Starting Over - Not sure what my future holds

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue May 05, 2009 11:52 am

Hi Troy,
I'm also starting the program again. The first I started was over 10 years ago! At that time I listen to lesson 1 & the relaxation cd then returned everything. I just did not have the time or patience to even try... I was stressed out at work putting in 10-12 hour days... constantly complaining about everything and everyone, causing myself stress and anxiety... of course things weren't "MY FAULT" (lol)... well guess what? Things haven't changed, I'm still complaining and stressed out! So here I am again. I know this time is different I WILL complete this program and I know that if you push yourself "just a little" you will finish the program too! What do you have to lose? You "CAN" do it!
Good luck!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu May 07, 2009 3:28 pm

Thanks for the support everyone, especially angell. I am determined to get better, continued with the program today

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 13, 2009 6:33 am

Reading all of your posts, is amazing. We all have so many things incommon. And it is always so wonderful to realize you are not alone. This is also my second time. And I am hopeful. One day at a time..everyday is new, with a chance that things will get better. Don't give up, until Oct of this year I was helping others with my experience. And here I am. I know in my heart this to shall pass...Hang in there Troy. Everyone here is going through different stages of the same thing...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 13, 2009 7:23 am

Wow, I posted this same topic that I've started over as well. I posted it in the Depression blog. Everyone has been so supportive. Troy, what I see from your post is you are strong! You have done more than most by starting. And you can do it, a day at a time. We are all with you as we journey to recover. Take good care of yourself because you are strong, and you are worth it: )

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu May 14, 2009 3:35 am

Really rough this am. Hopeless feelings were overwhelming. This is only the third day of starting the program again, I feel like Dorthy in OZ trying to get help. Writing that story must of come from a place were we all can relate to. I felt better yesterday knowing I was doing something positive. Today the tears won't stop. Frustrated...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu May 14, 2009 2:28 pm

Hi Hnora, I hope you had a better day today. I was feeling stuck. Then I (my 4th day starting over)started reading a Joel Olsteen book to get my head in another place. It helped. I feel extremley frustrated too. If we can get unstuck from the thoughts with something, it helps.Some of my thoughts I can think of a silver lining. But some other thoughts there just is no answer. I am trying to keep telling myself that even when I feel like crap, I'm going to get better. We might not be able to see it now but we're going to get better. Just communicating on this forum says we have the strength somewhere inside to get better. I need to do the relaxation tape. For some reason, I have not made time to do it the past two days. It's very helpful to get our selves into another state.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat May 16, 2009 3:54 am

Thanks hopeful...Today is Sat. woke up with major anxiety. where does that come from...the frustration is I was felling really hopeful yesterday, thinking just last week I was engaging in my life. I am so stuck, I feel like I don't want to leave my room. The gut is churning..I am listening to week 2..about panic attacks. It is hard to focus right now, I just want my life back...