cause ur postings always, ALWAYS, make me feel so much better. i will definetly keep all the possabiities in mind, actually i love oprah, and LOVE Dr. Oz.. with <A HREF="http://www.realage.com" TARGET=_blank>www.realage.com</A> is my fav website.
thanks again Lenore. i appreciate you so much, i hope u know that. take care.
thank you so much for sharing yoursef with me. and your right, i didnt care about myself, i did not want to take responsability for me being unhappy and unhealthy. and now is the time. i learned that i do have to put myself first. mentally, physically, & spiritually. i love to read about nutrition, yet, it doesnt stick. its like "easier said than done". but like u, u also said, it was always up there, its just now ur actually using it. i too am ready to feel like u, and to be happy with myself. and be happy with whom i've become. i am just now starting to learn to take it one day at a time. and not kick myself every chance i get. it is a working process. and my biggest challenge now is PATIENCE. but thanks to you, cause ur postings always, ALWAYS, make me feel so much better. i will definetly keep all the possabiities in mind, actually i love oprah, and LOVE Dr. Oz.. with <A HREF="http://www.realage.com" TARGET=_blank>www.realage.com</A> is my fav website.
thanks again Lenore. i appreciate you so much, i hope u know that. take care.