Absolutely New and I am Scared and Angry

[butterflywings01]

Hi Everyone!

Its taken me a few times to listen to the 1st session and even longer to get me in here. Today is a great day for this. I am angry, scared and feeling so vulnerable about getting through all of this. I hear it is normal, but I know that somewhere near me, I am hoping this will be worth it in the long run. If anyone has some words of wisdom, I would sure like to hear!

Thanks again,

Butterflywings01

[praying4sun]

Hi Butterflywings01. I am absolutely new too.

I am sorry to hear about your day, that really sucks I know- I have had those feelings for so long now. I am happy to say today was a good day for me! (be genuine happy for me it will make you feel good). What has really helped me on session 1 guidebook is to go into "observer mode." I wrote down all my negative thoughts for one week- than i turned each one to a positive one. Now that I focused one week on my inner negativity, I am now practicing on turning my thoughts into positive, comforting, kind thoughts. Guess what??? Today I did that and it made my day less anxious My gut tells me this program is going to work if you work it, and you are working it b/c you are here!

I don't have words of wisdom, but I did come across this quote in one of my other support groups:

"Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with ilumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as fuel, as a reminder of your strenght"-Auguest Wilson

Last, this is a big deal for me to comment b/c i get anxious talking/writting to people because i feel like everything i say/do is stupid lol what a positive thinker i am

[Nelson Project]

I would first like to welcome both of you to the family of friends here. I know you may not feel it yet, but you have taken the first steps to the whole new you. I will admitt that I had alot of reservations when I first got the program, but I will tell you now that it has changed my life. The most important thing to remember is that you deserve to feel better, and you are entitled to it. We will all have bad days, and be anxious from time to time, but just remember that it is a normal part of life, our bodies just respond to it in a different way.

I encourage you to be active in program, and to come here for support. The online chat is a great way to meet others in the same situation, and you can be an encouragement as well. This is not a quick fix by any means, but it is a process that has worked for many, and will work for you. I wish you the best in your journey to the new you.

I still try to come in as often as possible to support others, I know it meant alot to me when I started. You will be able to do the same one day. Be blessed and keep smiling.

[FindingHope65]

Hi Butterflywings,
no real words of wisdom here, but i wanted to let you know that i feel the same way that you do. it's scary to start a new program such as this. but i think if we really work the program, it can change our lives. best of luck to you.

[Paisleegreen]

Hi Butterfly wings! Welcome! This website really helped me when I first began my journey to heal from anxiety. Which I didn't know I had, I think my anxiety in the past turned into depression. But only recently, well, last May did I experience my first panic attack and have been working on my anxiety ever since as a new condition for me. I have come a long way and doing much better. I'm off of the meds I was put on and haven't needed a Xanax either. No official panic attacks since July when I was at a family reunion.

Anyway, we're here to cheer you on as you work out your fears or whatever is bothering you. For me my accomplishment today was actually cleaning out a bathroom drawer and throwing things away! I have been frozen in my ability to get certain household tasks done that involve paperwork or some type of sorting and decision making. My coping mechanisms in the past have been working in my garden which is quite large. I've had to scale back on my hobbies, and postpone some dreams that were probably self imposed due to anxiety and frustration.

But I traded some of that activity to service or interaction with people outside of my home. So my home was ignored for awhile as it brings me great stress and anxiety. It didn't use to be like that, but I never had panic attacks either. Keep posting...Paisleegreen

[Flyer99]

Hi Butterflywings (I love your name by the way). Welcome to the program and to the website. As others have said, it is tough to start something new, especially if you don't know if it will all be worth the effort. But, be assured that this program does work. A few keys to remember: (1) take your time and if each lesson takes a bit longer, let it, (2) don't skip any lessons as one builds on another like a ladder, (3) pay particular attention to lesson 3 (replacing negative with positive thinking) and (4) do the relaxation exercise at least once a day. You will do just fine and we are here to help you. I am hoping that the online chat will be available soon as they are revamping it. There were many great people in there to help as well. Take care and good luck!

[sunnyw/chanceofstorm]

Hi all,
I'm absolutely new...ironically not scared or angry but excited and bewildered! I've been searching and praying for something like this for sooo long, only to hit one road block after another. I've been experiencing symptoms of bipolar for 17 years, drug free 90% of the time. Thank GOD I was allergic to 2 of the meds, had terrible stomache issues with a couple, and some made me feel like a zombie. I tried self help books and herbal remedies...nothing has given me more hope than the idea of this program! I haven't done the relaxation session-Where is it? Haven't even opened the jump start dvd. I have however, listened to the welcome cd and watched the coaching video via email. And am now ....taaaa daaa!...entering my first post. I'm sorry if I'm not sympathetic to the scared and angry part right now. But I have been there ...usually stay there for months and seriously consider putting an end to it. But I'm in the manic phase of my disorder now and as long as my mind doesn't spin and spiral out of control, it's a much better place for me. My sincere hope is that I will never see the depths of depression again! Know what you mean about letting the house go...and everything else for that matter.
Here's to us all being successful in using this program to permanently heal our befuddled brains!

[Wildcard]

Welcome, welcome welcome! You are taking your first steps into a wonderful new you! This program has help a bunch of people and will continue for a long time. Like the pthers have said, 1) do the relaxation cd, then do it again. 2)post often, read often. 3) Ask questions. You will find that even just reading others posts will help you also. They may have a question/problem that you dont know you have yet and when it hits you you'll have the idea of how to handle it. Again welcome to the wonderful ride of returning to a good life!