feel out of control/scared!!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 09, 2008 3:13 am

Oh Holly I know how you feel. I don't have good luck at all with anti-depressants and I am hoping I can feel normal again without meds. I just started talk therapy and I know their next step is going to be putting me on some meds. I have tried numerous ones in the past and they just don't agree with me system. The last one was lexapro---I could not shed a tear or crack a smile if I wanted to. I was a complete zombie and that was only from 2 weeks of taking it. I stopped and I was able to feel again. The only way I think I may able to beat this is to start excercising daily for 30 minutes or more. I think the endorphins may help boost my mood. I am just lacking the will power and the motrivation to get started. How about you? Do you excercise daily?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 09, 2008 3:47 am

Everyone's body chemistry is so different that there is no way you can compare yourself taking a drug to someone else taking the same drug. Everyone has different effects on these meds. I tried several of them years ago and the only one I could take was Prozac and in very small dosages and not every day. Other people on this said they were taking 4 times my dosage and it wasn't even effecting them. Go figure - You have to find a dosage and med that fits you and not compare yourself to what other people are taking.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 09, 2008 4:52 am

for some people they can take an anti-depressant for just a day and feel nothing. my body is so sensitive that i felt something and i was not anticipating what i had felt. the same thing happened to me when i tried lexapro. the first day i was nuts and as soon as i was off i was fine. so i know the paxil increased my anxiety alot and now i have new symptoms. my chest feels really heavy and fluttery and iv never had that before till the paxil. and its been 3 nights now and still feel it. in fact it jults me up at night and i wake up scared and my heart is pounding. i dont think anti-deps are for me at all!!! now i am left even more nervous aqnd scares than
before

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 09, 2008 5:20 am

holly, I am sorry to say I disagree with you. Any doctor would tell you that it is out of your system and this is stemming from your own fears. You took only one pill.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 09, 2008 5:44 am

i was not anticipating these feelings so how could it all be me? i know it was just one pill but i know that it was that pill and not all me. yes i contributed to the anxiety because i was so frightened but the anxiety i had was way different than my usual anxiety. . . i also am a very small person and am prone to be sensitive to most any medicine. . . . this chest thing i feel and when iy julted me up is something i never got before. . and yes i am creating anxiety too about it but its hard not to because iv never been julted awake with panic and with a heaviness in my chest. almost when i touch my chest it tickles . . but like a dull tickle or something. .. .i know that sounds totally weird and im sure theres a better word to describe how my chest feels but it is very uncomfortable. not like a bruise. thanks for the replies

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 09, 2008 5:52 am

The pill is gone, Holly J. Totally gone! Believe me, it has passed out of your system. It's gone down the toilet (literally!). I don't mean to belittle this, because my anxiety first began when I swallowed a pill with which I was not familiar at the time (valerian root from the health food store to help me sleep), and since then I have not been able to take medication/pills of any kind. I have only in the past few years been able to graduate to drinking aspirin desolved in water whenever I have a severe headache. BUT! One thing I do recognize is that the anxiety stemming from my first scary spisode is all in my mind! I obsessed and obsessed about medication/pills until it evolved into not only a monkey on my back, but King Kong himself! It is the THOUGHTS which you are having regarding the medication which are bringing on your symptoms, not the medication itself, which is now long gone. Your motivation to work with the program and your therapist is a good one, and I urge you to go to it with every ounce of will power which you have in you! Try to do the relaxation tape as much as possible, even just playing it in the background as you go about your day, if you can.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 09, 2008 10:34 am

I agree with Emma. That one pill is totally out of your system so that is not causing these new symptoms your anxiety is!

Starting meds can cause more anxiety but you need to give them a chance at least 2-8 weeks to see how they truly effect you. When I started Lexapro 6 weeks ago the fisrt week was pretty bad and made me more anxious by the 2nd week I felt great and now I feel like my old self, cant even tell I take the meds, other than the fact that I have no anxiety, PMS, or worrying.

You have to find a program whether it be drugs or therapy or both that works for you an COMMIT to it if you want to get better. There will be rough spots and probably an increase in axious of symptoms regardless of what you choose to do because healiong takes time and causes anxiety until you see the light.

Good luck in whatever you chose.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 09, 2008 2:46 pm

Yes obviously I made my panic worse but that was because i have never felt such panic so that scared me and this was before i was on session 2 which has helped me a little. i do have a therapist and i told him i didnt want to take meds due to how sensitive i have become to them. I decided to take meds cause i thought why not we'll see. . I didnt like the effect it gave me AND it brought back memories of how terrible i used to be when on lexapro and celexa. So that was a mistake I made to take paxil. Im glad you all can get through the side effects and have your medication work for you. . I guess i will just work with the program and my therapist. thanks

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jun 10, 2008 3:35 am

Good for you! You have taken an incredibly important first step by deciding what is right for YOU, and resolving to go ahead with it. YOU CAN DO IT! Very best of luck, Holly.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jun 10, 2008 3:49 am

I have to agree with everyone else, it's out of your system and you are doing this to yourself. I am not sure about side effects with one pill, but even if you did it's gone by now. I was on wellbutrin for 2 weeks and suffered from every side effect it has, but once I figured out thats what was causing it, I stopped taking it and was fine within 2 or 3 days. Are you doing the program at all?