Now is Gulf War Syndrome, due to the chemical disbursement affecting you physically or medically or are you talking about P.T.S.D. ?I've been married for 33 years, so that's why when you can be together for 16 years you are doing great!
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Oh, good, I'm glad that I helped you. Now is Gulf War Syndrome, due to the chemical disbursement affecting you physically or medically or are you talking about P.T.S.D. ?
I've been married for 33 years, so that's why when you can be together for 16 years you are doing great! paislee
Now is Gulf War Syndrome, due to the chemical disbursement affecting you physically or medically or are you talking about P.T.S.D. ?I've been married for 33 years, so that's why when you can be together for 16 years you are doing great!
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That is awesome, Freemind! I have also been wanting to go back to school. It is daunting but I'm hoping to conquer that darn anticipatory anxiety, which is always the killer for me. I've been out of work for a couple of months and have signed up for classes at one of the local Workforce Centers just to brush up on my computer skills, so it's a start. Perhaps down the road I will go further but for now, I feel pretty good about it. 
I wish you all the best with your classes as well and I know that it will open up some new possibilities for you!
I wish you all the best with your classes as well and I know that it will open up some new possibilities for you!
One day at a time is the key for me!
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Hey Paislee,
Thanks again. To answer your question, the illnesses I have are both. As far as what causes them, no one has said yet. I have been sick a long time. I have depression, that I think, runs in my family. However I delt with by working my but off. I didn't start breaking down untill the other illnesses started makeing my life hell. I started missing alot of work and it started takeing it's tole on my family. I finally went to a VA hospital and one by one they started finding all the illnesses my brothers and sisters have fallen to. I thought it would not happen to me. It took a breakdown to get me to the hospital at my fiance's urgeing. I am disabled according to the VA. I have continued to work. This will not get me. I take my pills for both my body and my mind and hope to be rid of the ones for my mind some day. I will never be able to be off the ones for my body untill they find a cause and cure. We are strong. I have you and my family. God Bless.
Thanks again. To answer your question, the illnesses I have are both. As far as what causes them, no one has said yet. I have been sick a long time. I have depression, that I think, runs in my family. However I delt with by working my but off. I didn't start breaking down untill the other illnesses started makeing my life hell. I started missing alot of work and it started takeing it's tole on my family. I finally went to a VA hospital and one by one they started finding all the illnesses my brothers and sisters have fallen to. I thought it would not happen to me. It took a breakdown to get me to the hospital at my fiance's urgeing. I am disabled according to the VA. I have continued to work. This will not get me. I take my pills for both my body and my mind and hope to be rid of the ones for my mind some day. I will never be able to be off the ones for my body untill they find a cause and cure. We are strong. I have you and my family. God Bless.
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Hi Freemind, I'm sorry about your illnesses. That must be very hard. I'm proud of you for working your tail off and doing all that you can to feel better. Yep, I think that is always a struggle on my part is experiencing the aging process, besides the emotional problems. We're just here to live a full life and move out of our earthly body. I just have a hard time with my earthly body being so earthy! LOL! I have in my mind that I should never have to hurt, ache or be in pain. I should always be happy and be full of energy and I shouldn't have any wrinkles and can eat what I want and not gain weight!
Sadly, I get rude awakenings that I'm going to age...now to find peace in that knowledge is the hard part. I think that is part of my anxiety is that things do not remain the same. Everything is in constant motion whether we see it or not, so that is my difficulty is facing up to reality and making friends with it. Thanks for your thoughts. Have a good day! Paislee
Sadly, I get rude awakenings that I'm going to age...now to find peace in that knowledge is the hard part. I think that is part of my anxiety is that things do not remain the same. Everything is in constant motion whether we see it or not, so that is my difficulty is facing up to reality and making friends with it. Thanks for your thoughts. Have a good day! Paislee
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Hey friends,
Thank you again for your reply. I know with age we all start to suffer the sins of our youth. I used to play alot of sports, so my body suffers that pain. I am saddened however over the other illnesses that keep getting around mine and my doctors best efforts to keep them to a minumum. I really don't want to sound like a whinny baby, it's just very, very frustrating. I can't help sometimes doing the "what ifs". You know, What if I hadn't gone into the service. What if I didn't comply with the order to take the pills. WHAT IF, WHAT IF, WHAT IF! My mind gets trapped, and I start spinning. I don't share any of this with Jeff or the kids. There is enough going on right now. I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and push on. "I never saw a wild thing, sorry for itself...." God Bless.
Thank you again for your reply. I know with age we all start to suffer the sins of our youth. I used to play alot of sports, so my body suffers that pain. I am saddened however over the other illnesses that keep getting around mine and my doctors best efforts to keep them to a minumum. I really don't want to sound like a whinny baby, it's just very, very frustrating. I can't help sometimes doing the "what ifs". You know, What if I hadn't gone into the service. What if I didn't comply with the order to take the pills. WHAT IF, WHAT IF, WHAT IF! My mind gets trapped, and I start spinning. I don't share any of this with Jeff or the kids. There is enough going on right now. I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and push on. "I never saw a wild thing, sorry for itself...." God Bless.
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Oh, it is good to feel sorry for yourself once in awhile, I did the other night, had a good cry and I feel better. 
Still have problems, but I had a good prayer session. Me pouring out my soul, then listening, then talking, then listening. I feel encouraged. It also helped to have my younger sister call and we had a good visit. Now its time to get busy.
Paislee
Still have problems, but I had a good prayer session. Me pouring out my soul, then listening, then talking, then listening. I feel encouraged. It also helped to have my younger sister call and we had a good visit. Now its time to get busy. Paislee
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I really like the way you think. I'm still not as up as I want to be right now, but working on it. I think I will give my older sis a call. I reall don't like to cry. I always feel like a fool when it's all over with. I think I can use one. Still haven't fixed the family problem. I lent disc one to my son. I think he needs it. He said he would be over again today so I can find out what he thinks. I hope it stricks a cord like it did for me. I'm very, very worried about him. He is 23 and in trouble. I am trying to be positive for him and give him words of wisdom. I am letting him know we are with him and love him and are here for anything he needs. I feel odd about talking to you about this. I'm sorry if this brings back your pain. God Bless.
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Hey, freemind, you aren't bringing back any pain that I haven't already experienced and recovered from. Really, its true, we're here on earth to have pain, but we're also here to have joy. It is the purpose of life to experience the good and the bad, and if we want to complain, and cry about it, that's okay. I guess it is to whom we complain to that makes the difference. That is the test in life is finding the safe person to be free to gripe to, we can thank Lucinda for that.
What is troubling your son? Paislee
What is troubling your son? Paislee
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We found out he has been self medicating with pot. He was dignosed with ADHD and social anxiety when he was little. We did the medication thing to get him through school but he did not like them. Now he is 23 and not at home and says the pot helps calm him and helps him focus. I think it has more to do with the friends he has and the social anxiety. I wish you knew him. He is such a great person. He just does not have faith in himself to see what I see. He wants everything right NOW. He works and trys very hard to be self sufficient. He has had three girlfriends two of which cheated on him. The other one was just to young. He wants his soulmate. I gave him disc one to try. He told me he only listened to half. He told his sister it hit a few cords with him. I work first shift and he works second so if I'm lucky I might see him one day out of a weekend. I am very worried. He has gotten himself in trouble. We are all waiting to get to the end of this. I hope this is the only time we have to go through this. I think I worried myself sick. I have been laid up with a wonderful headcold. 
God Bless
God Bless