My first week

pduke · Post by **pduke** » Wed Jun 10, 2009 10:44 am

I started the program this week - getting on-line was very hard for me, but I just made myself do it. I am not sure when I am going to feel any different, but I am hoping it is soon - I haven't have a good nights sleep in years!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jun 10, 2009 11:22 am

It has been a great week… I find that I have most of my anxiety due to competing for attention amongst any genre of people like co-workers, parents, roommates, and girls. I feel like I have to be the most interesting or the best and definitely not worst person. I’m not sure if I’m really a perfectionist but, I do have a lot of what if thoughts, or negative thoughts about myself. I also have a lot of anxiety in social situation when I don’t know what to say. I have fear of not being able to talk in large groups of people. I fear confronting people who maybe important to me. I know that a lot of my relationships with my family have suffered because I have this social anxiety. It’s funny but I feel that I have to talk or that I’m not talking enough around people. I know that for the past school year being under large amounts of stress caused me to withdraw myself from social situations. And being very studious made it even hard to carry on conversation with people and be social. I’ve experienced many of the panic attacks small scale and large in social situations. I know that if I apply myself to this program I will overcome. I have to overcome to enjoy life more fully. And capture I’m dreams.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jun 10, 2009 2:22 pm

I've had the program for months but am starting it this week. Am so happy you're both starting it now also. You are smart, Andrew, to be starting at a young age. I still have very similar social fears as yours after many years of trying to overcome on my own, which only made it worse. I recently joined a hiking club and don't feel I talk enough. Conversing one-on-one or with a couple I do just fine, (to me, a couple works much like a single person.) However, if I'm with more than one other seperate person I'm the one that listens and soon I feel out of place. The group was 20 strong today and was at times uncomfortable for the same reasons you stated.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 11, 2009 9:26 am

Hello everyone, this is also my first week. I am so anxious and excited about starting my life. I feel like the "anxiety/panic monster" as taken over certain periods of my life. I started having horrible panic attacks when I was about 12 years old. They came out of no where and had no idea why I was getting them, so it made matters worse. I was a young other wise healthy girl so this was extremely scary. Doctors told me I was too young to have generalized anxiety, so they ran test after test and couldn't find anything wrong with me. So there I was confused and felt all alone. I am 27 today and have a 2 1/2 yr old boy. I feel like this program will help. I have been on several different medications and have never really gotten passed the feelings. Doctors just said well try this one and kept bouncing me back from one medication to the next. Making matters worse, because it just made me feel more helpless.I am here with hope and excitement and ready for a change and to be able to give my family 100% of me and to just start living. Good luck and God bless everyone!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jun 12, 2009 4:54 am

I started yesterday and I believe I may have had my first ever panic attack. It triggered while reading the 1 session guidebook re: depression. I already posted a topic about my thoughts on that here (click me for details). Since then, I calmed down and wrote in my journal. Writing and typing really helped me calm down. I highly suggest keeping a journal to track ur high anxious moments. Good luck everybody!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jun 12, 2009 6:39 am

I have started my first day on the program and have finished listening to the first CD today at work. From my understanding I have to listen to the audio three times during the week it is assigned and at least two time before starting the guide book right? Will someone give me help on what I should include in my biography?
Listening to the first tape I have realized that I have anxiety, before I wasn’t for sure. At first I didn’t want to believe I had anxiety, because of the thought I’m only 22. As I think back I think it had set in when my parents had got a divorce. I will go into a little more detail later. As far as I can remember I had to have everything perfect and in its place, and if it wasn’t a swarm of emotions would come over me. Some of those would be and still do are: sad where I’m laying on the floor crying, mad where I am throwing everything away or on the floor, or sometime confused on why I can’t just be happy to have things and to be alive there are people that have it worse. Is there anyone that can relate?
Then I sometimes wonder why can’t I ever get my list of things to do done, is it just me? I don’t know what it really write and I know my thoughts are all over, but maybe someone can understand and give me some insight.