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by honeydew3 » Sun Jan 06, 2008 5:35 am
Good morning! I am new to this forum and am also waiting for my special "package" to come in the mail. I almost didn't order it because I didn't think I could afford it, but I have a feeling the investment with be more than worthwhile. I too have struggled with panic attacks/anxiety/depression off and on through most of my life. Although, I did not know what was wrong with me until 16 years ago when while at a family get together I was hit by one of the most fierce panic attacks I had ever had. I was so scared I just wanted to stay away from everyone an fhide, which I now know is a big mistake. Anyways, I went to my dr and after about a month of suffering she prescribed me Xanax and Prozac. The meds helped after I finally convinced myself to take them. I worked and still do work in a pharmacy and know the stigma attached to people on psych meds. I went to therapry and eventually felt better, I thought I was cured. I was wrong. In the years in between then and now I have had a few more bouts and have always come out of them, a little shaky but I thought I had it beat. Now, once again here I am with all the classic symptoms and I am once again asking, why...why me...why now? I have read Lucinda's book "From Panic to Power" and I recommend it as a step towards recovery. I still have many, many questions that I need to have answered...like when I am having a "good" day why does it feel so strange and if I decide to let myself enjoy it, why do I fear I am bipolar? Do I have to focus on the main issue all the time until I can find and answer? Or, can I give myself permission to take time off and read another kind of book, or zone out in front of the TV? I have a therapist again, but he is not very available to me so these questions roll around mt head until my next appointment. Any suggestions? I am ever so glad I found this place...I feel more hopeful than I have in a while. : )