STILL THINK ONE DAY IM GONNA GO NUTS PLEASE GIVE SOME ADVISE

rinolinca · Post by **rinolinca** » Mon May 19, 2008 7:01 pm

don57 i really gotta thank you.
ever since i read that, i don't take the idea of losing control (whatever that means) so seriously.
everytime i worry about being anxious, or upset over nothing i get that visual in my head of eating bugs and it really makes me laugh.
its such a relief to see my anxiety in a different way.
i feel a little like i'm in the grips of a big ugly monster who's slowly losing his grip on me.
i can almost breath easy.

PattyD. · Post by **PattyD.** » Mon May 19, 2008 7:28 pm

Well, I feel like the lone ranger here but I have "gone crazy." I've had three major depressions over my lifetime accompanied by psychosis. It runs in my family, my great grandmother and uncle had episodes like mine. Crazy for me is thinking things are real when they are not, like the T.V. sending me messages or finding messages in books. Thinking people can read my mind. I'm on medication and that takes care of the episodes. I felt very confused and not at all like my usual self. I believe for me it is a chemical imbalance. I get anxious and have mini panic attacks at times now but I don't go crazy due to my meds. I have a huge extended family, and a tiny portion of us had episodes. Most people do not have a serious mental illness but have only anxiety disorders. When I was in the mental hospital in '05 I saw what crazy looked like. And I saw people get well with medication. Anxiety does not cause a person to go crazy. It just feels that way.

Danielle Waas · Post by **Danielle Waas** » Sun Jul 06, 2008 7:01 am

Just wanted to say you are definately not alone!!! I experiance this problem all the time & since I learned to talk myself through it I am at least able to get through it faster. Hang in there! I will be thinking of you!

Heather Wilson · Post by **Heather Wilson** » Thu Aug 28, 2008 3:14 pm

Hey I know exactly what your going through! I have been feeling the exact same way for the past three years. I hope you are doing better, as for me I am barely starting this program. I wish you the best as no one deserves to feel this way.

Shannon72 · Post by **Shannon72** » Tue Sep 02, 2008 6:48 am

Geez. You hit the nail on the head.. when I am in full blown panic mode.. I am so detached and in my own world that I just cannot relate to anyone.. people talk and I dont hear it.. I am lookin at them but I see nothing.. its like I am in a bubble and noone can get to me....its terrible!

I often wonder if I should do myself a favor and pack up my pajamas and head to the mental hospital now.. at least this way I can avoid the embarrasment when I have to call 911 to come help me.

When I am in full blown panic with bad thoughts.. thats my idea of crazy.. I fear I will be stuck like that.. that it wont pass that it will linger forever.. how miserable!!