Third time is an charm

[kat4rgod]

I hate to say this will be my third time starting the program since I received it a year and a half ago. I would start and get busy with life and drop it the program. I have off work for three months due to an torn tendon. I had surgery the middle of May and I know I shouldn't but because of drug interactions I took myself off my zoloft and buspar. Over the last serveral weeks I have experieced an array of emotions. I thought three months ago before this happened I had worked through all my anxiety except driving an car. I lived an very active life. I have gone to staying at home, going to dr appts, physical therapy and my daughter's. So I have become very depressed. My family has told me that I sound very angry, short with them and see an diffinate change since I have been off the meds. I can cry at commericals when I get anxious I can actually feel it in my chest. Tonight I saw the tv show by the program the same one as when I ordered the program. I still have at least 10 weeks before I can go back to work. I have decided now is the time there is nothing to distract me. I want this, I deserve this. It is time to completely heal myself.

[CarolM]

I'm right here with ya. i've had this program for over 10 years (wow that is hard to write). I've started it a few times and never got past the 3rd lesson. I either got too anxious, busy or lazy. I've beaten myself up over the years for this but sometimes i feel like i'm getting too old to beat myself up. This time i'm not worried about doing it perfectly, or the what if's if it doesn't work for me. I'm looking at it this way, i just wasn't ready before or whatever reason. Now i'm doing it and that's that. Just like you said we deserve it. We deserve a life, it's too short to add another thing to feel guilty about. This is a journey and whether you take it a day, a year or 10years after you get the program it makes no difference. Just like when people quit drinking or smoking or drugs it doesn't happen until they are ready. We'll make it!!

[LyndaLu]

Dear Kat: I understand exactly what you are talking about. I purchased the Program last year and instead of completing one session per week I am basically completing one session per month ! I guess we all need to work the Program at our own pace and not feel guilty about doing it perfectly and doing it on time. Just take your time and really concentrate on each session and how it pertains to your own life.

Another note: being off of work due to an injury.( The same thing happened to me, I was on Short Term Disability from my job for five months and during that time I felt like doing NOTHING. I stayed home, went to doctors appointments,and occassionally visited my elderly mother. Before my leave from work I was active at my job and in my life.) Now you are at home all day and you have too much time to dwell on eveything while doing nothing. You must distract yourself and work on SOMETHING, ANYTHING while you are off from your job the next 10 weeks. I hope this information is comforting to you and that you know we are here to listen and understand. Remember, you are an intelligent, caring and compassionate individual.

PS: Go back to your doctor and talk to he/she about your medications, this should ease your recent discomfort and put you back on the right track.

Lynda Lu

[lisaniebla]

I'm right here with ya. i've had this program for over 10 years (wow that is hard to write). I've started it a few times and never got past the 3rd lesson.

wow... sounds like you are telling MY life story there! no, we certainly can't beat ourselves up about it, but we CAN start anew!!!
i also took myself off of zoloft without informing my doctor. i did drop into a much deeper depression but have kept myself off of it. just my personal decision. i have hard days but think i can survive without med. i'm not bipolar or schizophrenic, so i think i need coping skills and i will survive.
i have ALSO been off due to an on the job injury! that can be depressing in and of itself, but it was a head injury (mild concussion) which comes with its own level of depression.
i wish each of you the best and i do hope that we can somehow be a support for each other. best of luck to you all.

[kat4rgod]

Hi everyone thank you for your responses they definately help. I will be starting week two tomorrow. I have been on vacation visiting my family for the past two weeks. And I did it without meds!!! I am still not completely out of the depression but I am doing better. This is my first day home so I'm really tired but I will post more tomorrow. Again thank you.

[racer18]

i started many times.I start feeling much better by week 3 or 4 and quit. I plan on going tru this time.

[bestfriend]

brand new to this program. my sister-in-law suggested, and i took, her advice and listened to the start-up cd, browsed the first section of the book. I'm ready, I have started the relaxation portions, and will begin a journal soon. hope this forum will be a place to share progress, receive & give inspiration, and mark accomplishments. I feel better already.....

[Paisleegreen]

Welcome everybody. I've been through the program once and it has helped me tremondously. I hope you all are doing well. Keep up the good work, it does help. Paislee

[RosalesT]

I know the feeling as well! I bought this thing last year, and midway through paying for it, I only saw it as another bill pulling itself for a box I would never use! I cant let that happen again, so now Im going to try my best and see where this goes. Im trying my best to remain positive. Its very important for me as lately the things I love to do outside seem impacted by anxiety issues because of the idea of being helpless out in public being surrounded my strangers.