Zoloft experiences needed please!

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Hi All,
I've been fighting my depression and anxiety for four years now and started on the Zoloft and am now on Welbutrin. Zoloft completely took away my sex drive. All of the medications I've taken have taken it away except the Welbutrin. "BUT," I have a terrible side effect from the Welbutrin, which is that it makes me pissed and bark at my kids and husband, whichh is just not like me, no patience, etc., so my doctor gave me Neurontin for the side effect and that has taken care of it and also taken away the sex drive. Initially when I started on the Welbutrin I got a sex drive back plus a bit, but the Neurontin killed it and I've tried to get off the Neurontin, but can't. It's horrible. Now, back to the Zoloft, it seemed to help with my depression and anxiety, but I had some of the same feelings as some of you did. Sex also repulsed me, my husband repulsed me and it has put a huge strain on our marriage. Can't blame him. He doesn't know about what I go through or my depression because he, like everyone in my family, doesn't understand and I'm judged and treated differently. One of the biggest problems, also, with Zoloft was my sweating. It was horrible! It's the norepinephrine in the medication that causes the sweating. Then I didn't feel like it was working for me, so I started on Cymbalta, and I sweated even worse. It worked better for me, but I noticed that I wasn't able to cry or have certain feelings like I should have. Maybe my dose was too high. They started me on the highest dose. This also gave me no sex drive and still with the repulsion for my husband. I got off of that med mainly because of the sweating. My doctor, psyciatrist, had said that all of the antidepressent medications take away the sex drive. It's just the way it is. With the exception of Welbutrin. But the Neurontin takes away my memory. It's scary and I don't like it at all. Everything so far has killed my memory. We're now going to try something else, supposedly. My doctor has me take the MMPI-2 test along with other tests before he changes my medication to see where I'm at. I've tried and am in counseling, therapy, and I know what the tools are to help with my disorder, but it's hard and I'm not getting any better. Just tried to get off the meds a few weeks ago, really thought I was ready, and I just spiralled down. I don't know a soul with the same problem and I wish I had someone to talk to or a friend or two. I have two babies, 2 and 4, and my husband, and my dad lives in a little house we built for him out in the backyard, and I can't enjoy them, my babies and my husband and the rest of my family and life like I wish I could and should be able to. I would do just about anything to get help or help myself. This is my first time on the website and can't stop reading. If there's any other questions I can answer about Zoloft or any other medication, please don't hesitate to ask.
Sincerely.......