Lack of acceptance

Angel38 · Post by **Angel38** » Wed Dec 15, 2010 12:03 pm

Hi. I have something to say that I don't know if others will want to hear or not. Am I the only person who feels that knowing the body symptoms and the emotional symptoms won't hurt me is just not enough? I mean, I don't want to feel them at all. Im worn out from trying. Im worn out from getting through each day. I just want to be normal and comfortable in my skin and in life. I want to live without this. Free of having to have any of it. Free of fear, free of body symptoms, free of anxiety and worry and shame and guilt and trying and trying and trying!!!! What is it like to just live???? My partner is a very strong and grounded person. He doesnt have fear, anxiety, he feels happy to travel....he loves it!! He isn't scared to be sick or throw up, loves to socialize. I respect him deeply. I am also more envious than I can explain

Does anyone else feel any of this??

SilverLining · Post by **SilverLining** » Wed Dec 15, 2010 2:43 pm

Hey Angel, I think alot of us on here feel the very same way. I would absolutely love to not have any of the body symptoms or emotional symptoms and just live life without any anxious thoughts!! I know we have to do the work but we can dream, can't we??

Angel38 · Post by **Angel38** » Thu Dec 16, 2010 7:33 am

Hi SilverLining--
I'm sorry for being a bummer. I don't want to bring others down. I am just very tired and frightened and longing for peace. Its the dream of being happy and healthy that makes me try. It also fules my desires and therefore, often my frustration. Thank you for responding.

Molly77 · Post by **Molly77** » Thu Dec 23, 2010 10:47 am

hey there! I am just starting and yes...I have felt this way and still do. I feel upset knowing that I may have to deal with these physical sensations too. Although, I feel hope that this will work and make life easier over "time". Hate the process of healing sometimes because it doesn't happen when I want it too. Yeah...I think those things too. But I figure..I have lived with it this long, what is a little longer for recovery? From what I hear breathing through them and accepting that you are having an attack or feeling it, makes it leave faster. That's my understanding. So far, the attacks aren't as long for me and I am only on day 4. I have the general anxiety that sits in my chest but isn't like it was. I would like the pain in my chest to go..but atleast it isn't an attack...this is better than constant attacks. Hopefully over more recovery the constant general anxiety won't be a constant anymore.

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Thu Dec 23, 2010 2:49 pm

Thanks for your response Molly, I haven't seen this one yet. But I agree, I would love to have all these anxious feelings go away. Especially since I have never felt them like I do now. It is a very uncomfortable feeling and I'm hoping along all of you to be rid of these feelings.

Which I think I'm doing pretty good, it is now Dec 23rd, spent the day wrapping presents. I had to finally quit because I couldn't make up my mind which gift to give which kid(adult child) and being very picky with the wrapping paper.

But I did get most of them wrapped and answered phone calls, greeted people at the front door and now I'm on here responding to you guys.
I am really tired though from being very busy the past few days.

Shopping, visiting relatives, socializing, mailing Christmas Cards, staying up late, Boy, what a week! :p

Paislee

Molly77 · Post by **Molly77** » Wed Dec 29, 2010 3:04 pm

I have also had another thought about this...no one is free of the feeling of anxiety, fear, guilt or shame. They just have these feelings at normal times and it isn't out of control. There isn't anyone that doesn't feel these feelings off and on throughout their lives...that isn't a real world sweetie.