Day 1 - Going for it this time!

ItsOkayThisIsGood · Post by **ItsOkayThisIsGood** » Sun Jul 05, 2009 5:24 pm

Well I ordered this program over a year ago, and had many false starts, where I'd listen to the first few CDs, start the first few workbook exercises - but just didn't continue.

Follow-through for me has always been tough with everything. It wasn't until my boyfriend recently pointed out how this program helped him 10 years ago with his PTSD anxiety - that I realized I seriously need to try again, and this time WORK IT.

The question is: am I WILLING to do this? Do I want to get better? Do I want to take action instead of just living in my head with awareness that never changes anything?

Yes, I am willing because I am tired of living a life of limitation. I'm 39 now, and I can't see going another decade like this. No thanks!

So today I exercised, and I listened yet again to Session 1, this time taking thorough notes, and I got a lot out of it, even though I heard it all before. There's a big difference when you actually WANT to do it! You hear things you didn't hear before.

So I'm going to give this a real shot. If I have Avoidance issues, well then all the more reason for me to try. Avoidance is my main behavioral symptom. I'm over it. Fed up with it. Avoidance is the opposite of Action, and only with Action can I Accomplish! I want to accomplish things in life.

I will just do this one step at a time. I will rely on the program to guide me when I feel terrified and avoidant. It can only get better from here!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jul 26, 2009 4:57 am

hi i also started and then didnt finish the programme but i have just started again this week and i will suceed to the end..i just get to eager and think i am improving to quickley. i have suffered for 10years and i am 36 so the time is now!! no more! i will not give up this time round .

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jul 26, 2009 2:09 pm

Hi, looks like we're in the same boat. I bought this program a while back, found it useful, but didnt stick with it. I have alot going on with work right now which is going to make this challenging. But I really want to stick with it this time. Hopefully we can all motivate each other through this.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jul 27, 2009 3:03 pm

I started 2 days ago and I am already freaking out that I will not be able to get to the end. I am running in my head all the possible reasons why it won't work for me. That's what I usually do. I am very pessimistic. As my partner/boyfriend often points out, I simply can't accept the possibility of me actually being truly happy. I first listened to the relaxation tape on Saturday. Not thinking about anything is IMPOSSIBLE for me. I cannot turn my mind off. I listened to session 1 CD on Sunday and today (Monday) I watched the coaching DVD (session 1). I am going to read the guidebook tomorrow and see what is that about.
I would love to get better but I am also very afraid of disappointment. What if people don't like "new me", what if I don't like "new me"? I guess I have lived like that my whole life and it's hard to imagine anything different.
I got this program from my boyfriend's sister, who got it for her son. He didn't want to be bothered and she recently found out about my struggles. I promised her to try. I hope I will meet here some people who can help me (and possibly who I can help) get through tough times and start better way of life.
Did I mention I LOVE to talk?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 28, 2009 12:18 am

I had to give the program up:( i regret it but i acnnot afford that much money.

i will be seeking counselling which is covered by the health.