spaceyness/unreal feeling... im sure its not anxiety what do u think ?

[besos]

hello to you all, i hope you are well

this is a Q about unreal feelings/derealization. i am 22 now and first got these symptoms when i was 17. it was about a year after my grandmother suddenly died (i was very close to her) .. i began to feel like i had the flu, had a headache round the eyes and just felt weird and ill! this resulted in me becoming addicted to binge eating and getting fat, thus creating a seemingly endless routine of grief and self hatred.

years later, i have accepted her death but am now 8 stone overweight and hate it. i still have the spaceyness, tiredness and tensionheadaches but now have absolute exhaustion and more depression (but i am doing the programme and am at weight watchers so everything is looking up )

my question is, is it possible i had a delayed reaction of grief to my grandmother's death? i remember being ok a couple of months after but then hit me like a ton of bricks how much my family had changed. i am doing everything in m power to get healthy and get happy but want this spaceyness to go. this health clinic i desperatly went to said it is 100% candida overgrowth causing my symptoms .. not anxiety but i have since been to an eating disorder clinic who say it is just anxiety. i am losing weight by eating food like bread and mushrooms but i am so scared i have candida and am making it worse cause i wanna feel better!! doing the candida diet left me poor and stressed!!!

does this sound like it is all anxiety to you?

many thanks

besos x

p.s. i would describe it as feeling stoned/drunk... feeling like theres cotton wool in front of my eyes, my eyes being heavy and pressure, slighty dizziness, slow and dopey

thanks x

[deb 3]

Dear besos, The flu like symptoms sound like anxiety to me, i especially get the droopy dopey and glazed eyes, my family can always see it. It is great you are doing the program and weight watchers to, i am also doing both. I highly doubt you are having a reaction to your grandmothers death, i think just everyday life is making you anxious. Sounds like you are on the right path, i would suggest eating more fruits and vegetables, as yukky as that may be haha. And i find taking a calcium supplement with minerals and vitamin c really helps. Give yourself some slack and take life slow, even your movements, slow down everything you do and you will relax. Oh and try to excersize, as yukky as that may sound, i found these old exersize vhs tapes, yoga, abs and pilates, even using something 10 minutes 2 times a day will build your stamina, after a few days you will really notice it. Well hope this all helps, i will pray that God will give you much strengh and that you will feel better very soon, ask for strengh on your own behalf each night also. Have a wonderful weekend!!

[Barbara U. Cherish]

Dear besos,
Everyone reacts differently to death. I lost my daughter aged 42 in Dec. 2006. I have had anxiety/panic attacks intermittantly for over 30 years when going through stressful episodes during my life...but when she died it became worse and that's the reason I'm doing this program.

It's already helped quite a bit. I understand the spacey feelings...I believe it is from depression. They don't seem to last as long now and the Anxiety/panic I can control with the 6 steps. Excercise is great too. I understand that candida can give you some bad mental problems like depression etc. but yogurt and acidophillus also garlic tabs like Garlique can keep it under control.

Hope you feel better soon!

Barbara U. Cherish

[Kayli C.]

I get really spacy too sometimes. I think that it is my body's way of dealing with deaths, or in my case, my grandpa molesting me. or maybe its something to do with not wanting to deal with the trauma in our lives? IDK, but I hope that you figure it out!

[Sylvia T.]

Ok- this may be totally out of left field, but I get that spacey, dizzy feeling when my sinuses are plugged. I have allergies, and have had for many years, and whenever the allergies start to get worse my sinuses are the first to react. I have learned this is actually a good thing, because if I look after it right away I can usually (not always) head off an asthma attack. Other than that, yes anxiety/panic attacks certainly can also feel the same way - which is why I get a panic attack when I feel an allergy attack coming on as well. One seems to feed on the other. Ughhhhhhhh.

Anyway, stay with the program. I find it is really helping me and I am so looking forward to the day when I don't have the panic any more and I know that the nose spray is going to do the trick.