I'm pregnant with scary thoughts..what now?

justgettingby · Post by **justgettingby** » Mon Nov 15, 2010 4:23 am

I've been dealing with scary thoughts for about 2 years now. They started with fear of hurting my loved ones, then it spiraled to "what if I'm crazy?" That thought spiraled into all different scenarios. It had me experiencing some heavy anxiety for some time until I googled scary thoughts on the internet and found out so many people go through this type of anxiety. I've learned to deal with it (or so)...but I do have my bouts. This one deals with my pregnancy. I'm about 4 months pregnant and all is well, except for this scary thought that pops in my head........What if I'm not pregnant? What if I'm really crazy and I'm pretending to be pregnant? It has me feeling sad and mad at the same time, because I should know better than to let this thought get to me!! Why do I do this to myself? I have my good days, when I can fight this thought off, but on my off days it spirals my thinking all over the place! My mind starts making scenarios of every possible action that can you feel your losing it. I know I've over come alot, but this one about my pregnancy and thoughts of losing my mind doesn't' release me!! Any help out there???

sherry2010 · Post by **sherry2010** » Mon Nov 15, 2010 1:17 pm

i'm sooo curious as to why for some of us the "what ifs" manifest themselves in fear of going crazy, then for others they seem to center around fear of death and illness. Mine is death and illness, so much sometimes that I wish I would go officially crazy so that I would stop obsessing about it. Which I'm sure to you sounds crazy, right?
aww, I feel a lot for you though. I just had my first baby in August, and when I was pregnant my anxiety came back really badly too; but in a way that I felt my body might break down somehow.
Do you have any thoughts on why you think you fear going crazy? Have you had your ultrasound yet? I found for me, having that confirmed that there was a little human really inside of me.

karmatism · Post by **karmatism** » Mon Nov 29, 2010 9:14 am

I agree, the ultrasound will help. Also once you start feeling life, it will be a constant (pretty cool) reminder. Even without anxiety pregnancy can make you question a lot of things and a whole host of emotions can come with the hormones flooding your body. Just try and be patient with yourself and keep working the program. Maybe come up with one simple positive statement you repeat when the thoughts come. Something like, "I am pregnant. I've had all the tests to prove it. I can't wait to meet my new baby."

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Mon Nov 29, 2010 9:36 am

I think too, that when you feel life, you might feel better.