I am so sick of this..BLAH

Zoomy · Post by **Zoomy** » Mon Jun 02, 2008 9:46 am

I am so sick of panic attacks..JEEZ, I thought for sure that I had this all under control then BAM right in the middle of psychology class (coincidence?) I have a huge panic attack. I felt like a crack head, I mean, I couldn't keep still, I was fiddling with my hair, I could barely hold my head up, I felt like I was going to pass out right there and slap my head on the desk, my heart was about to jump out of my chest ect..So, I left the room..Right in the middle of class, I left and went to the bathroom and tried to settle down then went back in only to start the whole process over again for twenty more minutes until class was over..I am so p*st off right now about it because now I'm afraid to go back to class. I've had anxiety since I was a child so this stuff is nothing new to me, I know that it won't kill/hurt me but that doesn't help any, at this point I am just so sick of it..I am so close to finishing my degree and I refuse to quit, so I'm going to have to suck it up and finish this class..it's even an easy summer course with hardly any stress so what is my mother flippin' deal? I guess I just need to vent..I tell ya what, if anxiety were a person I would punch it in the face if I could..I am so sick of this stupid sickness.

alwaysbeenweird · Post by **alwaysbeenweird** » Mon Jun 02, 2008 11:02 am

I know exactly how you feel. For me it happens at work. It had gotten to the point that i would miss at least one day a week because i just couldn't find the strenth to go...just thinking about going to work and having an attack made me not want to go at all... This week (i started the program this week) i've decided that no matter what, i WILL go to work, panic attack or not. I agree though, even though we know it won't kill or hurt us, it makes it so hard to face a situation where it's happened before. Keep your head up. You can finish, you WILL finish your degree, so hang in there...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jun 03, 2008 3:35 am

Thank you so much for your reply..I know what is causing my stress, I'm trying to take on too much again and for me, I guess, it takes a panic attack to tell me to slow the hell down. I took today off, but tomorrow I'm going back. I refuse to let this run my life, I've worked too hard to get to where I am. I just let the negative nancy come out in me and apparently it's time to re-evaluate again..Thank you again Angie for your support and if you ever need help or a pep talk you can count on me.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jun 03, 2008 3:49 am

Zoomy,
Hang in there. Man wouldn't have invented the wheel if they were satisfied with "dragging" stuff.... it's a challenge that will make you stronger and keep up that "fighting" attitude!

Carolyn Dickman · Post by **Carolyn Dickman** » Wed Jun 11, 2008 4:22 am

Hi Zoomy. Boy do I hear you. I too am so sick of this. I get somewhat "kooky" about two hours before I go to work - and since retirement I only work with Seniors - now how "unanxiety" laden is that? I guess if we all hang in together we will see the benefits of the program. Slow process, yet somehow, in my gut, I really believe it will work. Got me journalling for the first time in my life and hey, that's a big, big step. Take Care and keep on trucking.